“Miss me,” I ask?
“All night,” he says as he kisses me like a starving man. He tastes like orange juice and I could have kissed him all day. I finally broke away.
“I’m going to be late.” I went to put my legs down and he grabs my legs tighter around him.
“One more for the road,” he whispers. “Get me through the day.” His lips are so soft and I swear his tongue is so smooth. We kiss like it’s our last and we both moan. I finally pull away and this time he lets me go.
“I can’t believe you’re here. I wanted to see you this morning.” My eyes grow wide because I cannot believe I just said that out loud. He grabs both of my hands and looks into my eyes.
“Jay, you can’t say that to me and expect me to let you walk away.”
“Don’t leave then. Let’s go inside and I’ll play hooky for the day. I want to be with you.” I see how much he wants me.
“Jay, there is nothing I want more, but I have to work. My brother would kill me if I didn’t show up. He’s going to be pissed that I’m late. It’s a big job and huge for our business.”
I could tell he was torn about it so I put the tip of my finger to his mouth.
“It’s okay. Really, I just wanted you to know how I felt.”
“God Girl, you’re going to kill me.” He said as he tugged me to him and kissed me once more.
I was late to first period, but well, it was worth it. Once I was seated I looked up and Cal was staring at me. He just smiled at me and leaned closer.
“Wow, there’s the girl I used to know. I haven’t seen you smile like that in years. Whatever it is, keep doing it every morning. Let me know if you need any help making you smile.”
The fool actually wiggled his eyebrows at me. I couldn’t help but laugh out loud at him. The silence was the first thing I realized before I looked around and noticed the whole class staring including Mrs. Davis. Geez, these people need to get a life. Mrs. Davis started talking again to the class and Cal leaned close again.
“I need to talk with you after class,” he said. I nodded and turned toward the board.
I forgot about talking to Cal when he was held up by some of the football players after class. Rhye glared at me all second period like he was pissed, but at least he left me alone. By my third period I realized that something was definitely up and I kept getting the feeling that I was also the center of it. I finally caught up to Cal at the beginning of lunch.
“Do you know what is up with everyone?” Cal hung his head down and before he got his chance to talk, I heard a high pitch scream.
“You Bitch, how dare you he’s mine.” I turn just in time to see Cal grab Stacie and pull her back. “You can’t have him back.” Coach Sanders grabs her from Cal and proceeds to lug her to the front office.
“What the hell Cal? What is she talking about,” I yelled.
His cheeks redden and he said, “Listen, I tried to tell you this morning. JT broke up with Stacie last night and told her it was because you two were getting back together. Everyone was hanging out last night and of course it was a super public break up. So pretty much JT told the whole school you both were back together. Then you come in smiling this morning and well, you can guess what everyone thought.”
Speak of the devil, at that moment he walks into the cafeteria. Marching straight up to JT, I said harshly, “We need to talk,” and turn around hoping he follows me. I didn’t want to have this conversation anywhere near school so I walk to my car and unlock both doors and sit down on the driver’s side. JT sits down on the passenger side.
“What the hell JT?”
He turns toward me holding both his hands up, “Just listen to me for a second, okay? I deserve for you to hear me out. When I talked to you the other day, I could see in your eyes that you still loved me. I don’t care what happened in the past, I just know that I need you in my future. The past two years have been the most miserable years of my existence. You left me and God Jay I was broken. I thought I could drink the pain away and I tried to replace you. I loved that everyone else started to hate you too. Lately I’m starting to realize that this whole time, I haven’t been moving on, but been waiting for you to come back to me. I know now I can’t live without you.” His voice breaks and tears roll down his face.
Hearing his words killed me. I have loved this boy for most of my life. Pulling JT into a hug, I let us both cry for what was and what I knew could never be again.
Lifting my head I say, “JT, I’m not that same girl you once loved.” He tries to interrupt me, but I continue, “I heard you out so now it’s my turn. I’ll always love you, but right now I can’t be with you.”