Mum and Dad adopted Derrick when I first brought him home; learning that his parents wanted nothing to do with him when he came out of the closet. They could never understand how Derrick’s parents could turn their backs on their son like that. So they declared he was theirs from that day on and Derrick has been a part of the family ever since.
“Don’t say that, I’m going to miss you too. Fuck, you’re going to make me cry into my muesli.” Derrick blubbers, making us all laugh.
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I got a message from Beau asking me to visit the house to make sure I have everything. Now he’s engaged I’m guessing Diana wants to move in and she probably wants everything of mine gone. The thought of that woman living in my home makes my stomach heave, but I have to move on, that was my old life.
Pulling up to the front door of my old home was surreal, seeing Beau waiting for me dressed in his casual uniform of navy polo, white shorts and boat shoes like he’d just stepped off some pleasure craft made my stomach flutter – like nothing ever happened between us. Welcoming me with a smile on his face, I wanted to dick punch him as soon as I stepped out of my car.
“Sisi.” Beau called out to me happily. I could hear the warmth in his voice. We stood there for a moment not knowing how to proceed now we were strangers.
“Guess congratulations are in order,” I say, breaking the silence.
Beau flinches at my tone.
“Yeah, thanks,” he replies.
I push past him and Beau’s scent hits my nose reminding me of a time when we were happy together. The ache in my heart I have been trying to heal crashes open again. Deep breaths Sienna, you can do this.
“You finished already? That was quick.” Beau smiles.
Every last trace of my presence has been wiped clean from the home. Walking down the stairs slowly towards him I reply with disdain.
“You should be happy; there’s nothing left of me here.”
Beau frowns at my words, stopping me at the bottom of the stairs.
We were eye to eye his hand brushes my cheek, I can see a million emotions cross his face. I hate the way my body is responding to his touch as I naturally lean into him before correcting myself.
“I’m not happy about any of this.” Regret flashes across his face.
“Beau.” His name comes out as a whisper as I try and push him away but he doesn’t move. My heart is racing, he is too close to me; it’s been too long since we have been this close to one another.
“I’m sorry, Sienna.” Then his lips are on mine in the briefest of kisses.
Pushing him hard enough to unbalance him, he falls off the last step. “No, Beau. You don’t get to do that to me.” My heart is pounding out of my chest as I head towards the door needing to get away from his presence.
“Baby, wait.” Beau calls after me.
Stopping for a moment, I turn around and slap him hard across the face. “I am not your baby anymore. You don’t get to say you are sorry and kiss me like that. You’re engaged to another woman,” I shout, breathing hard as the adrenaline kicks in.
Beau rubs the red fingerprints on his face. “So, this is it, Sienna. This is how we will end things?”
I’m shocked by his tone; he doesn’t get to be angry at me. “You did this, Beau, not me. I thought we were happy. You were the one who wanted to fuck around with Diana. You, not me, remember that, Beau. Now you’re engaged to someone else. You,” I yell, emphasizing my words as I poke his chest. Tears begin to run down my cheeks. He doesn’t deserve them, not anymore.
“Don’t you think I know that, Sienna. Every day I think about what I have done and wish I could turn back time. It has always been you; it will always be you,” He whispers, while dragging his hand through his blonde hair.#p#分页标题#e#
“Your words mean nothing anymore, Beau,” I cry out, walking towards the front door.
His hands are around my waist pulling me back into him. His mouth near my ear. “I love you, Sienna. I will always love you. I am so sorry I hurt you.”
My heart stops. “Don’t Beau, please don’t, it’s too late for those words now.”
Turning me in his arms so we are face to face, he whispers, “I fucked up, Sienna. I’ve lost the best thing that ever happened to me. Believe me, when I say I didn’t have a choice. I made a mistake with Diana, one I couldn’t walk away from.” I can see the tears forming in his eyes. “I don’t know how to tell you this.”
My stomach drops, it can’t be anything good.
“Diana’s pregnant.”
My world spun by his confession; I stumble in his arms.