Ruckus (Sinners of Saint #2)(113)

"I was drunk ninety percent of the time. A high-functioning drunk, mind you, but I don't recall a day between the ages of twenty-two to twenty-eight when I wasn't tanked-up. Even at work, when I couldn't risk smelling of whiskey, I would get into the bathroom and drink Listerine before important meetings. I was far worse than you, Dean. Far worse."

"Well, you're good now," I muttered. Mature as a fucking toddler. Was I a class act or what?

Dad took the trash can-threw it through the motherfucking window like a rock star-then went ahead and took another one from the bathroom, filling it with more bottles and cans of alcohol. 

"I'm well, because I had a wake-up call, Dean. You know when?"

"Enlighten me, Master." I talked back just for the sake of talking back, and it wasn't funny or adorable on a fucking thirty-year-old. Dad must've shared the sentiment, because he shook his head and continued.

"It happened when one time I came home late from work, crawled into my bed drunk and disorientated, and made love to my wife. Because when I woke up the next day, I remembered that Helen was not even supposed to be in Birmingham. She went to visit her mother in Fairhope. So I looked to my right and saw her sister. I looked to the woman sleeping beside me, and I knew I'd fucked up my whole life, as you like to call it."

That made me sit up straight.

"She tricked you?"

"Well, I think we both know that Nina wasn't the type of woman to allure me." Dad looked incredulous. Guess not. Nina was the exact opposite of Helen, my mom. She wore skimpy clothes, chain-smoked, and flirted with everyone and their cat. My mother was country-clubbish and yuppie, her hair always looked like she just walked out of a woman's magazine, and she was reserved and polite, but never overly friendly to men.

"But, Mom." I held my head and shook it in disbelief. My mother took bullshit from no one. This was why my sisters and I were well-behaved. She knew how to hammer it home, all right, when she wanted to. "She told me she wanted to divorce you. How the hell did you pull it off?"

Dad bobbed his head, throwing the second trash can full of drinks through the window as well, before turning his head to face me. "Baron is picking up everything I'm throwing out, and so you don't have access to it, I will be taking your wallet and making sure your fridge is filled with food. You're detoxing starting today, Dean."

Vicious is here? What the fuck? I really did hit rock bottom this time.

"About your mother-no, she did not forgive me. Not at first, anyway. When I saw Nina in my bed and she told me what happened, I was mortified. I kicked her out and called Helen. She cut her trip short and got back home. I came clean immediately. She packed me a bag and threw me out."

Despite my best intentions, a smirk formed on my face. "Good for Mom."

I was the bastard child who was rooting for the cheated woman.

"She made me pay, that's for sure. I slept in my office for those nine months. Helen sent me so many half-filled divorce forms my mailbox got clogged. Nina ran away. I tried to find her but couldn't. She went under the radar, and it was a different time. Easier to disappear. No Internet and things like that." Dad tucked his hands into his pockets and looked out the window, his brows wrinkling. "Your mother filed for divorce two months before you were born. It wasn't even about the cheating." He laughed bitterly. "Because trust me, I had no clue what I was doing when I slept with Nina. Don't remember one second of it, thank God. She was just tired of my problem, and my lack of motivation to fix it. She deserved better, and she knew it."

"Then what happened? Why did she change her mind?" I was still sitting at the table. Things becoming clearer somehow. The story started to make sense. Not a lot, and not completely, but I didn't feel quite as lost as I had been feeling the past few years about the whole Nina ordeal.

"You happened." He turned around and smiled at me like I was Sirius, which couldn't have been right, because Rosie was Sirius. But every person has their own Sirius in their life, I suppose. The one that shines brighter than the rest. "You were born, Dean. We found out about you through the news. "The Walmart Baby." Your mother knew instantly that it was Nina. Wasn't hard to figure it out. She called me, and we drove together to the hospital where they had taken you. Your mother wanted you so bad, she was willing to give me a second chance. Said you deserved it all, even though the woman who brought you into this world didn't."