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Something in the Way(2)

By:Jessica Hawkins


"It looks valuable," he said.

I squinted up, and up, and up at him. I had only two concepts of  men-ones my father's age, like my teachers, and the boys I went to  school with. This one didn't fit into either category. He was bigger  than my dad, bigger, even, than our vice-principal, who was the tallest  man I knew. I couldn't quite see his eyes under his hardhat, so I looked  at the rest of his face. Black scruff nearly hid the dent in his chin.  His nose was strong and hard with a noticeable bump.                       
       
           



       

"It is," I said.

He held it out. The sleeves of his charcoal-gray t-shirt had been ripped  off at the seams. His arms were like the guns Dad displayed in his  study-hard, defined, chillingly powerful. The more my father warned me  off the weapons he kept locked behind glass, the more I just wanted to  touch one to see how it'd feel.

I didn't move an inch, my heart beating harder.

"It's all right," he said, nodding. "It's safe."

I opened my hand. He poured the bracelet into it, and I put it in my pocket.

He removed his hardhat. He'd rolled and knotted a red bandana around his  head, but it didn't seem to do much; he had a lot of thick, black hair  that spilled over. Picking up his shirt, he wiped his temples, giving me  a glimpse of his hard, rippled stomach, and a smattering of fine dark  hair. He dropped the hem immediately, but I averted my eyes anyway.

"Sorry," he said.

"For what?" I asked the pavement.

"If I made you uncomfortable." He removed the bandana and used that on  his face instead. Dirt smeared across his olive skin. He was making it  worse. I could see his eyes better now, dark brown like soda pop, but  against the sun, there were lighter flecks, gold as the chain in my  pocket.

My stomach tightened. I was uncomfortable, but him knowing that made it worse.

He pulled a pack of cigarettes from his back pocket and hit it against  his palm. "You should get the clasp checked," he said before he walked  away.

I made it all the way to the front door when I remembered I didn't have  my house keys. I could picture them on my desk between my phone and a  stack of Sassy magazines. I hadn't even thought to take them this  morning. Why would I? Tiffany was supposed to be with me. Even the gate  into the backyard was locked. Dad had been extra diligent about securing  the house since construction had started.

I shuffled back down the walkway, sat on the curb, and took out my book.  Somehow, I could sense the man watching me. I wanted to look back. I  liked his dark eyes, and how he looked scary, but he'd done something  nice for me. I read the same paragraph three times and still didn't know  what it said, so I gave in and glanced up. He sat on a brick wall that  surrounded the lot, his hand cupped around a lighter as he lit the  cigarette between his lips. He wasn't looking at me.

I realized what was bothering me. I hadn't thanked him for returning the  bracelet, and that was rude. I closed my book and got up. This time, he  did watch as I walked back along the street toward him.

"Thanks," I said from the curb.

"For?"

I put my book under one arm, took out the bracelet, and showed it to him. "You could've kept it. I wouldn't've known."

"What would I do with women's jewelry?" he asked.

"Give it to your girlfriend." I pretended to concentrate on getting the  bracelet on so he wouldn't see me blushing. The longer he was silent,  the more uncomfortable I got. I had no idea how he'd taken the comment.  Unable to help myself, I finally glanced up at him. "Or your mom. Or  sister."

"If I'd kept your bracelet, I would've taken it to a pawn shop."

Heat soared up my chest, right to my cheeks. A porn shop? If he hadn't  seen me blushing before, he definitely did now. I'd never heard of a  porn shop. Well, I knew what porn was. Boys at my school bragged about  looking at it. My dad got Playboy in the mail. But what kind of things  did a shop sell?

"You get locked out?" he asked.

I stepped onto the lot. "My sister has the key."

He nodded. I wasn't sure what to make of him. Because he was older and  bigger, he seemed unapproachable, but I wanted to talk to him anyway. He  took a drag of his cigarette. "What're you reading?"

I gave up trying to get the bracelet on. "The Grapes of Wrath."

"The one with the farmers?"

"It's about the Great Depression," I said.

"Why'd you pick that?"

"Because it was next on the list."

His forehead wrinkled. "The list?"

I walked a little closer to him, holding my unclasped bracelet in place. "Required summer reading."

He stubbed out the cigarette he'd just lit. "You want to sit?"

The wall probably only came up to his waist, but for me, it was tall  enough that I wasn't going to embarrass myself by trying to get up.  "I'll stand."

"So this list . . . you just go in order, one by one?" he asked. "What if you're in the mood for something different?"

Was anyone ever in the mood for the Great Depression? This paperback had  taken me longer to read than any other book so far and not just because  it was almost five hundred pages. I hadn't thought to tackle the list  any other way. "I guess I could try something else."                       
       
           



       

"You're not enjoying it?"

My mouth went dry just thinking about all the lengthy  descriptions-traveling across country, drought, dust. "There's a lot of .  . . information."

"Put it down for a while. Try something else. Maybe something not on the list."

"Can't. School starts in six weeks, and there are more books after this."

"You could always do what I did and watch the movie."

I balked. "I can't do that."

"Why not?"

"That's cheating."

"Huh." The ends of his grease-smudged jeans grazed the bottoms of his  worn boots. Where did they carry pants long enough for so much leg? His  t-shirt must've been through the wash hundreds of times, faded to the  point I could barely make out a rainbow streak across it.

I squinted to read it. "What's Pink Floyd?"

"What?" He glanced at me and then down, pulling the fabric taut with one hand. "It's a band. You never heard of them?"

I shook my head as my cheeks warmed. I shouldn't have asked. Tiffany  knew all the latest bands, watched all the music videos, and I tried to  keep up, but there were so many. Nirvana was the one Tiffany loved most.  Why couldn't he have been wearing a Nirvana shirt? I knew most of their  songs-I'd heard them through the wall enough times. "I don't listen to  the radio much."

"Me, neither. There's some pretty bad stuff out there."

I smiled a little. Tiffany was all about her CDs. Saying you didn't like  music was like admitting you weren't cool. Everybody had something to  say about the latest album or some underground band or the ‘song of the  summer.' "I play a little piano," I said. "But I'll probably stop."

"How come?"

"I'm not any good. Anyway, my sister says piano's for geeks."

He studied me a few seconds and then nodded toward my parents' house. "Was that your sister yesterday?"

Of course he wanted to know about Tiffany. It should've occurred to me  earlier that she was the reason he'd talked to me, but for some reason  it hadn't. Even though I was pretty sure he was around Tiffany's age, he  seemed more mature.

I nodded. "Tiffany. She'll probably go out with you."

"Yeah? How do you know?"

"She goes out with lots of guys."

His heavy black brows fell. "What do you know about who she goes out with?"

"She tells me."

"Tells you what?"

"About who she likes and stuff."

"And stuff." With a grunt, he reached into his back pocket, took out  another cigarette, and stuck it in his mouth without lighting it. "You  should stay out of your sister's business."

I jutted my chin out. He sounded just like my dad, except when Dad said  it, it was an order, not a suggestion. Dad made Tiffany's business sound  filthy, like I might go looking for it in the garbage cans out back.

"Look at that." The cigarette sagged from between his lips as he glanced at my feet. "You dropped it again."

I followed his eyes to where my bracelet had fallen in the dirt. Damn. I picked it up and tried again to get it back on.

"Come over here," he said. "Let me do that."

I breathed through my mouth. "What?"

"The clasp," he said.

My heart skipped as he beckoned me. I took a few tentative steps and  held out my arm, the chain dangling precariously. He moved the unlit  cigarette from his mouth to behind his ear, then leaned forward and  turned my forearm face-up. He could crush my wrist with one hand, I was  sure of it. It took him several tries to even get the two ends between  his huge fingers. He squinted, muttering under his breath. His callused  palms brushed over the thin skin of my wrist until goosebumps traveled  up my arm and my insides tightened up. The ends slipped from between his  fingers over and over.