“Charming,” he mused and chuckled. “Ok. From a brother’s point of view we have this. You’re dating a guy you never told him about, you mysteriously are kidnapped and returned and then take off to a picnic with that guy’s family like nothing happened. Then, you jump on a plane, alone, with before mentioned guy while your dad acts like this is totally normal right after a semi-breakdown. If you were my sister and everyone was acting this way, I’d think everyone was nuts and go berserk on someone. Personally, I think he’s taking it pretty well.”
I just looked at him. He was so funny and cute.
“Ok, so you don’t think we should worry about it. If he finds out, he finds out?”
“Yep, it’s gonna be pretty hard to hide this kind of thing from him for the rest of our lives. It’s probably best if he finds out sooner than later.”
“But I thought it was so secret.”
“It is,” he looked over and down at me, “but your happiness is more important than a secret. I learned that when we told your dad. You were so happy to be able to tell him, to not have to lie anymore.”“Yeah, but I understand your side, too. I don’t think Bish would run to USA Today or anything, but he may not be so accepting.”
“We’ll deal with that later. Right now,” he pulled me to him to kiss my temple, “your safety is more important than anything else.”
I nodded and leaned my head on his shoulder. “And yours. And our family's.” I took a deep breath. “Everything will work out.”
“Right.”
I ran my finger over his wrist, over his tattoo. “So, how come we don’t have to release each other anymore?”
“I’m not sure. That part doesn’t last forever, so maybe it was just our time to know that we’d always come back to each other.”
I smiled up at him. “That was a very good answer,” I whispered.
He smirked at me and kissed the end of my nose. “I’ll get us some drinks. You’re thirsty,” he announced.
“A diet-”
“Diet cream soda if they have it.” He laughed and tapped my forehead. “I know, remember?”
“Kinda takes the fun out of it,” I grumbled and he laughed as he walked across to the food court.
He kept looking back to me, watching me as he stood in line. I heard people all around me as I looked at an older man, a grandpa I assumed, as he played tic-tac-toe on a cocktail napkin with a little girl. He saw me watching and smiled, shrugging.
“A three hour layover with a four year old. What are ya gonna do?” he said and shrugged again.
I laughed and nodded. Then I felt a hand on my shoulder and gasped as I jerked up from my chair to spin expecting Sikes, or worse, Marcus. It was Chad. Of all the luck.
“Whoa, Mags. Chill,” he said in surrender. Then his eyes widened and his mouth fell open. “Wow. You look...” he licked his lips, “great. Wow.”
“What are you doing here?” I asked tersely.
“I’m leaving today for Florida. I thought you were kidnapped or something.” He crossed his arms. “I’ve been going out of my mind. What are you doing here?”
I glanced over and saw that Caleb was watching us with a frown but stayed in line.
You ok?
Yeah. He just scared me. I’m fine. Hurry back, please.
He grinned.
I can’t refuse a request like that.
“Maggie?” Chad said and waved in front of me. “I said, what are you doing here?”
“I’m leaving, too.”
“What happened? Everyone thought you’d been kidnapped?”
“I was,” I answered and his eyes went wide, “I’m fine now. It was a...it’s over now.”
“Where are you going?”
“California, for a while.”
“Huh. You going to see your mom, after what happened?”
“No, just going away for a while. Caleb’s uncle has a vacation house there.”
“Caleb.” He adjusted the backpack on his shoulder roughly and sighed. “I should’ve known. Does your dad know you're leaving? I wouldn’t think he’d be ok with you taking off with some guy.”
“He drove us here, actually,” I said casually.
“When are you coming back?”
“You’re leaving, why does it matter?”
“I’m coming back in a couple weeks to finish packing and all.” He stepped closer to me, like it would keep our conversation more private. “I figured we could get together when I come back. Talk.”
“About what? Chad-”
“Just hear me out, ok? I know I messed up at your house the other night. I was being stupid but I’m in new territory with you. It’s important to me that we try to work it out. I miss you, so much, Maggie.” He reached out for my hand and I pulled it back to rub my neck before he could reach it.
His mind was clean and airy, not mucked up with deceit or meanness like other minds I’d been in. His thoughts said he was being truthful. He wasn’t just jealous, he really did miss me. In fact, the only reason he broke up with me last summer was because his father pressured him to. He told him it would be easier on me that way and he’d never be able to focus or make it in college if he dragged me along. Chad was torn between making his parents happy and me. He thought we’d just be friends and I’d wait for him until he was settled into college and then he’d come and make things right with me. He thought that would make everyone happy. He had no idea I’d take the breakup so hard and stop talking to him all together and regretted it immediately. He wanted to take it back but couldn’t tell me what he’d done and why. He was ashamed and now was scared for me, he thought I was making a mistake with this guy because I was angry. He missed me, he still loved me and wanted me. I was his biggest regret and he was miserable.
I felt like I’d been kicked in the gut.
“Maggie,” he rubbed his face, “I don’t know what to do, here. I love you and I don’t want to see you hurt. I wish I could just get you to see how sorry I am and how much I want to make it up to you.”
“Chad, I’m sorry that things happened the way they did. I’m sure you got pressure about college and all. You had no idea what was going on in my life. I should have told you about my mom. We weren’t as close as we should have been, like real couples are. I’d always known you. You were always there and I was comfortable. I didn’t want to take it any further with you but for some reason, I thought we’d always be together. I’m sorry, but it’s too late. It’s not just about Caleb, I was just never who I am now, with you. Now, I’m who I was always supposed to be.” I shrugged and heard them call his gate number over the loud speaker. “You’re gonna be so great in Florida. I know your dad is proud of you.”
“Yeah,” he mumbled, “he is, but I don’t think it was worth it.”
“It was. You’ll see.”
“I hope so.” He nodded his head over my shoulder. “Caleb.”
“Chad,” Caleb said not unkindly and handed me my drink. “Small world.”
“Yeah. Well I’m off. See you around, Maggie.”
He was yelling in his mind. He so didn’t want to leave and it hurt me to see him like that. He just wanted one more shot, so bad.
“Bye.”
He started to turn, but stopped. “Call me...or something. Let me know how you’re doing, that you’re all right, ok?”“Sure.” I smiled and relented. I went to hug him briefly. He squeezed me so tight, I could feel his breath in my hair and his hands pressed against my back. I noticed Caleb had blocked his thoughts from me. I couldn’t even feel his emotions. I thought that couldn’t be good. Chad held on for a long time before I finally said something to end it. “Have a good flight, ok?”
“Yeah,” Chad pulled back and glanced between Caleb and I. “You, too. See ya.”
“Bye.”
Once he was gone I turned and expected to see an upset face on Caleb but he surprised me. He looked amused.
“You’re so sweet.” He kissed my cheek and then sat down. “How’s your drink? They didn’t have cream soda so I got you-”
“Wait.” I sat next to him and looked at him, perplexed. “You’re not mad?”
“No. Why would I be?”
Well, I just hugged my ex-boyfriend right in front of you for one.
“You forget.” He put his drink down on the floor, turned back to my guilty face and placed his hand on my knee. “I can see straight into your mind. You can’t hide anything from me anymore. Neither can I, unless we’re trying to. I saw that you were upset by how he still feels about you. That you hate how it all happened but you don’t regret it. You didn’t have lingering feelings for him, you just felt sorry for him and didn’t want to hurt him. There’s nothing wrong with that. Now,” he screwed his lips up, “I admit, it’s not fun to watch my girl with her arms around another guy, but I saw in your mind that this was goodbye with him. You never got the goodbye, the ‘closure’ I told you that you needed. Well, now you do.”
“You’re pretty amazing,” I said softly.
“Hey, that’s my line,” he said grinning.
“I’m serious. Any other guy would be upset.”