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By:Hannah Harrington


                What I like about the formals most is looking for new dresses.                     That search for the perfect one. I like scouring through celebrity gossip                     magazines and blogs and taking cues from what the stars are wearing to premieres                     and award ceremonies. Of course no way can I shell out for Vera Wang or Oscar de                     la Renta or Chanel, but I’ve learned that if you look hard enough you can find                     cheaper alternatives. I sort of have this dream of one day writing for one of                     those magazines, being the person who critiques celebrity fashion; Mrs. Finch                     even let me publish a few Fashion Dos and Don’ts columns in the Grand Lake High Gazette. I’ve never told anyone about                     that career goal, though, not even Kristen—she got all pissed when I wrote about                     frosted lipstick being a fashion “Don’t,” since she loves it, and then told me                     someone who wears gold shimmery eye shadow isn’t one to talk. I still don’t                     understand what’s so wrong with gold eye shadow, but I threw it out anyway.

                By the time I get home from school, all I want to do is zone                     out, so I go upstairs and sit in the middle of my bed with my laptop, opening                     all of the celebrity blogs I read religiously. I scroll through a set of photos                     of Kate Hudson wearing this dress that reminds me a little of the one I bought                     for this year’s Homecoming, a low-cut silver number plated with tiny glittery                     sequins. It was flashy and over-the-top and made me look not unlike a disco                     ball, but it was the kind of dress you wear to have fun in, to stand out, to                     say, hey, take a look at me, and people did.

                Of course, it was effectively ruined when we went to Kristen’s                     after and Joey pushed me into her dirty swimming pool. Ass.

                For the Winter Formal, I’d go with something less outlandish                     and more elegant. Probably a solid dark color, with maybe a few rhinestones on                     the collar, or sequins down by the hem, but nothing extreme. Something                     classic.

                If I was going, that is. Which I’m not. Obviously. I don’t have                     a death wish.

                I’m just about done reading the comments section when I notice                     one new email sitting in my in-box. I switch to the window, fully expecting a                     piece of spam touting penis enlargements or Russian mail-order brides, and                     instead see a message from Kristen waiting for me. My heart picks up speed in my                     chest like I just downed a shot of Red Bull. Could it be? Is she reaching out to                     me to make an apology, or an offer of amends? There’s no subject line to tip me                     off on what it could possibly say, so I hold my breath and click on it.