She was gorgeous. Not too made up. Long, dark hair sleek and straight. High, full breasts. A tiny waist. A bit slim, but most women he dated now were. Everyone was terrified of having some hips and ass on display, but it was the frickin’ magazines’ fault. In Europe, a full-figured woman was coveted. He wished it would come back to the U.S.
She smiled back and he noted her gleaming white teeth. Oh yeah, definitely bleached. No one’s teeth were that naturally bright. “I’m so glad you finally called, Wolfe. I had a great time at lunch and was looking forward to getting to know you better.”
Her gaze dropped a bit lower. It was well rehearsed. Very different from Gen’s shocked and fascinated look when she got a peek at his intimate piercing. He didn’t think he’d ever get over the way her eyes widened and sheer want transformed her features. Had he ever viewed such a naked hunger from another woman? Someone who knew who he was and wasn’t categorizing his body as a separate entity?
He forced his thoughts away from Gen and concentrated on his date. “I had a good time. Was looking forward to seeing more of you.”
“How much more?” She tilted her head in flirtation.
“A lot.” His words were automatic, but he figured his body would follow. He needed an outlet desperately, and though he’d hoped there could be a bit more with Brit, something was telling him one night would be enough.
“That could be arranged,” she drawled.
He never missed a beat. “Then maybe we should get the check.”
She didn’t argue. Just raised a perfectly arched brow and smiled wider. He got the bill from the waiter, paid, and escorted her out of the restaurant. She chattered about work, about Purity, about her father and the expectations people had of a woman in a male-dominated industry. Another time and place, he might have enjoyed her sharp intellect and polished demeanor. In a way, they were both the same, cut from the same cloth. They’d worked hard for their success, enjoyed physical intimacy and good dialogue, and were open for what happened next.
Too bad everything seemed flat lately.
But it didn’t matter. As long as Brit knew the deal, he was not going to feel guilty. He’d been without sex for over three months and was reaching the breaking point. “I’m heading back to my place.” Wolfe paused. “That okay with you?”
Brit turned and winked. “Yes. I just have to get up early for a presentation tomorrow.”
Dread curdled in his stomach. He’d been hoping to avoid a sleepover. Things got . . . intense in the morning. Either it was too forced, in the hopes of a casual, breezy good-bye, or the awkward silence slowly killed him, knowing it was over for him but not for her. Hell. He respected Brit and she deserved more than a quick lay and a push out the door. When had he gotten so cold? So good at staying distant from everyone, whether or not he gave his body?
A chill enveloped him but he refused to think about it. How many times since that fateful night did he give his physical body but never any part of him inside? He was broken. Nothing would fix him, there was no magic formula of love or healing, but he could give pleasure, give honesty, and be kind.
Maybe that was all he had left.
He pulled into his assigned space and opened the car door. Led her upstairs, past security, up the elevator, and down the hallway. She kept talking, oblivious to his growing tension and confusion. He’d done this a thousand times before. Just because he was living with Gen didn’t mean he couldn’t do what he needed, give in to the raw urges of his physical body to finally sleep without dreams. He had to have the release.
Wolfe eased into automatic host. Got her a glass of wine and sat down on the couch. He made appropriate noises for her comments, looked into her eyes, and engaged in conversation. But his mind drifted, away from his condo and back to Verily.
Back to Gen.
Brit finally set down her wineglass and moved in. Her hands stroked his hair, tilting her head in a flirtatious manner that made her hair slide over her cheek and cover one eye.
Gen’s curls did it naturally, without any pretense, but he wasn’t thinking about that right now.
“I’ve wanted you for a long time,” she murmured, leaning in.
“Me, too. Brit, you know I don’t do long-term, right?”
He hoped for a shocked look, pure indignation, maybe a slap. Instead, she laughed softly. “Baby, I don’t have time for long-term. Don’t get ahead of yourself. But tonight I’m all yours.”
“That’s all I want.”
He kissed her. Waited for the snap of desire, or at least a stirring from below to let him know it was going to be fine. He got . . . nothing. Of course, it was only a kiss, and maybe he needed to up the game in order to get his anatomy interested.