"I'm not sure I'd ever classify Judith as a 'good woman.' But she had determination. She was a perfectionist, and I was far from perfect and too set in my ways to change enough to satisfy her. But by the time Declan came along I knew I didn't want a son of mine living the same life I had. Always looking over his shoulder, expecting the cops to be behind him. Worrying that his kids would get caught up in some mess and end up inside."
"So the two of you decided Declan was going to be a 'good' boy."
"He was a good boy." He grinned. "It's in his genes."
"Right. Of course it is."
"But yeah, we might have drummed it in a little hard that he had a duty, couldn't afford to play up, get attention. Plus, just when he got to a troublesome age, Logan got put away. Declan blamed himself."
"Why would he do that?"
"Because Logan got Declan out of a fight and stayed behind to teach them a lesson for picking on his little brother. The police broke up the fight and one of the coppers accidentally got slugged in the face … by Logan."
"Oh. Nasty." Poor Declan.
"After that Declan didn't give us any trouble. The perfect son." He sounded almost sad at the notion. "Though he did ask for a Harley for his eighteenth birthday."
"Did you get him one?" He certainly hadn't had a Harley when she'd known him, she would have noticed.
"No, I got him a Porsche."
"Figures." She couldn't believe she felt sorry for someone for getting a Porsche for a present.
But really, what difference did this insight make? This conversation might have made her understand a little better why Declan was the way he was, and also why he'd dumped her all those years ago. But she'd already guessed a lot of it. She'd been leading him off the straight and narrow, but she reckoned she wasn't trying to take him anywhere he didn't really want to go deep down. It was the whole nature versus nurture thing. They'd brought Declan up to be well behaved, good, and to subdue his wilder nature, but that didn't mean it wasn't still there underneath, simmering away.
"I still don't get it," she said. "Why the meddling? Why aren't you and … Judith really pleased with the way he's turned out? He's … perfect."
"We want him to be happy."
"And he isn't?"
"He's going through the motions. And he's ready to explode."
She looked away, back to Declan who now stood in profile. So he could keep an eye on them? He seemed outwardly relaxed, but if she looked closely she could see a tic working in his cheek and his fingers flexing at his side. He glanced across and caught her gaze. A shiver of something-apprehension or anticipation, she wasn't sure which-ran through her.
Was he really on the point of exploding? And did she want to be around if that happened? But then he'd always given the impression of leashed power, of trouble locked tightly inside; it was what had drawn her to him. What had made her push and push at those locks to see if she could get to the real Declan.
Another shiver. This one settled low down in her belly.
Maybe it was time to get out of there. She could leave the whole no-more-sex conversation until another time. When she'd convinced herself that it was really the only option.
She pushed herself to her feet. Rory was watching her through narrowed eyes. "Too much of a coward to risk the explosion?" he murmured.
"Hell yes!" She whirled around and stalked away.
…
"You know she's going to give me shit assignments for this for the rest of eternity," Steve muttered from behind him, where he was guarding Declan's back along with his other bodyguard for the night. They hadn't been happy with his change of plans, but he'd insisted.
After much persuasion, Steve had finally given up Jess's location. The alternative had been to troll the bars and clubs until Declan found her. Obviously, Steve had decided risking Jess's ire was the lesser of two evils. As acting head of the company, she had to be reachable at all times, but it turned out that Steve had overheard her arranging the night out at the office earlier in the day.
"And you know," Steve added, "this could be classified as serious stalking."
"I'll tell her you had no choice," Declan replied.
The bar was just off the embankment. Steps led downward into a basement. Tables were scattered around the floor area, but most people were standing. It was Saturday night and the place was buzzing. He stood for a moment adjusting to the dim light, then searched the room.
He spotted her almost immediately. Her back was to him, but as he stared, her shoulders stiffened. But she didn't turn and he headed toward her.
She was with two other women, a tall, stunning brunette with crimson streaks in her dark hair and a tiny redhead, with a cute face and huge green eyes. They were both facing him and looked up as he came to a halt beside the table. Jess still didn't turn.