It had been a while since a soul had been this loud psychically. But sometimes violence will be so loud psychically to the victim that it gives them oomph. It makes them so loud to my abilities that I can’t not notice them.
I stood in the heat, sweat trickling down my neck, the equipment smothering in the beating weight of the sunlight. People always think you only see spirits at night, or twilight, or shit like that, but spirits don’t care. They’ll show up any time they can manage to find someone able to see them. Lucky fucking me.
“Not one of your men?” I made it a question. My voice sounded normal, as if I weren’t working at not seeing someone’s soul floating above us.
“No, it’s Glick. He was one of the first psychics we hired.”
“That might explain it,” I said.
“Explain what?” Hooper asked.
Edward actually brushed my arm with his fingertips, like a warning. “Marshal Blake sometimes picks up impressions from the dead.”
“I’m not a psychic like one you’d bring in to help solve a case through visions,” I added, “but I feel the dead sometimes, all kinds of dead.”
“You can feel Glick?”
“Something like that.”
“Talking in your head?”
“No, the dead don’t talk that clearly to me. Call it more emotions.”
“What kind of emotions? Fear?”
“No,” I said.
“Then what?”
I cursed myself for saying that first little comment out loud. I told part of the truth. “Puzzlement. He’s puzzled.”
“Puzzled about what?”
“About being dead,” I said.
Hooper stared at the body. “You mean he’s in there thinking?”
“No, not at all,” I said.
Edward shook his head. “Tell him; what he’s imagining is worse.”
“Please don’t share with anyone else that I can do this, but sometimes I can sense the souls of the freshly dead.”
“Souls; you mean ghosts,” Hooper said.
“No, I mean souls. Ghosts come later, and most of the time feel really different.”
“So Glick’s soul is floating around here?”
“It happens. He’ll watch for a while, and then he’ll go on.”
“You mean to heaven?”
I said the only thing I could. “Yes, that’s what I mean.”
Olaf, who had been so quiet throughout, said, “Could it not go to hell?”
Shit.
Hooper glanced at Olaf, then back to me. “Well, Blake? Glick was Jewish; does that mean he burns?”
“Was he a good man?”
“Yes. He loved his wife and kids, and he was a good man.”
“I believe that good is good, so you go to heaven.”
He motioned off toward some scrubby bushes. “Matchett was a bastard. He cheated on his wife. He had a gambling problem and was about to get kicked off the team. Is he in hell?”
I wanted to say, Why ask me? How did I end up having a philosophical discussion over the bodies? “I’m Christian, but if God is truly a God of love, then why would he have a private torture chamber where he put people that he was supposed to love and forgive to be punished forever? If you actually read the Bible, the idea of hell like in the movies and most books was invented by a writer. Dante’s Inferno was ripped off by the Church to give people something to be afraid of, to literally scare people into being Christian.”
“So, you don’t believe in hell.”
Philosophically, no. Truthfully, once a Catholic, always a Catholic, but out loud, because it was the answer he needed while staring down at his dead friend, I said, “No, I don’t.” No lightning bolt struck me. Maybe if you lie for a good reason, you get a pass.
46
THE TWO OFFICERS who had been on surveillance were crumpled in the scrub bushes like broken dolls. So much damage that my eyes couldn’t make sense of it in one glance. It’s always bad when the brain goes, Nope, I’m not letting you see that. It’s the mind’s last warning for you to close your eyes and not to add to the nightmares. But I had a badge, and that meant that I didn’t get to close my eyes and wish the bad things away.
All of us with our various flavors of badges stood around and looked at what was left of two men. One was dark haired; the other’s head was so covered in blood that I wasn’t sure. The bodies had been torn apart, as if something very big, and very strong, had used the bodies for a wishbone and pulled. There were a lot of internal organs mixed in with the blood, but the organs weren’t recognizable, as if someone, or something, had trampled them into mush.
“Did they pull them apart first,” I asked, “then walk in the internal organs?”