"She's my tutor," I remind her, irritated. That conversation by the car set me on edge.
And I keep fucking things up with her.
"Uh-huh," my mom says. "I saw the way she was looking at you tonight."
"There was no look, mom. There are rules about that stuff."
"Did I ever tell you about how my parents hated your father?"
"Your parents hated dad? I thought they loved him." My parents were high school sweethearts, married when they were eighteen. My father died at the beginning of my senior year in high school, twenty years later.
"Well, they did. Eventually," my mom concedes. "But your father wasn't exactly the kind of guy they wanted their daughter dating, much less marrying."
I don't bother to hide my laugh. "Dad was what, a juvenile delinquent?"
My parents are the definition of straight-laced. They're farmers, for shit's sake. Or were farmers before my dad's heart attack. I can't fathom my father being anything except the rule-abiding man who worked the family farm.
"Don't laugh," she says. "Your father was trouble in high school."
"What, did he steal a candy bar from a convenience store?"
"He was bootlegging alcohol in ninth grade," she says. "Selling it after school. Had his own label and everything."
"Are you kidding?" I let out a laugh. "That's awesome. How did I not know that about dad?"
"It's not something I was going to tell you boys about. Anyhow, my parents found out," she goes on. "That was the end of that. They forbade me from seeing him, but your dad was persistent. He didn't stop seeing me, although he did stop bootlegging. And he wore my parents down bit by bit."
"I get your point," I realizing it. "Breaking the rules worked out for you. This is different, mom."
"I don't think it's that different."
"What you and dad had, that's not how things are anymore, ma."
"Some things don't change, Colt." She takes a plate from my hands. "When you go pro, women will be throwing themselves at you for all the wrong reasons."
"Maybe that's what I want, ma," I tell her. "I'm just having fun. I'm not stupid. I'm not getting involved with any of the girls here at school — they're all after the same thing. I'm a meal ticket or a way to be in the limelight."
She looks at me, her expression stern. "I don't care how many girls you have fun with," she says. "But that girl isn't a girl you just have fun with."
20
Cassie
"Aren't you ready?" Sable asks. She's dressed in jean short-shorts that show off her tanned legs, and a cleavage-revealing tank top, her hair pulled up in a messy bun on top of her head that looks simultaneously effortless and chic.
"Ready for what?" I'm sitting on my bed with various books about football open. "I'm working on my literature review for my thesis."
"Oh." Sable gives me a funny look. "Right. Um. Are you and Colton okay?"
I shrug. The last time I saw him was last night at dinner at his house where he was sending me dirty text messages and running his hand up my leg. Well, the actual last time I saw him was during that awkward conversation near the car. "There's no me and Colton," I say. "We're friends."
Sable cocks her head to the side as she looks at me. "You guys hooked up."
"I regret telling you that now."
I didn’t tell her exactly how we hooked up. I’m sure she assumes we just made out. No big deal.
No big deal.
I also didn’t tell her about the awkward conversation by the car after dinner.
"I'm your best friend," she says. "You’d better not regret it. And you shouldn't regret hooking up with him, either."
"Where are you going, anyway?"
Sable gives me a sheepish look. "I thought you were getting ready," she says. "I didn't even think to ask if you were going. I assumed you were."
"Stop dancing around whatever it is you're talking about and just spit it out," I demand. "You're acting weird."
Sable exhales heavily. "There's a house party," she tells me. "At Colton's place."
Oh.
A party that I wasn't invited to.
I make a face. "Oh yeah," I say casually. "I forgot about that. I had to work on my thesis tonight, so I wasn't going to go."
It’s definitely no big deal that Colton didn’t invite me to a stupid house party.
A stupid house party where there will be half-naked girls everywhere.
"I should really work on my thesis tonight, too," Sable says quickly. "I'm so far behind and you know Dr. Talbot is really up my ass about mine. We can totally do work together."