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“Why not?”
“Because the only thing I’ve ever wanted, or ever had up my ass, is your cock, Ed. It was you or nothin’.”
Edgard couldn’t stop from reaching for him. Touching those strong arms and that vulnerable face. “Next time I wanna look in your eyes while I’m fucking you.”
“Or when it’s my turn to fuck you.”
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A heated pause filled the air. Edgard nodded. “Right now I believe hands and knees will be best for everyone.”
Chassie lifted halfway and reclined on her elbows. “Do you want me just to watch this time?”
“No,” Edgard and Trevor said simultaneously.
“Good. Although, I’m probably gonna wish we were in front of a mirror so I can see the looks on both your faces as you’re together again.” Another one of those mysterious expressions crossed her pretty face before her gaze skittered away.
Trevor was highly intuitive when it came to his wife, because he immediately crawled across the bed until he hung over Chassie’s prone body. “Baby? What’s goin’
on? Tell me. No more secrets, remember?”
“Will you still want to be with me? After you’re with Edgard? After he gives you what you really want?”
“Hey now. I’ve had what I wanted the minute you agreed to become my wife.”
Edgard tried not to intrude. He didn’t want to be hurt by Trevor’s declaration, even when it was the truth, but it sliced clear to the bone.
“This is all so confusing,” Chassie whispered. “I love you, Trevor. I don’t wanna lose you. I’ll do anything to make you happy. Anything. I can’t expect you not to feel something for him when you so obviously do. And I don’t think what I’m feelin’ is jealousy at seein’ you with him.”
“Then what is it?”
“Just plain old fear I’ll come up lacking again when he and I are compared.”
Damn. Damn. Damn. “We’ll stop. I’ll go,” Edgard said softly. “This isn’t working for you, Chassie, and I won’t hurt you again. Not ever. Not for anything. Not even for a shot at”—the only man I’ve loved—“being with Trevor.”
Chassie shook her head and grabbed Edgard’s hand. “See? This isn’t what I wanted either. I won’t cast you out like some soap opera diva, even though I’m feelin’ like one, laying here dissecting this situation when I should just go with it.”
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He studied Chassie, flat-out amazed by her. By her generosity, by her caring and concern not for herself, but for Trevor. For him. For what they’d lost.
Trevor hadn’t moved. He hadn’t taken his eyes off his wife. “Ed is right. We can stop.”
“No!” She squeezed Edgard’s hand. “I won’t do that to any of us. God, I’m thrilled you’re wantin’ me to be a part of it and not sneakin’ off to the barn when I’ve got my back turned.”
“Chassie, darlin’, we’d never do that.”
“Don’t you think I know that? Don’t you think I know how damn… noble you both are? Don’t you think that makes me feel like shit for stopping this before you even get started? When I know it’s killin’ both of you?”
Edgard attempted a different approach. “While noble is hardly the word I’d use to describe anything happening in a barn…I will ask if you were having fun with both of us before, when we were both touching you?”
“Well, yeah.”
“So don’t think beyond that right now.” Edgard brushed his mouth across her knuckles. “That’s what I do. Live in the moment.”
“Does that work?”
“Ask me after I’ve gotten what I’ve been dreaming of for the last three and a half years. Ask me when I walk down that hallway and go to bed alone and he’s in your arms all night.”
Another weighty pause hung; no one budged, no one seemed to breathe.
Chassie’s lips curled into a watery smile as she touched Edgard’s face. “Sounds like we oughta be pissed off at Trevor for makin’ both of us love him. The jerk is gettin’ the best of both worlds.”
“He is a bit of a bastard,” Edgard said with mock sternness.
“Hey, I can’t help that I’m such a damn loveable bastard.” Trevor kissed Chassie’s forehead and rubbed his cheek against Edgard’s. “I have an idea. If you still wanna do this.”
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Edgard made himself nod rather than shout out, Fuck yeah we’re still doing this.