“Are you sure you don’t want the towel back, Alexis?” He was drying between his legs, then very casually swung the towel around his waist and secured it. I wanted that towel back more than anything, the sight of his erection made my throat dry and wet at the same time. There was so much more to him than he’s stunning physique, I think it was the ‘much more to him’ that I had fallen for. He was playful, challenging, kind and intelligent; he took pride in himself and his possessions and never did anything by half. He was down to earth yet, displayed a shield of power and authority, it was all these qualities that drew me in, I was simply captivated by this man.
“I will give you a week Bryce but I’m certainly not going to ask Rick for it and I will certainly not go behind his back. I believe in fate, signs and chances, so if it is meant to be, it will be, in the meantime I cannot keep crossing the line with you. I know we haven’t had sex but what we are doing is still wrong and it’s killing me, I don’t want to be a cheating whore, anymore.” He grabbed my arms and glared at me.
“You are not a cheating whore, don’t ever say that.
“Bryce I am, you have seen me, kissed me, touched me and I have seen you, kissed you and touched you. I’m so disgusted in myself, It’s just I can’t help it when I’m with you.” He pulled me into an embrace and kissed my head.
“I’m sorry Alexis, I’m sorry I have forced you to break your vows, to question your morals, I never meant to hurt you.” Now I was glaring at him.
“This is not your fault, you are not married, you are not even in a relationship.”
“But you are and I wouldn’t leave you alone.” He sounded disappointed.
“I didn’t want you to and I still don’t, Bryce.”
“Alexis, I’m hurting you and that’s…” He turned to walk inside.
“That’s not an option, in your room is a whole set of clothes, have a shower, get changed and go home to your family, Hunny.” He dropped his head and bounded up stairs. My room? Go home?
He was right, the wardrobe was completely full of clothing, underwear, nighties, jeans, tops, bathing suits and shoes. I stripped down and hopped into the shower, bending down I hugged my knees and cried. Did he just let me go and say goodbye? That’s what it felt like and it hurt, hurt more than the pain I was already feeling. Fuck, what have I gotten myself into? I’m well and truly in a huge whole and I seem to be getting deeper into it. I found a very similar skirt suit to what I’d had on previously, blow dried my hair and made myself up again. When I came down stairs, Bryce was sitting on the lounge, he got up and walked towards me.
This is it, he’s letting me go. I braced myself, it was the right thing to do, the only thing to do but I couldn’t bear to hear it.
“Alexis, I don’t want to hurt you anymore, hurting you is the last thing I would ever want to do. I won’t touch you, I won’t kiss you and I won’t put you in any situation that will make you question your integrity. Like you said, if we are meant to be, then we will be.” He took my hand and kissed the back of it, I grabbed his face and kissed him as though it was the last time I ever would. My eyes were flooded when I broke away, I couldn’t let him see the extent of it, so dropped my head and turned for the elevator, I didn’t look back, it was too hard.
“I’ll see you in the morning, Bryce.” Then I left.
CHAPTER TWENTY
The next two days at work were really dreadful, Bryce was out for the entire day on Thursday, I did notice he had scheduled an appointment with Jessica and hoped it had nothing to do with me but I knew better than that. I was pretty much done for the day and really looking forward to getting away with the girls. I figured I’d leave a sticky note on his bed, I was afraid I had tormented him far too much and I needed to tell him how I felt once and for all.
Mr Clark
I have fallen head over heels for you but have not been brave enough to admit it. I can’t be around you and be with you but I can’t be away from you either. I want you but I can’t have you and I’ve made you want me when you can’t have me either.
I’m sorry I have come into your life and tormented you to the point of avoiding me, you must hate me for this and I truly don’t blame you.
Alexis
I left the note on his pillow after picking it up and giving it a sniff, it was a bit stupid of me really, because it smelt like fresh linen. I headed to his private elevator, the doors opened and he came in.
“Hi, I was just um, leaving you a note.” I looked down at my hands feeling embarrassed.