She could feel his hardness inside her. She did not like it. It reminded her of Niles. She wanted him out. Alex was big and hard and as soon as he moved, he probably would hurt her as Niles had done. She tried to slow her breathing, tried to stop her feeling of panic. Only five minutes and she could remove herself, and he promised not to touch her again tonight.
She reminded herself that it was Alex, her husband, not Niles. It was a man she loved, a man she trusted. He did as he promised, not forcing himself on her. What if she moved away? With a strange ache, she did not want him to completely stop touching her. She liked to be in his arms, just not this way.
She turned her head to the other side and sighed deeply. I need to focus on something else. She tried to change her thoughts. She twirled her pearls slowly with her thumb and forefinger. She decided to focus on her mother’s pearls. As she rotated them, they grew warm against her body. She closed her eyes for just a moment and thought of her mother. What would her mother tell her to do? She glanced across the room and caught a shadow. Mother?
Her vision blurred from her tears, but the woman appeared to be her mother. Was she dreaming? Her pearls were still warm. Mother, what do I do? She thought hard as she stared at the vision of her mother. Her mother smiled at her. Help me, Mama, she thought as she reached for her in her mind.
“We have, child. Your father and I sent this man to you. Now, you have to help yourself.”
“But I cannot do this, Mother. I just cannot,”
“Do you love him, Maddie?”
“Aye, I do, with all my heart.”
“Ah, child, but to truly love a man, you have to love him not just with your heart, but with your body as well.”
“I cannot, Mama.”
“Aye, you can.”
Her mother started to fade. “Wait, Mother!”
“Maddie, he loves you. Love him back, and trust him. You will not regret it. Your father and I are anxious to see your bairns. We will always be near.”
“Mama?” Her mother was gone.
Alex was still inside her and suddenly, she realized something, there was no pain.
She lifted her head and gazed at her husband.
“Alex?”
“What, love.” He brushed a tear from her cheek.
“It does not hurt. Oh, my goodness, it does not hurt anymore!”
“I know it, Maddie, I am shrinking.” Alex rolled his eyes in frustration.
She wiggled her bottom and he grew hard again. She pulled herself across the length of him and then thrust him back inside. Alex groaned. She did it again. Alex groaned again.
“Maddie, you are killing me. If you do that again, we will finish this, I promise!” He stared at his wife.
“Oh, Alex, I am so happy! It does not hurt! What do you want me to do?” She kept moving up and down, slowly picking up her rhythm.
“Lass, are you sure you are all right?”
“Aye, Alex, this is starting to feel nice!” Maddie’s face beamed.
Alex groaned again. “Can I roll you over, lass? I am about to explode.”
She nodded and Alex rolled her. He moved slowly at first to make sure she could handle him, but then instinct took over and he thrusted hard until he was in agony. He searched his wife’s eyes, trying to gauge if she was enjoying it. She wasn’t breathing hard, but then again she was not screaming in fear either. He kissed her roughly because he didn’t know if he could hold out much longer. He was sheathed deep into her wetness and almost lost all control. He forced himself to focus so he could hold out until she found her pleasure. He took her nipple in his mouth again and sucked hard. She gasped and arched toward him. He drove into her again and again. She was so tight, it was sweet torture. Lifting his head, he caught her blue gaze as she whispered, “I love you, Alex!”
That did it. He exploded his seed into her with a loud roar. His wee wife put him over the edge with four words. What was this lass doing to him? He had never had an orgasm like this, never experienced anything close to this.
Of course, he was upset with himself. He had gone ahead of her when he always pleasured a woman first. No lass had ever forced him to lose control. Balanced on his elbows, he tried to level his breathing and stared at her in confusion. She was smiling a glorious smile.
“Oh, Alex, I am so happy. That did not hurt at all!”
“Good, I am glad.” He played with a curl around her face. He still was not capable of thinking clearly, so he nuzzled her neck.
“But, husband, you do not act happy. But I am ecstatically happy. Is something wrong?”
He sighed. “Maddie, I am not happy because you did not find your pleasure. I will not be happy until you find your pleasure.”
“But I did find my pleasure, Alex. It did not hurt me, and I thought you were happy, so I am happy!” she exclaimed.