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THE TRUE KING OF DAHAAR(15)

By:TARA PAMMI


                His mouth tight, a mask fell over his brother’s usually expressive face. Cursing himself for how self-absorbed he had been, Azeez studied him, noticing for the first time the stress on Ayaan’s face.

                Dark blue shadows hung under his brother’s eyes. His skin was drawn tight over his gaunt features.

                “I wouldn’t put it quite like that,” Ayaan spoke finally, with a sigh. “For reasons the doctors say they can’t speculate over, it’s been a high-risk pregnancy from the beginning.”

                “Then what did Nikhat mean by saying it was because of me? I know she didn’t say that to manipulate me.”

                “I thought you didn’t want to see her or hear a word from her mouth. Now you trust her opinion?”

                “Nikhat wanted to be a doctor since she was ten years old. If there’s one thing that she would never betray, it’s her profession. So if she says I’m the reason for Zohra’s stress, then I am. What I don’t understand is why. I might be a cripple but I have a working mind.”

                “Do you? Because, so far, I haven’t seen evidence of it.”

                Azeez continued as though his usually even-tempered brother hadn’t just snarled at him. “I have watched your wife growl at me like a lioness, as if she needs to shield you from me. I don’t think she would crumble because her husband is dealing with his difficult brother. So what is it, Ayaan?”

                A flash of utter desolation came alive in his brother’s gaze. Azeez stared, shock waves shivering through him. Ever since he had learned that Ayaan had returned after six years, Azeez had known that his brother would do his duty, no matter what. And Ayaan had risen to every challenge.

                Only now did Azeez realize what he had overlooked. His brother had fought his own demons for so long and Azeez had not given a passing thought to it until this moment.

                “She’s worried about what this—” he moved his hand between Azeez and him “—is doing to me.”

                A chilly finger raked its nail over Azeez’s spine. “What do you mean?”

                “I have nightmares, vicious ones. I have had them every night ever since I… since I became lucid. Sometimes, they are minimal. Sometimes, I get violent. And…”

                Azeez held his head in his hands, feeling his breath leave him. Guilt infused his blood, turning him cold from inside out. Looking up, he forced himself to speak the words. “They have become worse since you found me.”

                Ayaan shrugged.

                There was no shame or hesitation in his brother’s gaze. Only resigned acceptance. And in that minute, Azeez realized what he had been too blind to see until now.

                His brother had lived through his own version of hell and had come out of it alive and honorable. And Dahaar was blessed to have him.

                Unless he, Azeez, ruined it all again.

                “I keep reliving that night and every time I see all that blood in the stable, your blood, I wake up screaming. And Zohra is right there with me, suffering through them, right by me.”

                “Why didn’t you tell me?”

                “When would I have told you? In between the punches you threw at Khaleef and me? When you refused point-blank to see Mother even though you could hear her heartbreaking cries on the other side of the door and informed Father to assume that his firstborn is still dead? Or in the few hours that you have been sober in the last four months?”