Kane was quiet all the way home. He had Radiohead’s “Karma Police” playing in the car. I turn it up loud so I wouldn’t have to talk to him. Turning into my driveway I turn the volume down and notice that he doesn’t turn the car off as he glances over at me.
He starts to say something but I was faster, “Kane, my life is so messed up right now. I can’t even begin to tell you how much. I know you want answers about the restaurant, but right now I can’t talk about it.” Tears start to fall down my cheeks, I couldn’t control my emotions. “You don’t need this extra drama in your life right now, and I come with a shit load of it. I know you’re not looking for anything serious.” I turn and open the door to get out, but before I can, he reaches for my arm and turns me toward him.
“Jay, your right I don’t need any more bullshit in my life right now.”
I wince when he says that.
“So that is why you are going to let me help you work some of it out. I am not walking away from what we are starting here, so we will just deal with it.” He pulls me toward him, “I don’t know what it is, but you will tell me all of it, but not tonight.” He kisses me lightly on the lips. “I want you Jay, but I can wait for the right time for us and I know that’s just not tonight.” I know he could read the shock on my face. He kisses the tip of my nose and gets out of the car.
Coming around and helping me out of the car he walks me to the door. I unlock it and step inside. When he doesn’t follow I turn and he says, “Lock the door and turn the alarm on after I leave. I’ll see you in the morning.” He kisses me lightly on the lips and turns to walk away.
“Kane,” I call to him and he turns back around to look at me. “I thought you didn’t want anything serious?” He looks directly at me.
“Yeah, that’s what I thought too.” He smiles and turns around to leave.
Grinning to myself, I close the door and turn the alarm on. My thoughts never leave Kane as I crawl into my bed that night and fall asleep.
I was back in the room with the dirty white walls. This time I am alone. The cold hard metal seat I was sitting on was situated in the middle of the room. Looking down I had on a hospital gown, but my stomach was flat. I close my eyes tightly when I feel hot air being breathed on the back of my neck. My dark demon was here again.
He gently lifts my hair and continues to nuzzle his nose deeper into the crook of my neck. “I do so love the innocent ones. They always taste the sweetest.” I feel him lick my neck and then his needle sharp teeth sink into my shoulder blade. They pierce my body and blood starts to run down my arm turning my white gown red. He picks me up and lays me on the floor. I hear him pull his zipper down and feel him push my gown up. The warm blood runs faster down my body. He shifts over me and starts to push into me painfully. I scream as he tears me and he laughs louder as I cry out for help.
I wake again with warm tears running down my face and body. Alone in my torment. As I always am.
Chapter 4
I hit snooze the first time I think my alarm is going off the following morning. It felt like just minutes later it was going off again. Rolling toward the end of the bed I slam my hand harder on the snooze button, but the darn thing won’t turn off. Lifting my head up, I realize then that it was the doorbell. Damn, it was only 6:30 in the morning.
The sun was just coming through my windows. I was in a cami and boxers and had some serious bed head and whoever it was at the door was going to get me just like this. When I went down, I could see JT standing in front of the door looking away. I thought about not answering it, but realize that if Kane came by this morning that could spell disaster. Turning the home alarm off, I open the door.
“What the hell JT,” I ask? He was dressed in his running clothes and looked like he hadn’t slept. He looked me up and down and I crossed my arms over my chest. I was more covered than a bathing suit, but I should have put on a robe.
“Can I come in so we can talk?”
“No, you can’t JT. It is 6:30 in the morning. Did Cal not tell you I need some time?”
He stepped into the doorway in front of me. “I gave you plenty of time. We are working this shit out today. I can’t take any more of this, Jay.”
“Look JT, please don’t do this. I’ve thought about it and we can’t go back. You have to let me go.” I plead and try to push him back, but he grabs me and pushes me backwards into my house. His grip is tight and his face was harsh.
“Fuck that Jay. I am getting some damn answers. I’m not that little boy you threw away two years ago.”