“Tell me you still love me,” I whispered, taking a hell of a risk.
But I didn’t know what else to say. Damn, I wanted her to say yes to me. But she shook her head. “Please, Mason. I can’t do this. I can’t.”
“Allura…”
I tried to not let her go, but she pushed away from me. I heard and felt her starting to get upset again. The last thing I want to do is hurt her again. So I had to put away my selfishness and let her go.
“Look at me?” I asked her, but she didn’t.
She shook her head and mouthed, “I can’t,” and walked back toward the hotel. I watched her walk away, and it was that moment that I knew that I never wanted to see her walk away from me again.
Damn it, I shouldn’t have kissed her. I wasn’t sure what came over me. For the life of me, I couldn’t control it even if I did know. Just seeing the tears in her eyes made me feel like shit. All I wanted to do was make her pain go away. I ran my hands through my hair in frustration. I still taste her on my lips…on my tongue. Her scent is all through me.
I shook my head. She felt so good. Fuck it. I need to feel her again. I have to know if what I felt from her was real. I turned and headed back to find her. I didn’t think about finding out that she wasn’t alone. I didn’t care about anything but finding her. When I got to her room, I knocked quickly. When she opened the door, I simply walked inside and closed the door behind me.
At the same time, I found her wrapped around me with her lips on mine and her tongue in my mouth. I locked the door, as she pushed my jacket from my shoulders. I wrapped my arms around her.
“You feel so fucking good,” I told her as I kissed her neck and chest, trying desperately to get to the rest of her.
I pushed her up against the wall, and my fingers found her inner-most sweetness that I’ve been missing.
“Baby, you’re so wet.”
I moved in and out of her, as she deepened our kiss and grabbed my hair tighter. I needed to taste her, so I pulled my fingers out of her and put them in my mouth. And wouldn’t you know, she moaned. I mean, she fucking moaned when I tasted her. I was hard as a rock, as she climbed down from me and went for my pants. I pulled off her shirt and found her braless, which fueled my need even more. She pulled off my shirt, and I picked her up so her legs could go around my waist again. I ripped the thin fabric in the middle of her shorts, and plunged into her.
She gripped me tightly around the waist and on my dick.
“Fuck me, baby,” I whispered in her ear.
I pulled her back and looked in her eyes. I wanted to take my time and enjoy this. I missed her so much, and it was at that moment that I knew I would do anything I could to fix what I had broken. When I started to move, she moaned in my ear, and I swear, I almost came right then. I had to keep telling myself to relax and enjoy the pussy that I’ve been dreaming about for so long now.
I moved her to the counter, against the refrigerator. Then we graduated to the bed. I didn’t stop moving in and out of her slowly, methodically, until I brought her to her climax, and she called my name. I looked into her eyes as she came undone underneath me, and I told her how sorry I was. I said it over and over again, as I felt my own release coming. I touched her face and placed my hands on top of her head to deepen my penetration. She moved with me and finally, when I asked if she forgave me, she said yes.
We reached climax together, and I just watched her. I touched her face and kissed her lips. It was that moment I realized I came inside her with no protection. Damn, no wonder she felt so good and I wanted to come the moment I entered her. I pulled out slowly, and she closed her eyes. I pulled her up and carried her into the shower. I turned on the hot water and cooled it slightly, just the way she likes it. I kissed her again. When I pulled back from her, I could see the question and remorse in her eyes. But I wouldn’t let her over think this.
I said to her, meaning every word, “This isn’t over.”
She looked away from me, and I pulled her face back to me where our eyes were locked. I leaned in closer to her.
“This isn’t over, angel. Not by a long shot.”
I heard my cell ring, and I knew instantly it was my brother calling me. I kissed her again, and then left her in the bathroom. I got dressed quickly and reluctantly left her room. I stood outside her room and gathered myself. I knew I missed her, but how much I never knew until now. I was still in love with that woman. Hell, I never stopped loving her. I have to know that I can do this without hurting her. I know I want her, but will she have me?
There was so much I needed to do. Before I told her how much I couldn’t live without her, I had to make sure she was safe. Then and only then, can I go to her and hope she would forgive me and take me back. I needed her, and I will do everything I can to make sure she knows that.