Swirling my fingers down his chest in a circular motion, I get lost in thought thinking about everything Jordon just said. It’s crazy because when I was with Cane I was that same caring girl. After he died I lost myself, and for years was selfish. I didn’t care about the pain I was putting my friends and family through while they watched on helplessly as I destroyed myself.
Since Jordon came into my life, I’m slowly finding the girl I once was. I’m also striving to be better than the younger version of myself. I want to be the woman Jordan would be proud to call his wife and someone a child would be proud to call their mother.
“I just hope Kinsley can learn from all of this and hopefully reconcile with Brock. He seems like he truly loves her and that baby. If her mother really loves her, she’ll support Kinsley with any decision she makes and try not to manipulate her daughter anymore by interfering with her happiness and the wellbeing of that child.”
Jordon lets out a loud chuckle shaking my body as his chest rises and falls with his laughter. “See! That’s exactly what I mean. Kinsley was the world’s biggest bitch to you, and here you are sympathizing with her and wishing her a happy life.”
Laughing along with him, I spin on his lap so that I’m straddling him now. Running my fingers through his damp hair I give him an impish grin, “What can I say, I’m a sucker for love and all that mushy shit now that I’ve got you.” I tease, as I lean down and press a ton of kisses across his face, and giggle uncontrollably as Jordon’s fingers begin tickling my hips.
“Why is it when you say ‘love and mushy shit’ I get turned on? I swear; you’ve got the mouth of a sailor and the body of goddess, and I wouldn’t have it any other way.”
Sing From the Heart
May 18th 2014 Las Vegas
Jordon
This last month has been a whirlwind of events. Our album has skyrocketed since we hit number one with Goodbye Chicago. Tonight is our first performance at an award’s show, and I am so fucking nervous; I swear I may vomit.
It’s true what they say about good or bad publicity, its still publicity. I now know it to be true because, after everything with Kinsley, the press became obsessed with me and my love life. After releasing a statement about Kinsley’s daughter not being mine, and informing the media that we did a paternity test to prove it, the press began obsessing over Brittan and me.
They follow us everywhere, but it doesn’t faze us. We have learned to just ignore them and go on with our lives. This is a business, and we need them as much as they need us. If they weren’t following us around and plastering our faces on every rag mag on the street corner, our album sales wouldn’t be as good as they are.
We’re now in Las Vegas for the Billboard Music Awards, and we came a day early to explore Vegas. Thankfully the press has been as respectful as they can. They have been leaving some distance between us and them, instead of being in our faces shouting a million questions while we’re out.
Last night Brittan celebrated her one year sober anniversary with a huge party here in Las Vegas. We had a private VIP booth at Marquee so we could get away from the craziness and just let loose. We partied with all our bandmates, and of course they had a flock of women partying with us too.
I’m so proud of her for staying clean this past year.
Her one relapse will always stay between us. That one moment of weakness could have been the end of this tour, and we would have never begun as a couple. My determination to help her stay clean led me to falling in love with the most mesmerizing woman on the entire planet.
We’re getting ready in our penthouse suite at the Aria Resort and Casino. Brittan looks smoking hot in her dress for tonight’s Billboard Awards. It’s strapless and makes her tits look amazing. They are covered in silver sequins, and the skirt of the dress is all black feathers that stop mid-thigh. It makes me hard just thinking about exploring under it to see if she’s wearing panties or not.
Half the time she dresses like this just to drive me fucking crazy, I swear!
Her heels are sequin and covered in skulls making her look like the hot, badass rocker chick I know she is. They make her legs look like they go on for miles. She is definitely going to be the sexiest woman on the Red Carpet tonight. Every guy will have their eyes on her, but she’ll be on my arm.
I decided on a classic all black tuxedo with a silver tie to coordinate with Brittan’s dress. I step into the living room where she’s surrounded by hair and make-up artists. Her assistant Toby is reading off a list of shit she has to do at the award show, because like us; she’s presenting an award and performing.