Risking Fate(37)

“I feel better, like we can really get away with this plan and never have to deal with this shit again. I just want to take care of my family.” He put his hand over his face. “I hate feeling this way. It hurts so much.”

“I know, Babe.”

He reached around and cupped one of my ass cheeks in his hands, pulling my body up and causing my face to be even with his. “Please kiss me.”

I kissed him passionately, letting my love for him guide me. After a good few minutes he broke our kiss and hugged me against his body. “Ty, are you okay?”

“Please just don’t ever doubt me. I’d never want to hurt you.”

His words were so weird to me. Ty was usually so sure of himself, especially after sex. In fact, some nights I could have taped his mouth shut, I got so sick of hearing it. “Babe, are you sure there is nothin’ else botherin’ you? You seem off.”

I set back and watched him slide off the bed and walk into our bathroom. It confused me how for the first time I felt like he didn’t want to talk to me. He’d always been so open and as much as I wanted to be angry, I felt hurt about it, like he didn’t trust me.

The shower turned on and I could hear him opening the cap to the shampoo. I walked into the bathroom and climbed in the shower behind him. My lips placed kisses over his back as I hugged him close to me. He reached his hands up to his chest and held both of my hands there while he leaned against the wall, letting the water fall down the both of us.

Ty usually held his emotions on his sleeve, so for him to not want to talk was making me worry. His silence left me uneasy. “Ty, please talk to me. You’re scaring me.”

He turned around slowly and I watched the water, hitting his head and trickling down his face. His wet lips opened to say something, but he closed his eyes and pressed them to my head instead. When he finally let go, he grabbed the shampoo and started washing my hair. His fingers massaged my scalp and I started to relax from the way he always tried to nurture me.

“Everything’s going to be fine, Baby. I promise.”

He put my head under the flow of the water and rinsed the soap away. I opened my eyes and saw him looking down at me. He was staring through me. “Make love to me.”

His lips found mine and I got ready for him to take me to our room and emotionally fill the void I was feeling, but instead he pulled away and grabbed me a towel. He wrapped me up and helped me step out of the shower. “I need to get some sleep. Rain check?”

I wanted to chalk this up to my pregnant hormones, because I have no other reason why tears started running down my cheeks. I loved rough sex, especially with Ty, but earlier we weren’t connected and I didn’t like it. Something was missing. Something was off.

I had a terrible time sleeping, and when I heard my brother coming in, I met him in the living room. “Hey.”

He sat his keys down on the table and gave me a funny look. “You alright?”

I shrugged my shoulder and hugged a pillow on the couch. Conner sat down next to me and seemed genuinely concerned. I could tell from his face that he had been drinking. “Are you drunk?”

He smiled. “Maybe a little. Your mother in law makes some good bourbon slushes.”

I traced the baseball on Ty’s pajama pants I was wearing. “How was the date?”

Conner sat back and ran his hand through his hair. “She’s alright. Nothin’ to write home about. Seems like she’s a little needy.”

“Well you stayed over there for a while.”

“She left around nine. I was watchin’ a huntin’ video.” I am sure my mother in law loved that.

“Thanks for goin’.”

He placed his hand on my leg and looked directly at me. “Randa, tell me what’s wrong.”

I turned so that I was facing him more. “I don’t know. Ty’s just been actin’ weird. Maybe it’s just me overreacting.”

“You need to keep in mind that right now he is scared of losin’ his bond to that little girl. He loves you. As much as I wished he didn’t years ago, I know that it’s true.”

I leaned over and kissed my brother on the cheek before he stood up and headed in the direction of his room. I wanted Conner to be right about Ty.

After getting myself all upset, I climbed back into bed. Ty was lightly snoring and I cuddled my body up against him. One of his hands reached down and connected with me. Our fingers became entangled and I fell fast asleep.

Our morning routine was always hectic and I had little time to even say a single word before I climbed in the car with Ty and Bella. He dropped me off first like every morning and then took Bella to get her juice and donut before school. I got my normal goodbye kiss and a smile before climbing out of the car.