Fiona nodded, her thoughts a million miles away.
“What’s wrong?” Gage asked, apparently still capable of reading her expressions, even a year later.
“Nothing, it’s nothing,” Fiona rushed to answer, faking a smile, but she could tell, just judging off of Gage’s expression, that her performance wasn’t successful in convincing him that everything was fine. She sighed deeply, grimacing a little as she searched for the right words to describe what she was currently feeling. “You ever feel like…you know when you go back to a place from your childhood, and it doesn’t look like anything you remember?”
Gage nodded, holding his beer suspended in midair between his waist and his mouth.
“Yeah, well, that’s not the problem here. Everything’s exactly the same,” Fiona said, gesturing to the clubhouse around her.
“Except you?” Gage suggested, raising one eyebrow quizzically.
“I guess,” Fiona said, lifting one shoulder and letting it fall limp in a pathetic excuse for a half-shrug. She didn’t really know why it was bothering her, but it did. Maybe because I haven’t changed either, Fiona said silently to herself, the thought making her heart seize up in her throat like she was choking on a bone. Maybe I’m the same broken, fucked-up girl I always was. Maybe I fit right in here.
“Well, not everything is the same. Shit changes in a year, even in the MC,” Gage said, tearing her away from her thoughts again. “Like, we’ve got a new cook now. Great guy, makes the best ribs you’ll ever have in your life. I’ll introduce you, come on.”
Fiona really didn’t care one way or another if the MC had a new cook, but she followed after Gage anyway, smiling politely at various bikers who remembered her on the way into the kitchen.
“Cash!” Gage called out, rapping his fists against one of the counters. For a second, the chef was nowhere to be found, but then, a moment later, his head popped up from the floor.
“Sorry, sorry, I spilled something. You know me. Slippery hands,” the chef said with a sheepish smile as he walked towards them. “Sorry, I don’t think we’ve met before. I’m Cash, Cash Malone.”
“Fiona Flanagan.” Fiona offered her hand forward for an introductory handshake, but Cash simply shook his head and lifted his hands, which were covered in flour or sugar or some other white cooking substance.
“Gage has told me about you,” Cash said, walking over to the counter to wipe his hands on some paper towel. “You’re like a lawyer, right?”
“Not exactly,” Fiona said, “but I deal with the law a lot. I help connect victims to the representation that they need.”
Cash nodded and smiled a little, but his eyes remained cold and distant. It was clear he didn’t really care about her job and was just being polite. Fiona immediately felt awkward, like she’d been dragged here as Gage’s accessory, a little finishing touch to his outfit rather than an autonomous person herself. She leaned back against the kitchen counter behind her, crossing her arms and ankles to feel more secure. She’d just let Gage do all the talking here. He was better at it than her anyway.
“What are you making for us tonight?” Gage asked, referring to the thick, heavy smell that hung over the whole kitchen.
“Same old, same old. Meat and potatoes, the midnight snack of champions,” Cash said with a laugh. “I am making some dessert for you guys, though, so stick around.”
“Will do,” Gage said, and then he put a hand on Fiona’s shoulder, attempting to steer her back out of the kitchen. For a second, Fiona’s body stayed immobile, rooted to the spot like she’d been frozen in time. She stared at Cash even as Gage applied more pressure to her shoulder and eventually, physically turned her around himself; Cash looked back at her, smiling without any light in his eyes.
Fiona felt a little chill go up her spine, traveling all the way up to the base of her skull. Knock it off, she berated herself, turning her head back to face the main room of the clubhouse where various MC members awaited her. You’re just being weird and twitchy because you’re stuck in the city. You’ll be back out in the country soon enough.
“How long has he been with the MC?” Fiona asked in a lowered voice, keenly aware that Gage’s hand lingered on her shoulder, possessively gripping her like she might fly away.
Gage shrugged. “Little less than a year. He’s really funny. Love that guy.”
Fiona nodded to herself, letting the words sink in. See? You’re just being paranoid. It’s a biker gang. There are bound to be weird, stilted people in here. Not everybody is suspicious. Not everybody is a creep.