Jax rested his chin gently on the top of my head, his arms wrapped around my waist, as we watched sun disappear. Fastest sunset I’ve ever seen in my life, I thought miserably as the last ray disappeared.
“Shall we step inside, Riley?” he asked turning me to face him. I stood in front of Jaxton, letting my arms drop stiffly to my sides. “Look at me, Riley.”
I hesitated for a moment which prompted him to lift my face with his hand again. The look in his eyes was intense and full of insatiable hunger. I had never seen anything like it before.
“Would you like to know what I want from you now, Riley?” he asked quietly.
“I think I know,” I replied feeling the tremble going through me again.
“Are you afraid?” he asked, stepping forward and pinning me against the balcony.
“Yes,” I whispered.
“Good.” He put his hand around my neck and pressed his lips lightly against mine. So lightly in fact, that I wasn’t sure if he was kissing me at all or if it was just him breathing. “I won’t make you do anything you don’t want to do, Riley. Not this time. This time, I want you to enjoy it; the feeling of us together as one. Would you like that Riley? To enjoy your first memorable time? Or would you like me to have my way with you, after all? To make you feel like the dirty little girl that I sometimes see you as? The dirty little girl that deserves to be punished? That deserves to be in that room for the rest of her life; deprived from human contact except for when I feel that you’ve earned a fucking at my hands. Locked in a room where no one will care or know if and when you die in there and your body gets tossed into the ocean like the trash that you are. Tell me, which do you want?” he asked, pushing my hair out of my face.
“I want –” I stopped and took a breath to steady myself. I didn’t want anything, but I knew that wasn’t what he wanted to hear. Not to mention that I did owe him for letting me out of the room ahead of schedule.
“Yes? Tell me what you want, Riley,” he whispered intensely.
I closed my eyes for a moment and looked down. What was going to happen was inevitable and what I needed to do was find the quickest and most painless solution.
“Riley?” he prompted softly.
I opened my eyes and took a deep breath. I looked up at Jaxton and wondered what he could possibly be capable of. Could he really use me, kill me, and dump my body when he was done with me? Had he done it before? How can someone with the face of an angel hide the intentions of the devil so well?
“I want you to use me as you see fit,” I whispered in a shaky voice, that I didn’t quite recognize.
What? That’s not what I wanted to say. Fuck, look at his eyes; he loves what I just word vomited. How the fuck do I take it back?
“My sweet, sweet girl,” he breathed with a small smile. Jaxton moved his hands to my face, taking it in his hands. The look he was giving me was one full of craving with a hint of pity. “That’s not what you want. You aren’t ready for that.”
“Yes I am,” I replied.
He pulled away from me and eyed me carefully while I tried to figure out what inside of me was saying this was a good idea. To let him do whatever he wanted with me so soon; I knew I was asking for something I would never be able to handle.
“No. I won’t do this how I want to. Not just yet. I want to take my time in breaking you Riley and so far we’ve made good progress haven’t we? You don’t speak out of line, you don’t enter rooms without permission, and you’ve stopped screaming. I’d like our official first time to be gentle with just a hint of pain. With that being said, on your knees, Riley,” he said as he began to undo the zipper on his jeans.
I did as I was told. I got to my knees and again found myself having my breaths stolen by the corset that I was being forced to wear. I looked down because I didn’t want to see anything until I absolutely had too.
“Your innocence makes me smile, you know. I love how timid you are even though I’ve already had you and even though I’ve seen you naked more times than you’d like to admit. But Riley, I have to ask you, if you’re so willing to give me whatever I want right now, then how can you look away?” he asked.
I didn’t answer. I rested my hands on my knees instead and tried to focus on my breathing. I was starting to feel lightheaded and I knew that even if I passed out, it wouldn’t stop him.
Jaxton got to his knees in front of me and used his hands to raise my face to look at him. He was peering at me closely even though I kept my eyes focused on anything but him. I glanced up at the sky and tried to take in a fresh gulp of air, but I couldn’t. My eyes fluttered for a moment and Jax moved quickly. He reached behind me and pulled the corset off of me by ripping it in half. I pitched forward, my head on his chest, taking in greedy lung filling breaths.