The Billionaire's Bet 2, A Hot Call(8)
Is he actually contemplating to let me be more than just his sub? Or is he afraid?
Whatever it was, I needed to find out.
Chapter 3
We hadn’t spoken the entire trip. When we came home, the night was still young, but Dominic went straight off to bed after cleaning the toy. I was supposed to go with him. A rule was a rule and breaking it meant getting punished and I wasn’t going to have that any time soon if it were up to me.
Oh, and he wants me naked.
With reddened cheeks, I took off my clothes, but he didn’t even look at me. He faced the ceiling, eyes wide open, ignoring me completely. I got into the bed and pulled the covers closer, shivering from the cold. I hesitated to crawl closer to him, but I did it anyway. He pulled away from me.
“Don’t,” was all that came out, but it was enough. It hurt though. It was harsh and felt cruel. I needed his warmth and touch, to feel that someone wanted me, but he wouldn’t give it to me. I felt tears sting my eyes, but blinked them away. What was I doing? This man only wanted to have sex with me, not love me. Why did I ever think he might?
I rolled onto my side and moved as far away from him as I could. Our contract had only just started, but I was already thinking about calling it quits. How could I be someone’s sub, be a complete slave to someone, and do everything he desired, if he couldn’t give me what I wanted in return?
I brushed away a tear that had forced its way out and hugged my pillow. He sighed. It sounded like a breath of agony that had to come out. Frustrating.
He moved around in the bed and then I felt his warm hand on my side. It slowly slithered across my waist, toward my belly button until it reached the end. Dominic slid closer to me; I could feel the bed shift in the air. He dragged me closer to him and let out a heavy sigh again, this time against my shoulder blades.
“I’m sorry,” he said.
I sighed and closed my eyes, not knowing what to say. Not even knowing if I was allowed to say anything.
“Say something,” he said, after a while.
“It’s hard,” I whispered, trying to hold back the tears.
“I told you from the beginning that being a sub is hard. If you don’t enjoy our contract, we can end it.”
“No, that’s not it.”
“Then what?”
“I … I want more … from you.”
“Like what? I give you pleasure. Isn’t that what you were after? At least, that’s what I thought our mutual agreement was.”
“It is. But you know what I mean. What you did back there, in the car after we had sex, that’s what I want. I know you felt it too. I could feel it by the way you touched me. Don’t deny it, please.”
Dominic was silent for a few seconds and just caressed my belly. “I’m not.”
I turned around in his arms to look him straight in the eye. “I need it, badly. I know I said I could deal with just your lifestyle, but I need more than that.”
He kissed the nape of my neck. “I know and you deserve it. Especially considering the way I treat you.” He let out an awkward chuckle sounding more like he wanted to ease the mood.
“Then why don’t you?” I said.
He shifted his gaze to the ceiling again and then closed his eyes. “I just can’t.”
“But why? What are you so afraid of?”
Dominic’s eyebrows drew together and he bit his lip. “I don’t want to talk about this now.”
“But I do.”
“Stop this. You are still my sub and you are to behave. We’ll have this discussion later. I need to sleep.”
I rolled my eyes and moved back to my side again, moping. There was something about this that just did not feel right. He wasn’t telling me everything. I knew he’d hide some parts about his life, especially since I was new, but now that I was actually considering staying with him, I wanted to know more about him. He just wouldn’t let me in.
When Dominic went to work then next day I felt so alone in his huge loft. I just wanted a breath of fresh air, so I decided I’d go jog for a bit. He wasn’t home anyway so if I didn’t make a mess and would clean myself afterward, he wouldn’t notice I was gone anyway.
I ran for an hour or two, I didn’t really keep track of time, but the freedom and exercise were an amazing feeling. This was what I needed after such a tumultuous week. Some time on my own outside the house, even though I knew it wasn’t allowed without his permission. Well, he didn’t give me the chance to ask. He was gone before I was out of bed.
I was out of breath when I reached the lobby of his apartment building and the guy at the door greeted me with a confused look on his face. Guess he wasn’t used to seeing Dominic’s girls outside the house without him knowing of it. I wondered if he might tell.