Temptation(59)

“What’s going on Alexis? Are you sleeping with your boss?” I felt like I’d been hit in the face, my cheeks were red and hot and my stomach was twisting and making me feel nauseas.

“No Rick, I’m not sleeping with Bryce, I, I wouldn’t do that.” He sat on the edge of his work bench, he didn’t seem pissed off which was weird.

“Do you want to sleep with him?” Now’s your chance to be honest Alexis. I walked towards him and put my hands in his.

“Honestly? Sometimes Yes, Sometimes No but I would never do that.” He remained calm and it was very hard for me to comprehend why, I had gone off my tree when he had mentioned that he and Claire, an old friend of ours, shared an embrace and nearly a kiss.

“Why sometimes yes?” What’s he getting at?

“What kind of a question is that? I don’t know, I guess I’m curious as to what it would be like with someone else that’s all.”

“Alexis, be honest with me, have you kissed him?” Oh Shit, Shit! My eyes started to fill with tears. There’s no holding back now.

“Yes Rick, I have, I’m so sorry, I never meant to hurt you. I don’t know why, I, I.” Rick dropped my hands and put his face in his.

“I know why, Babe.” I stood back; I wanted to run, run as far away as possible.

“Why?”

“Because I have felt what you are feeling.” I wiped my nose with the back of my hand. What is he talking about?

“I have wondered what it would be like with someone else too, the thing is I didn’t just stop there either Lexi, at the wondering bit I mean.” I stumbled a little, my legs were trembling from owning up to my own form of betrayal but now I was worried they would completely give way.

“What are you saying Rick?” I wasn’t sure I wanted to hear it but deep down I think I already knew.

“Claire and I didn’t just console each other years ago.” He jumped off the bench and grabbed my shoulders.

“Lex, I slept with her and I’m glad I did it in the end, because it made me realise that all I’ve ever wanted is you and this need I had to see what it felt like, was completely gone and I’ve never had that feeling again. This is why you should go and get the same curiosity off your chest, so that we can move on. Look at it like a ‘Hall Pass’.”

“A Fucking Hall Pass, you want to give me a Hall Pass to make your infidelity ok?” I knew it, I fucking knew it. I began to cry as the enormity of what he had just professed, hit me.

“How could you do this Rick? Being curious and sharing an embrace or a kiss is one thing, but sleeping with her, fucking her, that’s just….. I can’t do this.” I went to leave but he grabbed me.

“Alexis I’m sorry, please don’t leave, sleep on it, I promise it will make more sense in the morning. Don’t leave I’ll stay in the spare room.” I hit him in the elbow releasing his grip. This really does work. I grabbed my bag and phone a stormed out the door.

I swiped my card and pulled into the basement car park, I must’ve looked like a Panda a very puffy eyed Panda, I had cried all the way here. Switching off the engine I looked in the rear-vision mirror. Fuck I do look like a Panda. I grabbed a wet wipe from my bag and began to wipe the smudged Mascara from underneath my eyes; I can’t let him see me like this. Grabbing my brush I quickly ran it through my hair, blew my nose and put a little powder on my face, to hide the redness. Who am I kidding, I look a mess. As I got out of the car the elevator doors opened and he came sprinting out to me, I dropped my bag and ran to him also. We collided into an embrace only a couple of metres from the car. I was practically ravaging him and he the same of me, he lifted me up and I wrapped my legs around him, I ripped his t-shirt off from his head and yanked my own free. I was hungry for him, for all of him, I had never wanted him, as much as I did right now. Furiously I tried to get his jeans undone and unleash the probing thickness that was inside his pants.

“Alexis Hunny, hold on, stop.” I stopped fumbling and burst into tears, he held me tight and put his hand on my head. I hung over him like a limp child asleep in their parents arms.

“What’s wrong Hunny, tell me?” I pulled myself up off his shoulder and looked directly into his eyes.

“Rick, he admitted to having an affair years ago.” The tears came thick and fast now, I couldn’t stop them. He carried me to the elevator and up to his apartment, I just clung to him, I didn’t want to let go. We got out on the second level and he went to take me to the guest room.

“No, I don’t want to be alone.” I looked into his eyes.