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Taking It All(35)

By:Maya Banks


"Chessy, thank God you came back," he said in a hoarse voice.

And then he looked beyond her as if he'd been so focused on her that he hadn't even noticed that Jensen and Kylie were there.

"Chessy? What's going on?" he asked quietly.

"Jensen and Kylie drove me over so I could pack more of my things," Chessy said, proud of how steady-and firm-she sounded.

He looked as though she'd slapped him right across the face. He visibly   flinched and then ran a hand through his already rumpled hair.

"You're moving out?"

The pain in his voice made her heart clench. But she steeled herself   against letting him manipulate her emotionally. This wasn't about him.   It was about her finally standing up for herself and doing what she   should have done a long time ago.

Jensen walked up to stand beside Chessy, adding his silent support as he   stared Tate down. There was open disgust in Jensen's expression. Tate   wouldn't even meet Jensen's gaze. Guilt was plastered all over Tate's   face and then resignation swamped his eyes and he stepped aside so   Chessy could enter the front door.

Chessy walked by him, Kylie following behind. Jensen remained, however,   and Chessy paused just inside the partially open door. Kylie looked   questioningly at her, but Chessy held a finger to her lips and pointed   at the door.

"What the fuck were you thinking, Tate?" Jensen demanded. "How could you   have allowed your wife to get hurt while you were taking a fucking   business call? Have you lost your goddamn mind?"

Chessy winced but Kylie looked as though she wanted to cheer.

"This is between me and Chessy," Tate said in an icy tone. "I don't need your input when it comes to my marriage."

"Someone needs to knock some sense into your head. God only knows why   she's put up with you as long as she has. You had so many chances to   make things right and you blew it big-time."

"I love her," Tate said. "I've made mistakes. I wish to hell I could   undo them. But I won't let her go. I'll fight for her with my last   breath. I'm not going to just stand back and let her walk out of my   life, even if that's what I deserve."

Jensen made a sound of disgust. "You don't act like a man who loves his   wife. And you damn sure haven't put her first when it comes to any part   of your life."

Chessy bowed her head, tears gathering in her eyes. She knew what Jensen   was saying was true, but to hear that truth from a third party hurt.   That the problems in her marriage were so obvious to others. It was   humiliating.

"Come on, Chessy," Kylie said in a low voice, taking her arm to guide   her away from the doorway. "It does no good for you to stand and listen   to this. It'll only upset you even more. Let's get your things together   so we can go."

Chessy allowed herself to be led to the bedroom and mechanically she   began removing her clothing from the closet. She tossed everything onto   the bed and then went through her drawers and collected all the shoe   boxes from the shelves in the closet. Jensen had brought several   suitcases that he would be bringing in and whatever didn't fit would   just have to be piled into the backseat.

Other than clothing, what should she take? There were mementos all over   the house. Things that held special meaning. And photos. Her wedding   pictures. Honeymoon pictures. Though looking at them now only brought   her crushing pain, would she feel differently as time passed? Would she   want those things or should she leave them here, in the past where they   belonged?                       
       
           



       

Oh God, should she be consulting an attorney? Was she truly going to go   through with a divorce? Her heart seized and panic scuttled up her  spine  and rolled her stomach into one big vicious knot.

"What's wrong, Chessy?"

Kylie's concerned voice cut through her haze of dismay.

"I need a lawyer," Chessy said faintly. "Or at least I think I do. Shouldn't I file for divorce?"

Kylie's arms came around her and she hugged Chessy fiercely. "Let's not   worry about that right now, sweetie. You have plenty of time to think  of  that. For now let's just get your stuff packed and you settled into  my  house. You're still in shock and you shouldn't be making any   life-altering decisions in your current emotional state."

Chessy sighed. "I know, I know. You're right. It's just that I never   thought I'd be standing in my bedroom thinking about hiring a divorce   lawyer."

The reality of the situation came crashing down and she completely lost it. She dissolved into heart-wrenching sobs.

"Chessy?"

Tate's hoarse exclamation from the doorway made her flinch. And then   suddenly he was there, his arms around her, holding her tightly as she   heaved huge sobs.

His mouth was pressed against her hair and his arms were like iron   around her, his strength radiating outward. For a moment she felt  …    safe. Like nothing bad had ever happened. Like she'd dreamed the entire   thing and she wasn't in her bedroom packing her things to walk out on   her marriage.

"Please don't cry, baby," Tate murmured. "It will be okay. I swear it.   You don't have to do this. Please stay so we can work this out. I'm   willing to do whatever it takes. I swear on my life. I love you."

She shook her head, prying herself from his grasp. She took a step backward, still trying to get her emotions under control.

"I can't stay," she whispered. "You made your choice, Tate. And it   wasn't me. If the others hadn't intervened when they did, I could have   been seriously hurt. I was hurt," she amended. "You've broken your   promises time and time again. I won't continue to allow myself to be a   doormat. I owe myself that much at least."

"I won't let you walk out that door," Tate said fiercely.

"That's enough, Tate."

Jensen's voice was a warning, his tone openly hostile.

"You need to back off and back off now. Let her finish packing or I'll   call the police and have you forcibly removed so she can finish."

Tate went white and then a flush of red crawled over his cheeks as anger replaced his earlier entreating words.

"You need to stay the fuck out of this," he growled at Jensen.

"If you love her then you won't make it so hard for her to do this,"   Jensen persisted. "You say one thing but your actions don't back up your   words. If you want to win her back, this isn't the way to go about it.   Trying to manipulate her and then making threats won't do anything but   drive her farther away. Use your head, man. Now isn't the time to  push.  She's at her breaking point. Anyone with eyes can see that. Give  her  time. And then you need to start crawling and begging her  forgiveness."

His words seemed to finally register with Tate. Tate dropped his gaze,   embarrassment and the knowledge that Jensen was dead-on reflected on his   face.

"I'm sorry, Chess," he said in a sincere voice. "I'll leave so you can   finish what you're doing. But there are two things you need to   understand. One, I love you. I'll never love anyone else. And two, I'm   not giving up on us. I'll do whatever it takes to get you back and to   earn your trust and forgiveness, even if it takes forever."

The conviction in his statement was undeniable. Before Chessy could   respond, Tate turned and slowly walked out the door. A moment later, the   front door slammed and then she heard the engine start up in his car.

Kylie pulled one of the slats down in the blinds of the bedroom window and peered out.

"He's gone," she said in a low voice.

Chessy should have been relieved, but the only reaction she could summon was overwhelming sadness.

Jensen pulled her into his arms and gave her a huge hug. "Chin up,   honey. We'll get you through this. I know I can speak for Joss and Dash   as well, and we'll all do whatever we can to help you."

Chessy gave him a watery smile. "Thank you. I appreciate y'all. You're the best friends I could ever ask for."

"I'll start taking your stuff out to the car while you and Kylie finish   up packing. Joss is coming over as soon as we get back to the house and   I'll cook dinner for us."                       
       
           



       

"If you don't stop, I'm going to cry again," Chessy said with a sniffle.   "I can see why Kylie loves you so much. You're so sweet and  thoughtful,  Jensen."