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By:Hannah Harrington


                Mom’s side of the family is Irish to the bone. The story goes                     that some great-grandmother of mine came to the States in a potato boat or                     something. She has three brothers, two sisters, a million cousins, and among                     them you’ll find all of the stereotypes: Catholicism, raging alcoholism,                     legendary hot tempers. It sure makes holiday get-togethers interesting. Dad’s                     one of those American mutts who cites about fifteen European countries as his                     heritage. Apparently none of them were strong enough to battle out the Irish in                     the gene pool.

                “What are you doing?” she asks.

                Crap. My whiteboard’s upstairs and neither of us knows sign                     language, so that leaves me limited options. I tear open one of the bags, point                     to the clothing, and then shake my head, trying for my best DO NOT WANT! expression. I also attempt mimicking handing a folded                     pair of studded jeans to a grateful jeans-deprived poor person, which my mother                     understands about as well as you’d expect. Meaning, not at all.

                Ah, well. I can just store it all down here for right now, and                     if by some miracle life returns to normal, I’ll drag it all back up to my room.                     I’m not holding my breath waiting for that to happen, though.

                Mom exhales in exasperation. “Stop this nonsense and just talk                     to me!”

                For a second she looks so hurt that I feel kind of bad about                     it. I mean, it’s not like I decided to do this to punish her. And it’s not like                     I can explain my real reasons to her. “You see, Mom, your darling daughter never                     knows when to shut the hell up and has a habit of saying things that land people                     in jail or in comas, or else mortifies them with what may quite possibly fall                     under the legal guidelines of sexual harassment, and the only way my so-called                     friends will listen to anything I have to say is if I kneel at their feet                     begging for forgiveness, which isn’t going to happen in this lifetime, so it’s                     easier not to say anything at all.” Please. If I said all that, she’d skip Dr.                     Gebhart and go directly for the straitjacket.

                “Chelsea.” Mom’s arms drop to her sides, and she takes a step                     toward me. “Tell me what’s wrong. Tell me so I can fix it.”