Seduced by Moonlight (Merry Gentry #3)(75)

“If she is so bold as to choose magic against me, then she will die all the sooner. She cannot bleed me to death from three tiny wounds, not before I have slain her.” She stood there, supremely confident, and if I had had only the first part of the hand of blood, she’d have been right. But I could widen those three tiny wounds, spilling her life’s blood a hundred times faster. If I could survive long enough, I had her.
Chapter 33
There are no seconds in a seelie duel. Once one of the combatants can no longer continue, the fight ends. There is no second to pick up the weapon and avenge you. But you can choose who wields the blade that draws your blood for the oath.
Doyle had borrowed a ribbon to pull his hair back from his face. He put the tip of his knife against my lower lip, the very point of his sharp knife against the soft skin of my mouth. He was quick, but it hurt anyway. It always did when you bled your mouth. It would be a kiss that sealed the blood oath: such a little bit of blood to mean so much.
If it had been only to first blood we could have worn armor, which was why the first cut was on the face. All you had to do was remove the helmet, and you could be cut.
He cradled my hand in his, baring the wrist to the point of his blade. Again, he was quick, but it hurt more this time, because it was a larger cut. Not too deep, but longer. Blood filled the wound and began to drip slowly down my skin.
Again, if it had been to second blood, someone could have kept a little armor on, but third blood meant no armor. No protection but your own skin and whatever clothes you were wearing.
Doyle touched his blade to the hollow of my throat, and made a tiny cut that stung. I could not see when blood filled it, but I could feel the first trickle of warmth as my blood began to slide down my neck.
All three cuts hurt, sharp and immediate, which was good. I knew from experience that if any of the cuts closed before the final part of the ritual, Miniver’s blade wielder would get to redo my wounds. I did not want that. I didn’t even have to know who it was, to know that you do not give your flesh over to your enemies’ blades. I’d had Galen wield the knife once, and he’d been so squeamish about hurting me that two of the wounds had had to be redone. Cel’s friends had damn near slit my wrist.
I looked up into Doyle’s darkly handsome face. I wanted to say so many things. I wanted to kiss him good-bye, but didn’t dare. We stood in a magic circle that the queen had traced upon the stones of the main court. Inside this circle was a sacred place, and one touch of mortal blood could contaminate, as I’d proven in other duels. But the last duel that I’d managed to kill someone in, I’d been armed with a handgun. They’d been outlawed after that duel. I thought that was unfair, since the gun had acted as the equalizer it was meant to be. The sidhe who’d died had outweighed me by more than a hundred pounds, and had had more than double my reach of arm and leg. He’d been a great swordsman, and I was not. But he hadn’t been much of a marksman. Most of the sidhe weren’t, the Queen’s Ravens being the exception. Most sidhe still treated firearms as if they were some sort of human trick.
But there would be no guns today. No swords, no weapons. I’d chosen magic, and Miniver was more confident than ever of her victory. I was hoping she would be overconfident. She was Seelie enough for it.
She stood across the stones from me, in her dress of gold. Blood had begun to trace a thin dark line on the front of that dress, as her neck wound bled. The cuff of her dress was scarlet with her blood. Her blood was only a little darker red than her mouth, and it only showed crimson as it began to spill down her chin.
I fought the urge to lick my own lip as I felt the blood seep down my chin, but we were supposed to save that blood for each other.“Are the wounds satisfactory?” the queen asked from the throne where she sat to watch.
We both nodded.
“Then make oath to each other.” Andais’s voice was neutral, but not perfectly so. Her voice betrayed a niggling sense of anger and unease.
Doyle stepped to one side, and the noble who had wielded the blade for Miniver did the same on the opposite side of the circle. It left Miniver and I facing each other over a space of stone floor.
We stayed unmoving for a heartbeat or two, then she started forward, striding in her full skirt like a confident golden cloud. I walked to meet her. I had to be more careful, because the high heels I was wearing were not meant for striding over old stones. It would ruin so much if I twisted an ankle. My skirt was too short to do anything, and all my clothes were still blood-soaked. Nothing about me billowed or floated like a cloud.
Her full skirts seemed to wrap around my nearly bare legs. She looked down at me for a moment, as if she expected me to finish it, but she was a foot taller than I was, and there was no way for me to close that distance without her help.
She stood there, blood running down her chin. Hands at her sides. I wasn’t sure what was wrong at first; then I realized where she was looking. She was staring at my throat, at the blood that welled there. She was trying to stare as if she were horrified by the barbarity of it, and most of her face succeeded, but her eyes . . . those beautiful blue eyes like three circles of perfect sky . . . those eyes held something close to hunger. I remembered what Andais had said: that whoever crafted the spell had understood her battle madness, her bloodlust. Whoever had made the spell had understood Andais’s magic. How do you best understand something, except by experiencing it yourself.
Miniver’s eyes stared at the wound in my throat as if it was something wondrous, and fearful. She wanted the blood, or the wound, or the harm; something about it fascinated her. But she feared that fascination.
I’d spent my share of time being on the wrong end of Andais’s hobbies. I knew that for her blood and sex and violence were all intertwined to the point that where one left off, and the others began, had blurred.
Miniver had never by action or word given hint that her power held anything akin to the queen’s. If she was filled with the same hungers that Andais fed, then Miniver had the control of a saint. Of course, it’s easy to be a saint when you are so terribly careful never to be tempted.
Miniver had spent my lifetime leaving the court when the entertainments were too bloody. She was too Seelie to enjoy such blood sport, so she’d said. Now I saw the truth in her eyes. She hadn’t left because she was horrified; she’d left because she did not trust herself. Just as she did not trust herself at this moment. 
I knew what it was to deny your true nature. I’d done it for years among the humans, cut off from faerie and from anyone who could have given me what I craved. I knew what it felt like to have that craving answered after so very long. It had been overwhelming. Would it be the same for Miniver?
I closed the distance between us, wading into that stiff gold cloth until I could feel her legs, her hips, against my body. She watched the blood at my throat, as if the rest of me were not there. I finally moved close enough that I had to put my hands around her waist to keep steady on my high heels.
She backed up then, and made a show of not wanting me to embrace her, but it hadn’t been that, or at least not just that. I’d stepped so close she couldn’t see the blood flowing.
“You are a foot taller than I am, Miniver. I cannot share oath with you, unless you help.”
She stared down that perfect nose at me. “Too short to be sidhe at any court.”
I nodded, and winced, made a show of touching my throat. It hurt, but not that much. She watched me touch the wound, watched me tug at the neck of my blouse. If she’d been male, or a lover of women, I’d have accused her of enjoying the flash of clean white breast I gave her, but I don’t think it was anything as simple as flashing the top of my breast at her. I think it was the sight of clean white flesh with fresh blood on it.
I offered her my hand, the one with the cut wrist. “Come, Miniver, help me make this oath.”
She could not refuse me, but the moment her hand touched mine, felt the slick play of blood, she jerked back. It must have been torture to her to watch first the goblins feed, and then the demi-fey.
“If you wish to call this duel off, I will not argue,” I said, and my voice sounded utterly reasonable.
“Of course you wouldn’t, because I am about to end your life.”
“Will you bleed me?” I asked, raising the wrist so she could see how much blood was welling out of it. “Will you spill my body open across these stones?”
The first bead of sweat marred that perfect forehead. Oh, yes, she wanted to do just that. She wanted to slaughter as she’d made Andais do. She had filled that wine with all her own most fervent and hidden desires. If I stripped her of her pretense late in the fight, she would slaughter me. But if I could strip her now, immediately, if I could make her attack me during the kiss, then I could strike without any ceremony, too. I could open that white throat from end to end, and maybe, just maybe, I’d live through this.
She had two hands of power. The first worked from afar, and I didn’t want that one. She could shoot a bolt of energy from a great distance, and one direct hit might be enough to stop my heart, but she had a second hand. The hand of claws. She had to put those slender fingers against my body, and it would be as if invisible claws shot out from those manicured nails. Invisible claws that cut through flesh like knives, and could be wrenched through the body without the resistance of metal. Doyle and Rhys had both seen her use it. It was her left hand, and it was the one I could survive. So it was the one I needed her to use.