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By:Hannah Harrington


                Things start to come back to me when I rub my face dry with the                     thick terry-cloth towel hanging on the rack. Kristen cajoling me into one more                     shot even though I was already falling-down drunk; jumping up on her coffee                     table to dance until I fell off and landed on some freshman girl; Brendon—oh,                     God. Brendon. I’m pretty sure I totally threw myself at him in the most                     embarrassing manner possible.

                “Yup, you totally did,” Kristen informs me cheerfully after                     I’ve managed to stumble down to the kitchen and collapse in the nearest chair.                     She sets a mug of water and two Advil in front of me—which for Kristen is as                     considerate as she gets. “You kept rubbing up on him and babbling about how hot                     his box of mints is. He was so weirded out. It was pretty hilarious.”

                “I’m sure,” I mutter. It would’ve been nice if Kristen had                     intervened to spare me the humiliation, but I guess she was too busy getting a                     kick out of the situation.

                She picks up the empty beer bottles littered on the table and                     takes them to the sink. “Cheer up,” she tells me. “At least you weren’t abandoned by your supposed boyfriend.”

                An unsettled feeling twists in my gut. “He didn’t come back                     last night?”

                “No,” she scoffs. “Fucking jerk. Probably went off to hotbox                     his truck with Joey. I swear—” She’s cut off by her phone on the counter                     ringing. She grabs it with a sigh. “That’s probably him. He better grovel.”

                While she takes the call I swallow the Advil, downing all of                     the water in the mug in a few long gulps. My head is totally throbbing. I feel                     like death warmed over. No, scratch that. Like death left out on the counter for                     two days and then reheated in the microwave for thirty seconds. That’s exactly                     how I feel.

                There’s an issue of National                         Geographic lying half-open on the table. I pick it up and leaf                     through it idly. I’m not a big recreational-reader type, other than celebrity                     gossip blogs and Us Weekly, but Kristen’s a talker,                     and I’m sure she’ll be arguing with Warren for a while before he gives in and                     promises to buy her something shiny in exchange for bailing. The magazine is                     open to a striking photo of an old Buddhist monk swathed in a yellow robe                     kneeling in prayer. Below the picture is a profile on the monk, who’d taken a                     vow of silence and hadn’t spoken a word in sixty years. I guess the idea was                     that by not speaking and staying in a constant state of contemplation, it made                     him closer to God, or enlightenment, or whatever.