Reunited for the Billionaire's Legacy(37)
Dara froze. ‘Leo, I didn’t mean that you wouldn’t make a great father. Of course you would. You’re easy-going and kind. You’re reliable and intelligent. You would be amazing.’ She shook her head. ‘But you’re married to me.’
‘Dara, if it wasn’t for you I would still be going through life without a true purpose. Falling in love with you made me realize what is truly important in life. Three years ago if you had told me that I would want to spend the rest of my life living in this castle I would have laughed you out of the room.’ He turned to her, taking both of her hands in his. ‘But here I am. And this is the only place I want to be.’
‘I can’t be somebody’s mother. I just can’t.’
‘Dara, did you ever stop and think that maybe it’s okay not to be the perfect mother? Sometimes it’s okay just to try your best. I mean, you’re telling me that you’re a workaholic, and yet the matron told me that you’ve been visiting the orphanage three times a week. That’s a two-hour round trip, alone, while simultaneously running your own business, yes?’
Dara shrugged. ‘I made the time.’
‘Exactly. Because you care about this boy.’ Leo stepped forward, grasping her hands in his. ‘Dara, I went to that orphanage today because I wanted to understand you. So that I could make you happy.’ He paused for a moment. ‘I honestly had no idea of the effect it would have on me. I suppose that somewhere in the back of my mind I’ve always worried that being raised by parents like mine meant that I could never be a good parent myself.’
‘You would make a wonderful father, Leo,’ Dara said softly.
‘I’m not so sure about wonderful. But after today I know I would like the opportunity to try.’
Dara looked up into her husband’s eyes and saw the emotion there. ‘Are you saying that you want us to start a family together?’
‘We’ve been a family from the moment you agreed to spend the rest of your life as my wife. I want to take this next step with you—to start a new adventure.’
Dara closed her eyes, letting the air finally whoosh into her lungs. The fear of even daring to want this had stopped her from acknowledging her true feelings about Luca. Hearing Leo say these things... Hearing him shine a proverbial light on her deepest yearnings...
She looked up at her husband once more and saw that he was watching her quietly.
‘I want to be Luca’s mother.’
The words came out rushed and tumbled over each other on their way. But once she had said them out loud it was as though she truly understood herself for the first time. Her hands started to shake—a quake that continued up her arms and down into her abdomen.
Leo put his arms around her but she gently removed them, needing to pace for a moment with this newfound sense of terror coursing through her. It was one thing to be afraid of wanting something that she knew could never happen. But to admit that she wanted it...? To open herself to rejection and heartbreak...?
To Leo this was a new feeling—the idea of becoming a parent. But for Dara this was a sensation that had haunted her for years, a thought that had consumed her at times. She had fought back against the feelings of hopelessness by cutting the thought out of her life altogether and deciding that she no longer wanted to become a mother.
Now she knew the truth. She had never stopped wanting it. She had just been waiting for this moment.
‘I can’t believe this is happening...’ Dara breathed, her thoughts swimming with the enormity of what they were discussing.
‘It’s only happening if you want it to.’ Leo stood in front of her. ‘I meant what I said on that beach three years ago. You will always be enough for me, Dara. You are more than I deserve.’
Dara felt the fear melt away as Leo’s arms enveloped her, and all her worries seemed smaller all of a sudden. She breathed in the familiar scent of his aftershave and told herself that she needed to commit this perfect moment to memory.
‘I want to start a family with you.’ She pulled back to look into her husband’s eyes. ‘I want us to become Luca’s parents. If he’ll have us, that is.’
‘Hearing him speak about you today, I have no doubt that he thinks just as much of you as you do of him,’ Leo assured her.
‘I hope so.’ Dara bit her lip. ‘Leo, once we take this step there is no going back. There will be no more impromptu trips to Paris—no more yachting for weeks along the Riviera. We’ll have to consider school term times. It won’t be just you and I.’
‘I’m quite aware that children are a lot of responsibility.’
‘I just want to make sure that you’re certain this is what you want. That we aren’t going into this with our eyes closed.’
‘Dara, stop worrying and let yourself enjoy this. I have complete faith that you will plan every little detail perfectly. Just leave all the fun stuff to me.’ He laughed.
Dara smiled. He was right—she was a ball of nerves. She took a deep breath, feeling a sense of excited anticipation hum through her veins.
‘I will start proceedings in the morning.’ Leo smiled. ‘We can go to the orphanage ourselves.’
‘I can hardly believe that this is happening.’ Dara shook her head. ‘Never in my wildest dreams...’
Leo pressed his lips tenderly to hers, his hands spanning her waist and pulling her to him in a tight embrace. ‘I was afraid to share you with anyone else, but now I find myself wanting to show you off to the world. You amaze me with all you’ve overcome.’
‘You’re the one who helped me to overcome it.’
Their kiss turned from soft to heated, and the wind whipped around them as the sun dipped slowly towards the sea.
The next morning Dara arrived at the orphanage bright and early, with her husband by her side. They entered the common room just as the children had finished breakfast. No sooner had they stepped into the room than a tiny head of jet-black curls came barrelling towards them.
‘Do you know the yo-yo man?’
Luca’s eyes widened as he looked from Dara to Leo. Dara imagined her husband must look like a giant from the small boy’s height, and yet he wasn’t frightened.
‘Luca, this is my husband Leo. He came here to meet you.’
The other children had filtered into the room, all their attention on the man with the yo-yo. Leo continued to delight the children with more tricks and Luca sat resolutely by his side, telling all the other children that ‘the yo-yo man’ had come to meet him.
Before they knew it, the children were called to have lunch. As much as Dara wanted to stay there all day, she knew that now it was time for the official part of their visit.
As the lunch bell rang Luca’s eyes turned wide and he ran to her. He looked up at her with that uncertain expression she had come to recognise so well after more than three months of visits.
‘I promise that I will come back,’ she said solemnly.
Luca was a child of abandonment, so he regularly made her promise that she was coming back in their same special way. Dara held out her pinkie finger, letting him lock it with his own tiny one.
She felt a hand at her waist. Leo stood by her side, watching the exchange with interest. ‘Is this some secret handshake I don’t know about?’ he joked.
‘I can teach it to you too,’ Luca said quietly.
As Dara watched, her husband got down on his knees and promised the young boy that he would return. She felt a swell of love for this man who had helped her to overcome so much.
Leo straightened, and they waved as the boys ran in single file towards the lunchroom. Luca was the smallest of the lot.
‘It was so good of you both to visit us today.’ The friendly matron smiled as she welcomed them into her office. ‘I couldn’t help but notice your interest in little Luca,’ she said speculatively.
Dara turned to the woman, meeting her gaze. ‘My visits here haven’t been as selfless as I’ve made them out to be.’
‘You are a very kind woman, Dara. I don’t believe that you came here out of your own interests.’
‘Maybe not at first, but it has definitely become that way.’
‘I have watched your progress with Luca intently. You know his history. He came to us a very scared and lonely boy. Since your visits he has changed. He talks more with the other children...he is more confident. Your attention did that for him.’ She smiled again.
Leo stepped forward, taking Dara’s trembling hand in his own. ‘My wife and I would like to start proceedings to adopt Luca.’ He felt the enormity of the words as he spoke them.
The other woman’s eyes lit up with emotion and joy. ‘Oh, after yesterday and today I confess that I had started to hope. But our hopes get dashed here far too often.’
‘Our intentions are genuine. We would like to become Luca’s parents,’ Dara said. ‘We know that the process is long, but we believe he will be happy with us. That we can give him a good home.’
Tears filled the old matron’s eyes as she took one of Dara’s hands in her own. ‘You have no idea how long I’ve been waiting for you to realise that, Signora Valente.’
Dara stood by the fireplace, straightening the stockings and biting her lip. Was she jumping the gun by adding one smaller stocking beside their own two? She worried at her bottom lip for a moment, before making a final sweep of the living room. Piles of gifts lay stacked under the tree, ready to be torn open by eager little hands. She had wrapped each box painstakingly in bright paper with intricate bows. She wanted to make today as special as it could possibly be.