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Mac shook Gray’s hand as they finalized the sale of all the Archers’ sheep (save two) while Rowan and Seth carefully laid down the loading ramp and erected temporary fencing from the barn door to the chute that would load the ewes and their lambs. Mac was stoic, handling it better than Seth might have. After the sheep were loaded and ready for the long haul to Cody, Seth watched Rowan slide the barn door shut with a stinging finality that he could see cut her to the bone.

She disappeared around the side of the barn, and Seth followed her, sweeping her into his arms and holding her tightly. He felt her shake a little against him and knew she was crying. He smoothed back her hair with one hand and leaned down to her ear. “I’m still here,” he whispered. “And you’re still here. And our mountains are right there.” He gestured to them with one arm.

Stretching out before them was a field of lavender, having bloomed while they were both probably too damn busy with shearing and lambing to really notice it. Beyond that lush sea of purple and silver, the snow-capped peaks towered in the distance, cutting into the sky, demanding to take their place in this world and crown it.

“This isn’t the end, Rowan. I promise.”

But it felt like it was.





Chapter Thirty-Eight




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Rowan clutched at Seth and held onto him like he was the only thing she had left in this world. She’d already lost her flock, had almost lost her father. Seth held onto her tightly in return, as if to prove he wasn’t going anywhere. Despite her anger and hurt feelings, she didn’t want to let go.

“It’s not over,” he repeated. “We’re just making a new beginning. You and me.”

God, she wanted a new beginning, but she wasn’t certain she could make the leap, try again. Indeed, instead of moving toward him, she started to take a step back, out of his arms.

But Seth wouldn’t let her go, not without a fight, just like that kiss minutes ago that had left her breathless. Everything she’d ever wanted for herself had been in that kiss…and everything she had to lose.

Rowan shook her head. “Seth, I can’t—”

“You can,” he argued.

She pushed him away, though, because if she lost one more thing, especially the thing she wanted most, she would die. “It’s too much,” she argued while twisting out of his embrace.

He finally let her go and she stumbled away, to safety, to solitude.

“This isn’t over, Rowan,” he called after her.

*

It was just an hour after sunrise a few days later when Rowan heard Willow call out, “Uncle Seth!” from somewhere on the other side of the barn, which was odd because Rowan hadn’t heard a truck pull into the driveway. She finished filling the feed bin for Cloud and his mother as Mac finished tossing a few flakes of hay into the small pen.

Outside, she discovered that Willow was right, Seth had appeared. He just hadn’t come by truck. He crossed the field next to the house riding his horse and leading the mare Rowan had ridden with him before.

Rowan had to snatch Willow’s sleeve to keep her from climbing the fence.

“Can we go for a ride?!” the little girl shouted, nearly breathless from excitement.

Seth smiled. “Well, this is work, sweetheart. There’s a problem with the fenceline and I was hoping your mom could come give me a hand with fixing it. We’ll take you along next time.”

Willow’s lower lip jutted. “Awww.”

“How about when we get back, you and I go?” he offered.

“Promise?”

“Sure thing.” He tapped his saddle horn. “You can ride with me. And Choctaw’ll take us anywhere you want to go.”

“All the way to the mountains?”

He laughed. “Well, that’s pretty far, and we’d need to be back long before dark. But I’ll take you closer. I know where there’s a bend in the river, with the prettiest view you’ve ever seen. We’ll all go at some point. But right now, your mama and I have some things to take care of, okay?”

“Okay,” Willow replied slightly grudgingly, but the promise of a long ride seemed to placate her a little.

Excited to ride again, even if it was just to fix the fence line, Rowan took the reins from Seth and swung herself up into the saddle. The mare snorted and pawed at the packed earth, ready to run. Rowan reached out and patted her neck, already feeling a connection with the animal.

Mac pulled Willow to him to keep her a safe distance from the horses and Rowan saw the two men nod to each other meaningfully.

Rowan’s brow furrowed, and she was about to ask where they were going, which portion of the fence was down, when Seth suddenly turned Choctaw and sped off with no more than a joyous whoop.

Rowan’s mare itched to follow, as did Rowan herself, but she held tightly onto the reins, keeping her mount steady as she looked at her father. “What’s—”

But Dad just nodded at Seth’s retreating form. “Better catch up.” He waved and Willow mimicked him. With nothing left to say on the matter, Rowan turned the mare and didn’t even have to give her a squeeze. Letting go of the reins was all it took to send the mare speeding off after their boys.

It was as exhilarating as she remembered, and they caught them quickly, pulling up alongside and settling into a comfortable lope. Rowan had no idea where they were headed, but she didn’t care. Yellow arrowleaf flowers and silvery lavender were just starting to bloom, and the Tetons were white-capped blue behemoths standing strong against a clear sky.

She could see the Barlows’ herd, way off in the distance, standing together, but they raced away from the cattle, toward the river. Seth veered away from it, though, too, gradually snaking their way toward the only tree that stood in this section of the Archer grazing lands.

A few yards away, he slowed Choctaw to a walk, then a halt. The large paint horse huffed a bit, but he was used to these kinds of workouts. Rowan’s mare apparently was, too, because she only seemed irritated that they’d stopped so soon.

Seth held out his hand to a puzzled Rowan. When she didn’t respond, he nodded to the tree. “Go look,” he told her.

She hesitated, not seeing anything wrong with the barbed wire strung out before them, but passed him the mare’s reins and slipped out of the saddle.

“The tree,” he told her.

Leaving them behind, Rowan made her way closer to the cottonwood. As it came more sharply into view, the long-familiar sight of the trunk and its letters, which marked the passage of time in terms of love and family, hearts and heartache, had…changed.

All her family members’ initials were there, but below them her own initials were scratched out now, like Court’s beside them, leaving a marred spot where Rowan’s past had stood plainly for the world to see. Farther down, though, were fresh marks—light tan, almost white where the bark had been recently stripped away. New letters had been carved there. She reached out and rubbed them with her fingers.

RA+SB

Rowan stared at the timeline of her life that had now, after so much time, jumped forward, that had a future. No longer was she RA, etched alone in the trunk of an isolated tree in the Wyoming wilderness. There was someone beside her.

A whole new man, a whole new start, a whole new life. If she was brave enough to take it.

Seth Barlow had carved himself into her life.

She heard his footsteps as he came up beside her. “There’s no scratching me out,” he told her. “Because I’m not leaving. And if you can forgive me, just this once Rowan, I will be here, by your side, forever. I can’t promise I won’t make any more mistakes, but I can promise I’ll never leave again. My fate’s tied to yours now, through the land and my love for you. I will never leave you again. Please. Please take me at my word. I don’t have anything. I’ve got no money, nothing at all, nothing but my own two hands, but I swear to you I’ll never let go again.”

“My family tree,” she said.

“This is my family, too, Rowan,” he whispered in her ear. “You. And Willow.” His hands slid across her belly, and he splayed his fingers there. “And our baby. Someday.”

Rowan’s heart skipped a beat. “Our baby?”

Seth stepped around her, standing now between Rowan and her family tree, bent to one knee, and opened his hand to reveal a small silver band, capped by a diamond resting in his large palm.

Rowan’s hand flew to her mouth.

“I’ve talked to your Dad, and he’s given me permission to ask.” Seth grinned at her with a twinkle in his eyes. “A good thing, too, because I think we both knew that if he refused, I’d throw a reata around you and steal you away to a cabin in the woods until you had my baby in you.”

Rowan flushed with excitement at the heady image. Seth brought her back down to Earth with one simple question.

“Will you marry me, Rowan Archer?”

Rowan couldn’t answer, in spite of how badly she wanted to. She’d given up all hope that a day like this would ever come, and now that it was here, her knees were buckling, her heart was racing, and tears pooled in her eyes then fell down her cheeks. It felt so real, so solid, so permanent, not just words whispered in the dark. There was a rock, a tree, and a man on his knee in front of her.