The idea came to me when I was standing like this, looking through the crack. I noticed how the condensation on the inside of the glass had leaked down and frozen along the bottom edge of the window. The ice had expanded in the crack and forced the metal frame to lift. I could see a chink of light where there hadn’t been one before. My old science teacher taught me that water expands when it freezes. That’s why it can break open granite boulders.
I thought, If it could break a boulder why not a window or a wall?
So I filled a bowl with water and tore up an old T-shirt. I soaked the torn fabric and shoved it into the gap, using a nail file to push it hard into the space. Some of the water squeezed out and leaked down the wall.
It was cold that night. The fabric froze. The next day, I pulled it out and wet it again. Night after night, it froze and refroze. For a long time I didn’t think it was working. The gap looked the same. But then one day, I pushed at the window and the whole thing moved.
Some nights weren’t cold enough for the fabric to freeze, but then we had a long cold spell. We shivered and huddled together at night, trying to stay warm. And each morning the crack had opened a little more.
I wedged my fingers inside and to my surprise the window moved. I tried again and it gave way. I caught it before it crashed to the ground, falling backwards off the bench. The edge of the window frame cut my forehead, but it wasn’t so deep.
Where the window had been, there was now a hole. Tash couldn’t fit through it, so she took most of her clothes off. First she knelt on my shoulders and then she stood. Once she put her head and arms through the window, I pushed and she clawed at the ground, trying to pull herself through.
She wouldn’t budge. I couldn’t pull her back or push her forward. That’s when I got really scared. I thought she was going freeze to death stuck in that window, lying half in the snow. I managed to pull off her leggings and then I poured vegetable oil over her hips and thighs.
“I can’t do it,” she kept saying.
“Sure you can.”
“I can’t.”
“Wiggle your hips.”
“I’m stuck.”
“Keep trying.”
“I am trying.”
She was swearing at me and crying. I had to scream at her and slap her on the thighs. I hit her so hard she slipped right through that hole, her legs and feet slithering out of sight. Snowflakes drifted in. Her head reappeared. I grabbed some more clothes and pushed them through the window.
“I’ll be back,” she said, all business. “Don’t go anywhere.”
14
Grievous has been assigned to me. He’s drawn the short straw—a fat man’s penance or the new boy’s forfeit—accepted with grace and good humor. Not fat. Solid. Muscled. Fighting the flab.
I follow him downstairs and through a rear door into the vehicle compound. His gray jacket is slightly too small for him, stretched across his shoulders. He unlocks the car.
“Best ride up front, sir. A drunk threw up on the back seat. Smell doesn’t go away.”
As he ducks into his seat, I notice a dull white scar behind his left ear beneath his hairline. Surgery. Rehab. Long past.
Minivans and coaches are parked on the far side of the police compound, waiting for the search parties. Civilian volunteers in white overalls are milling around a brazier, trying to stay warm. One of them waves to Grievous, pulling off a glove to shake hands. The two men exchange pleasantries, commenting on the cold. They talk about the blizzard and the search, wishing each other a Merry Christmas.
“Sorry about that,” says Grievous, as he starts the engine. “I know a lot of the OxSAR volunteers.”
“OxSAR?”
“Oxfordshire Search and Rescue. I trained most of them. Dentists, mechanics, insurance salesmen… they’re good lads.”
Cracking the window, he turns up the heating and pulls out of the parking area. In Colwell Drive, he circles the roundabout and heads into central Abingdon where a one-way system funnels traffic around the High Street. Soon cottages and terraces give way to factories and playing fields.
Grievous is a talker. He points out local landmarks and restaurants, showing me where he went to primary school.
“I just want to say that it’s an honor to be working with you, sir,” says Grievous. “I mean, it’s a privilege, you being so famous.”
“What makes you think I’m famous?”
“I looked you up, sir. I hope you don’t mind. You helped find Mickey Carlisle and catch Ray Hegarty’s killer and that guy who kidnapped your wife and daughter. I can’t remember his name.”
“Gideon Tyler.”
“That’s him. You battled evil and won.”