Tainted Love(69)

“Not helping…not helping at all.”

I begin pacing around the living room. I spare a glance at Carter and he looks like he might be sick. I’ve never felt jealousy like this before. Oh no, this is a dangerous feeling. I’ve felt jealousy like, she has nice shoes and I want them. But this jealousy? This jealousy makes me feel like ripping his balls off and licking them, all at the same time.

“Okay, I’m going to be okay. I just need to forget about him. I think. Is that what I need to do? Oh my God, what the fuck do I do? I don’t know how to cope with this knot of hate and jealousy I feel deep in my chest. This fucking sucks.”

I slump back to the sofa, a bead of sweat dripping off me.

It’s silent, I notice no one has said anything. I look up at all the sets of eyes looking at me in shock. “Wow,” Vicky blows out. “Who knew you had that in you.”

I look to the side before thinking about my actions and smile. “Let’s just forget it. I need food.” I stand from the sofa and make my way to the door, and when I feel no one is following I stop and turn around. “Are you guys not hungry?”

They all stand at once and follow me out the door.





We’re all sitting at a new café we decided to try downtown, and I’m sipping on the fattiest, chocolate milkshake I could find. Everyone’s voices die out. I think Carter and Vicky are having another debate about politics when I take my phone out of my handbag and send a text to Dominic.



Me: Can we talk?

Dominic: Two pm? I can meet you at yours?

Me: Sounds good.



I huff out and throw my phone back into my bag. This is going to suck. Why did I have to meet Ade Nixon, he’s toxic.

“I need to start heading back soon. Dom is coming up at two,” I say to all of them.

Vicky pats my knee. “Be nice, please. He’s my big brother. You’re doing the right thing, though. I wish you two could be together, but I can see it in your eyes, we all can. You’re already claimed by Ade, you just don’t know it yet.”

I laugh. “Oh, I know it. However, the slutting around thing is making it difficult for me to decide whether I want to love him or kill him. Jesus, how could he just…You know what? Don’t care.”

That was a blatant lie and we all know it.

I care too much.

“Are you girls heading back to Westbeach?” I ask them all.

“Nah, we’ve decided to stay. I heard about this new club downtown. Care to check out?” Alaina asks over her coffee. I smile at her with a mischievous glint in my eye.

“I accept. Give me an hour with Dom, then you guys can come up.” I kiss them all on their head and walk out of the café, making my way back to my apartment.





Walking in and throwing my crap down onto the floor, I look at my watch and see I have ten minutes before he arrives. I begin giving myself a mental pep talk. Just when I finish pouring my wine, I hear a knock on the door. I run over and swing it open to Dominic in ripped, cut off jean shorts that hang to his knees and a white singlet. I’m so extremely disappointed in myself right now because I want to lick him.

“Hey, come in,” I say stepping aside and gesturing to the open space beside me. He kisses me on the head and makes his way in. I shut the door and sit beside him on the couch.

“Do you want anything to drink?” He shakes his head then smiles.

“Just say what you need to say, Kal. It’s okay.”

I nibble on my lip, placing my hands on my lap. “It’s not fair, Dom. I’m not ready to see someone right now because I have too many issues I need to deal with inside. And, I still hold strong feelings for Ade. I don’t want to lead you on, you deserve better.”

He leans his elbows on his knees and looks up to me. “I know. I’m sorry, I sort of pushed this on to you. It was a dick move.”

“You didn’t force anything on me, Dom. I wanted to try it.”

He smiles, pulling me under his arm. “I hope I meet someone just like you one day, Kal.”

I wipe the stray tear that has slipped from my eye. “I don’t. I hope you find someone better.”

He stands from the couch, pulling me up and under his embrace.

“If you say we can’t be friends anymore I will understand, but I will also probably stalk you in your sleep until you decide that you have no other option than to be my friend,” I say in a muffled tone in his arms. He laughs and pulls back from me.

“There’s no way in hell I’d stop being your friend, Kal. That’s crazy talk.”

I smile up at him and he kisses me again softly on the lips. “You’re a fucking special girl, Kalie. Always remember that,” he tells me before walking out of my apartment.