His mate didn’t crave any kind of submission at the hands of a cruel man. She wanted to be submissive for the right man who’d take care of her and treat her right, not like some animal.
The scars inside her ran deep, and yet, she boxed them away as if there was not a care in the world. She wouldn’t acknowledge his claiming. They’d never fucked, and he’d not met her pack alpha.
Her one and only request was that her presence remain a secret. She didn’t want him to approach her pack alpha, and as her mate and Dom, he couldn’t do what she asked him not to. With every day that passed he tried to prove to her over and over again that she could trust him.
She allowed him to touch her, but only in punishment never in intimacy.
Their relationship was pitiful, but it’s what he needed. His wolf calmed a little when he was with her and now refused to lose that just because of her being difficult.
“You could find someone else, Daniel. You don’t have to put up with this crap.” Jake placed a hand on his shoulder.
“I’ve got no choice. She’s my other half. My only reason for going to Kinkster’s now.” From the moment Dawn entered his life, she’d destroyed him for any other woman. He used to take pleasure in training submissives and sharing a unique lifestyle with other women. Now, he depended on Dawn. She didn’t have the first clue of the power she held over him. He saw it in her eyes when they were together. She didn’t trust her responses or her senses. Had her senses let her down in the past? He didn’t know. There was so much he didn’t know about his woman. She was a mystery he wanted to solve.
“The rest of the pack, do they share your thoughts?” Daniel asked.
“They’re concerned for their Alpha, their leader. You’ve got to understand their worries.”
“I’ve got to understand nothing, Jake. I care for my pack, and no decision I make is easy.” He ran a hand down his face feeling the desire to find his mate. His wolf wished to bask in her scent and to see her submission at his feet.
“We know you’ll take care when you make this decision. We’re just concerned about you. Your wolf has run every day for the last month. Nothing you do seems to lock him up tight. Dawn keeping you at arms’-length is driving your wolf hard. One year, Daniel, one year you’ve been going through this. Something needs to stop.”
He turned to look at Jake. Dave and Bill were standing a good distance away, but he saw the tension in their bodies.
“You’re worried I’m going to let my beast take over?” Daniel asked.
“Worse things have happened in the past.”
Some women who deny their mates could sometimes set about the feral beast within. When the feral instinct hit, everyone was in danger.
“I’m not going to let it get that far. I’ve got a handle on everything. Dawn needs guidance and care. I’m not going to rush her just because my wolf demands more.” If he rushed Dawn all the work they’d put in together on their relationship would be over. As much as he’d love to spread her open and fuck her from sunrise to sunset, he knew he craved more.
“We trust you,” Jake said.
The look Dave and Bill sent him told him another story. They trusted him, but with Dawn they were starting to doubt his leadership.
It was time to put Dawn in the picture of what she was doing to him.
****
Twirling the straw in her glass, Dawn watched the liquid swirl around. She’d been sitting at the bar for the last hour. The sounds of feminine and masculine moans filled the air. Kinkster’s wasn’t like many BDSM clubs. The bar didn’t sell liquor but cups of tea, coffee, espresso, or in her case, sodas. She loved drinking soda. The taste was so refreshing, reminding her a lot of her youth when life was easy, simple. Life had stopped being simple at her transition when her life had changed forever. Dawn held a secret that she couldn’t tell anyone, not even her own father. She was wolf, through and through, and only her need to be controlled set her apart from others within her pack. Spinning around in her seat, she looked at the people before her. Some of the people were human mates while many of them were wolves. Her pack was in the territory three towns over, and she came to Kinkster’s as none of them did. None of her pack ever believed in BDSM. She’d heard what they said when this club opened.
Running fingers through her hair, she watched a woman who was bent over a spanking bench get her ass tanned. Her tender white flesh blushed a nice rouge as the man, her Dom, went at her for some misdemeanor. The scene left Dawn’s cunt creaming. Her skin was dark, and it took a lot for her ass to show any hint of red. She knew as she’d been told before. Finding a man to become her Master or Dom had put her in some bad situations. The men within her pack didn’t believe in taking a hand or cane to woman, let alone punishing her. She wished she could say as much for one woman in the pack. Dawn closed her eyes as memories flooded her at what she’d done to herself. She’d gone out amongst the humans to find what she craved. Her fear and need had disguised the natural scent of the people around her.