His hands gripped my ass as he fucked me. I could hear my wetness as he moved in and out. I was ready to come at any moment, so aroused after sucking him off and his taking me bare.
“I can’t ever use a condom again with you,” he breathed out. “This feels too good.”
I was starting to come. “Come inside of me now.”
He pumped into me so hard, I was sure I’d have bruises on my ass tomorrow. “Fuck…Greta…oh…” He kept moving in and out until there was nothing left and even after, he continued fucking me slowly for a while.
Elec finally pulled out of me and flipped me around to kiss him. He chuckled. “We couldn’t even make it past the front door. Do you realize that?”
“I think I could even go again.”
“Good, because I’m nowhere near done with you tonight,” he said, dragging me to the bedroom as his pants hung down his waist.
***
Four lit candles flickered around us as we sat in my bed at four in the morning feeding each other ice cream out of a Ben and Jerry’s container.
“So, how did you know where to find me tonight?”
“Well, when you sent me the text that you’d finished, I was sitting at a Starbucks around the corner from your apartment. I came straight here since I assumed that’s where you were reading. I wanted to go right to you and surprise you. I waited on your steps. This…person…who said she was your fairy godmother came up to me and said, ‘Alec, right? I’d recognize you anywhere from the description my Greta gave me. I knew you’d be back for her, you dumb fuck.’”
“Are you serious?” I burst into laughter. “That’s Sully. She is like my fairy godmother.”
“Well, you do realize your fairy godmother has a bigger package than mine, right?”
“Yes, I’m well aware of that. We just don’t discuss it.”
“You must have given her an earful about me. Anyway, I just needed to get to you and asked if she knew where you were.”
“So, she gave you the name of the club?”
“Not at first. I think she wanted to make me suffer.”
“What did she do?”
“She made me take off my shirt.”
“Are you kidding me?”
“I’m dead serious.”
“That was it?”
“I wish.”
“What?”
“She made me hold up a sign made out of cardboard that said ‘fuckface’ and took a picture of me holding it.”
I covered my mouth and spoke through my hand. “What?”
“Yeah. Then, she said it was collateral.”
“Sully is nuts.”
“Well, he…she obviously cares about you. I can relate in that sense. Anyway, it was only after I let her take the picture, that she gave me the address of the club and said, ‘This is your last chance.’”
“Wow,” I said.
“Yeah.”
Elec turned to me. “I need you to know something.”
“Okay…”
“Earlier tonight, after we finished in the alley when you told me not to go back to Chelsea, that was hard to hear. There’s a part of you that doesn’t trust that this is real, and you’re still traumatized by my leaving you in the past. It made me realize just how badly I hurt you, how much work I have cut out for me.”
“I was just very emotional at that moment, especially after reading your book all day. Every feeling including my biggest fear came pouring out.”
Elec took the ice cream from my hands and put it aside. He placed his hands on my cheeks. “There was never any contest. I loved Chelsea, but it was by default. I love you so much more. Every second I was with you again, I had to constantly reassure myself that I loved Chelsea, which is not something that you should have to do. My feelings for you were so powerful that they scared the shit out of me. The second I got on that plane, I knew I was really going back to California to end things with Chelsea. That was the right thing.”
“You hurt her pretty badly, didn’t you?”
“Yeah. She didn’t deserve it.”
“I’m sorry.”
“It would have been worse if we were engaged or married because I’m not sure the outcome could have been any different. It wouldn’t have been fair to stay with her and love you like I do in secret.”
“I feel like I know exactly how she must be feeling right now.”
“Yeah, you probably do. A part of me will always feel horrible about hurting her, but there was no way to avoid that. It took me several days after I got back to figure out how best to explain everything to her because I wanted to be honest about you. I didn’t do it immediately, but I never slept with her again; you need to know that. I made up excuses. The bottom line is, I didn’t want to come back here to you until I no longer had any baggage and until you knew everything about my past. So after I moved out of Chelsea’s, I spent a lot of time working on the book until I got it to a point where I was comfortable with you reading it.”