Shade remained silent as Lily began talking between whimpers.
“Please don’t hurt me anymore, Mama. I’ll do what you want. Please, don’t make me drink it. It makes me sick, and I won’t be able to play with Sawyer and Vida. They promised to let me take a turn playing with Vida’s new doll.”#p#分页标题#e#
As Lily began making gagging noises, Shade hastily raised her up, wanting to give her a drink of water, but he was afraid it would become too much for her if she felt something pressed against her lips.
Shade listened as she went back and forth between adult and child. The child described the atrocities she had lived with while the adult was ashamed she was still frightened of her past. She was literally being torn apart by the two.
Her mother had given Lily alcohol to make her more complacent to do what she wanted until Lily must have quit fighting her to keep herself from being drugged. Lily, for all her appearance of virtue, had never known innocence.
“Don’t want to remember. Don’t want to remember … Now I lay me down to sleep, I pray the Lord my soul to keep…”
Shade couldn’t bear any more. He gently lifted her, carrying her to sit on the chair where he gently rocked her until she quit crying, the drugs in her system making her drowsy again.
“Are you my daddy?”
Shade stiffened.
“No, I’m not your daddy,” he answered gruffly.
“I’ve always wanted one. Do you have a daddy?”
“Yes.”
“Is he nice?”
“Yeah, he’s nice.”
“I’m glad.” Lily laid her head on his shoulder. “Are you a cowboy?”
“No, I’m not a cowboy.”
“Then who are you?” she asked in a whisper, as if she was afraid to hear the answer.
“I’m nobody; you’re dreaming.”
“You feel real. Besides, this can’t be a dream.” She yawned.
“Why not?”
“Because I don’t have good dreams.”
Shade rose with her carefully in his arms, carrying her back to her bed where he laid her down, covering her up. She had already slipped back to sleep.
“You will, Lily. I promise, I’m going to make all your dreams come true, even if you don’t want me to be a part of them.”
Shade waited until her breathing deepened before turning the light on by the doorway. It would reassure her if she woke up again, yet it was not bright enough to wake her.
He sat back down in the chair to wait for her to be more alert. That time, he didn’t mind waiting; he needed the time to think and plan how he was going to insert himself in her life.
It was time to begin his pursuit of Lily.
Chapter 39
“Lily.” Shade stood in the doorway of the factory office, watching Lily stiffen as soon as she saw him. He almost smiled as he watched Lily’s reaction to having to share lunch with him every day.
As she drew closer, Evie came out, giving her a friendly smile. She had brought their lunch.
“How’s it going today?” Evie asked.
“Fine,” Lily replied, smiling back.
“Cool. You two enjoy your lunch.”
“Why don’t you stay and have lunch with Shade today? I’m not very hungry.”
Shade didn’t say anything as he stared down Evie. She knew the answer: no one was to interfere. If they did, he would take it as a direct challenge, and he would respond in kind.
“I’ve already eaten. I’d better get back; I left Rider doing lunch by himself,” Evie said, leaving before Lily could make up another reason for her to stay, not that it would work.
It never did, although she had been very inventive at trying to keep out of his way.
Lily slipped by Shade, who made no effort to move away from the door, forcing her to brush her body against his. She then took a seat on the chair, sitting next to his desk. He had moved the chair there purposely so she could become used to him being in her space, and he could smell the delicate hint of her perfume.#p#分页标题#e#
Shade closed the door then took a seat at his desk. Handing her one of the plates with baked chicken and vegetables, he began eating his own food.
As long as he didn’t try to stray from the boss/employee relationship, Lily felt overwhelmed by him but not afraid. When she was forced to eat lunch with him, she didn’t like being near him. For that brief period of each day, she wasn’t able to hide from the fact that he was an attractive male, and that was enough in itself to terrify her.
Seeing the thoughts swirling behind her eyes as she tried to devise yet another way out of their lunches, Shade tried to distract her to calm her nerves.
“How’s your arm doing since the cast came off?”