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He chuckles. “Isn’t that the truth. My hip still isn’t the same.”

I grin. “But it all happens for a reason.”

“You’re right, which is why you’re back home.”

I nod. “Yeah. At first, I didn’t think so. But now, things are going well.”

“Just had to get things in order.”

“Agreed,” I say, leaning on my forearms. “Excited for the wedding circus game?”

Dad laughs. “You kids need to leave Shelli and Aiden alone. They just want to celebrate their love. It’s nice.”

I roll my eyes. “I have to do a group dance.”

He chokes on his drink. “That’s unfortunate.”

“It is,” I say gruffly. “I don’t want to.”

“I can tell.” He chuckles softly. “But it’s going to be a great time, especially the game.”

“So, you’ll play?”

He nods eagerly. “I’m already training. I have two objectives—get a goal, and slam your brother into the boards.”

I laugh loudly. “Great goals, Dad.”

“I thought you’d enjoy them,” he says with a grin, and soon our appetizers appear. “How’s Ally’s season going? I haven’t been able to make a game.”

I nod, a little too enthusiastically. “She’s killing it. They’re undefeated right now, which is awesome.”

“She’s always been a badass setter.”

“I know. I’m not sure how she is going to walk away.”

He scoffs. “She won’t. She’ll join a club, or hell, go back and coach.” I nod in agreement. “Or even scout.”

We share a grin. “I’ll tell her that.”

“Good. She’s a damn good girl.”

“Yeah.” I feel the heat creeping up my neck. I want to burst with how great she really is, but I know she wants to wait. I guess she’s right. It probably is for the best.

“So, I’m sure you’re wondering why I asked you to lunch.”

I look up just as I take a huge bite of a mozzarella stick. “It crossed my mind,” I say around my chewing. “Am I in trouble?”

He shakes his head. “Not at all. You’re my good kid.”

I jerk my head back in surprise. “Am I?”

“Yes, you never cause issues. You’re level-headed and make good choices.”

I eye him. “Aiden makes good choices.”

He gives me a dry look. “That boy has seen more ass than a toilet seat. And somehow, he still landed a great girl. He had me worried he would turn into a younger me.”

I grin. “You turned out okay.”

He flashes a grin back at me. “Because of your mom.” We share a laugh. “And then Stella and Emery, man…” He doesn’t need to say more for me to nod in agreement. “But with you, you’ve always been good. Always had a good head on your shoulders. Always make the right decisions, the smart ones, and never really live on the edge.”

I feign hurt. “You’re making me sound really boring.”

He laughs. “I don’t mean this to offend you, bud, but you tend to be. And there is nothing wrong with that. It makes you who you are, solid and trustworthy.” Not sure where he is going with this, but that doesn’t keep me from reaching for another cheese stick. “Which is why when Aiden told me you started sleeping with Ally, I had a mini heart attack.”

My hand stops midway to my mouth. I meet his knowing gaze, and I swallow past the lump that appears in my throat. “Aiden told you that?”

“He did.”

I don’t know how, but I recover pretty quickly. No reason to lie. “Probably as payback for outing him and Shelli.”

“I’m guessing so. Gotta love brothers. Though, I never had any.”

“You couldn’t give me that luxury, huh?” He snorts as he holds my gaze. Neither of us says anything; we just stare into each other’s eyes. “So, are you upset with me?”

“No, not upset. Surprised.”

He holds my gaze, and I shrug. “No clue what to say here, Dad.”

“Why, bud? You had it so good with her. Did you really need to add sex?” he asks, and my heart jumps into my throat. “Was this just out of lust, or do you care for her?”

I lick my lips. I’m a little stunned here. “I care for her.”

He nods. “Because you told me you cared for Jasmine too. But I know you. I know you don’t take risks, and Ally is a risk. The same with Shelli. When Aiden got involved, I knew it would either be great or awful, which is the issue with our families being so intertwined. We love the Titovs, they’re great people, and we all know they put Ally on a pedestal. Hell, you too. They adore you, and taking this to the next level jeopardizes that. You do realize that?”

I swallow hard and then I nod. “I know, Dad. I’ve thought all of that through and almost lost Ally in the process because I was a jackass about the whole thing.”

“That’s unlike you. How do you mean?”

“She kissed me, and I ghosted her. She came at me, guns a-blazin’ in true Ally fashion, and all I could think was, I can’t lose this girl. I know the risks here, Dad. I do. But I can’t not be with her. I know I am navigating new territory. I’m aware of that. But we have so much history, and I don’t know, Dad, we click, like more so than just friends. And it’s good. Really good.”

He exhales heavily. “Do you love her?”

Man, talk about being kicked in the throat. I feel sweat beading at my temple as I shrug. “I’ve always loved her.”

“No, son. Do you love her?” I know what he means, but I don’t know what to say. I swallow hard, and I guess he takes that as my answer. “Mom says Ally’s always been in love with you.”

And now a kick to the balls. I feel like I’m choking as I hold his gaze. “No one knows that. She hasn’t said that.”

He side-eyes me. “She doesn’t have to say it, Asher. Everyone can just tell. And I think you do too.”

“I wish I could just feel what I feel without people telling me what I feel. Or should feel.”

His eyes fill with concern. “You’re terrified of what that can turn into.”

I blink and look away. “What does that even mean?” I ask, even though I know the answer.

“That she will have the power to break you in two, and you’ve never experienced that.” I swallow hard. Yup, I knew the answer. “I get it, son, I do. You’re a cautious dude, but it’s different with Ally. I know your mom has told you this, and I know you’re probably ignoring her, hoping you’ll be fine. And also, I know this is all new, but people get hurt, even in loving relationships.”

I bite my lip. “I’m trying—”

“I lied to your mom about Audrey dating my best friend at the time.”

I look up, meeting his gaze.

“I almost lost her because of it. Because I thought lying for Audrey was a good idea, when I knew how your mom felt about Audrey’s relationship with the guy. She didn’t want them together, and in a way, I helped hide it from her. It hurt her. If I could lie about that, what else could I lie about?”

I press my lips together. “But you guys are married, kids—”

“Because you don’t give up on the person you love.” I feel like I’m choking on a cheese stick. “I can’t tell you how you feel, Ash. Only you know that, but if you don’t plan on opening your heart to this girl, get out now.”

I look up at him, wide-eyed. “I’ll lose her.”

He shrugs. “You knew that going in. So, you need to decide what you want.”

“I want Ally.”

“But can you give her all of you? She isn’t Jasmine—Ally’ll see right through that. Remember that.”

I bite the inside of my cheek so hard, it bleeds. I knew I would be uncomfortable coming to lunch with my dad, but I never expected to feel guilt. I don’t want to hurt Ally, and I also don’t want to lose her. My dad is right, though, and I know it. This is also what Ally was implying and expecting me not to do. I’m not saying I am; I truly feel something for her. All over and all the way inside. But am I able to hand over my heart to her, knowing the risk, and accepting that she could ultimately break me?

I’m a smart guy, but even I don’t know the answer to that.





Chapter Twenty-Five





Asher



“You are driving entirely too fast.”

I glance over at Stella, and she’s actually hanging on to the door handle as if I’m going two hundred instead of fifty-two. “I’m going the speed limit.”

She glances over at me, wide-eyed. “No, you’re going too fast.”

Emery giggles from the back. “Says the person who gets honked at all the time for going too slow.”

“Shut up, Em!”

My baby sister snickers as I pull into the mall parking lot. I don’t know what I was thinking when I asked them to go shopping with me. If I had my choice, I’d take Ally to dinner naked, but apparently that’s against the law in all fifty states. Really annoying. Because of this, I brought my sisters to help me pick out something for Ally.

I want tonight to be special. I don’t know if it was talking to my dad or what, but I want her to know I really care for her. Hell, I might even love her if she loved me. But just thinking that has me breaking out in a sweat. It may freak me out, but letting her go, or losing her, freaks me out even more. I need to figure this shit out. I need a little more time.