She looked at him for a moment. “I suppose,” she said eventually. “So. Would you be sharing this image with anybody?”
“No. Until now, showing you this one of the field-liner creature, I have never shared one of these images with anybody. I have many more. Would you like to—?”
“No,” she said, smiling and holding up one hand. “That’s all right.” The image disappeared, dimming the room again.
“I give you my word that, in the unlikely event I do decide I want to share your image, I would not do so without your express permission.”
“In each case?”
“In each case. With a similar precondition applying to—”
“And if you do it, if you take the image, will I feel anything?”
“Nothing.”
“Hmm.” Still hugging her shins, she lowered her face to her
robed knees, stuck her tongue out to touch the soft material, then bit at it, taking a tiny fold of it into her mouth.
Himerance watched her for a few moments, then said, “Lededje, may I have your permission to take the image?”
She spat out the fold of material, raised her head. “I asked you before: what’s in it for me?”
“What may I offer?”
“Get me out of here. Take me with you. Help me escape. Rescue me from this life.”
“I can’t do that, Lededje, I’m sorry.” Himerance sounded regretful.
“Why not?”
“There would be consequences.”
She let her head drop again. She stared at the rug at the foot of the shuttered windows. “Because Veppers is the richest man in the world?”
“In the whole Sichultian Enablement. And the most powerful.” Himerance sighed. “There are limits to what I can do anyway. You have your own way of living here, on this world and within the hegemony you call the Enablement; your own rules, mores, customs and laws. It is not regarded as good form to go interfering in the societies of others unless one has a very good reason, and an agreed-on strategic plan. However much we might wish to, we cannot simply indulge our own sentimental urges. I am genuinely sorry, but, sadly, what you ask is not within my gift.”
“So, nothing in it for me,” she said, and knew that she sounded bitter.
“I’m sure I could set up a bank account with a sum in it that might help you—”
“Like Veppers will ever let me have any sort of independent life,” she said, shaking her head.
“Well, perhaps—”
“Oh, just do it,” she said. She hugged her legs tighter, looked at him. “Do I need to stand up or anything?”
“No. Are you sure—?”
“Just do it,” she repeated fiercely.
“I might still be able to suggest some kind of compensatory—”
“Yes, yes. Whatever you think fit. Surprise me.”
“Surprise you?”
“You heard.”
“You are sure about this?”
“I’m sure, I’m sure. Have you done it yet?”
*
“Ah-ha,” Sensia purred, nodding her head slowly. “That does
sound like it.”
“That ship put the neural lace thing in my head?”
“Yes. Well … it would have planted the seed of one; they grow.”
“I didn’t feel anything at the time.”
“Well, you wouldn’t.” Sensia looked out towards the desert. “Yes, the Me, I’m Counting,” she said, and Lededje got the impression Sensia was really talking to herself. “Hooligan-class LOU. Declared as an Eccentric and Ulteriored itself over a millennium ago. Dropped out of view completely a couple of years back. Probably on a retreat.”
Lededje sighed heavily. “My own fault for saying “Surprise me”, I guess.” Inside, though, she was elated. The mystery was solved, almost certainly, and it had been a good bargain; she had been saved from death, in a sense at least.
But what is to become of me? she thought. She looked at Sensia, still staring out into the shimmering warmth of distance where dust devils danced and the horizon quivered in a mirage of lake or sea.
What is to become of me? she wondered. Did she depend upon the charity of this virtual woman? Was she subject to some legal agreement between the Culture and the Enablement? Was she now somebody or something else’s possession or plaything? She might as well ask, she supposed.
She immediately found herself preparing to use what she thought of as her little voice: the meek, low, soft, childlike tone she used when she was trying to make her own vulnerability and powerlessness known, when she was trying to play upon somebody’s sympathies, make them feel sorry for her and so less likely to hurt or demean her and perhaps even let her have something she wanted. It was a technique she had used on everyone from her mother to Veppers, mostly with a lot more success than failure. But she hesitated. It had never been a ruse she had been very proud of, and here the rules had changed, everything was different. For her own pride, for the sake of what might be a fresh start, she would ask it straight, without deliberate inflection.