“Shit, baby. I’m so sorry,” Kidd says as he starts towards me again.
I place my hands out in front of me, letting him know that I don’t want to be touched. “Don't you see, Kidd? I can't let you in. I can't give you my heart again, because I know if I do, you'll end up shattering it. You did last time. If it happens again, I’ll end up just like my mom.”
As soon as the words leave my mouth, Kidd grabs my hands and pulls me flush against his body. “No fucking way, baby. If you give me your heart, lay it right in my hands. I promise I will protect it until the day I die.”
Kidd
Hearing Jenna tell me about her father put together all of the pieces of why she was so against becoming an Old Lady. It’s not just my fuck up that I’m fighting against; it’s her past as well. Still holding her close to my body, I whisper into her hair, “I would never stray, baby. What we have now, we’ll have until the day we die, and it will be fucking amazing. I would never hurt you in that way.”
“I love you,” she whispers out.
My body goes taut, and I pull her even closer to me. “What did you say?” I ask, wanting to hear the words again.
“I love you, Kidd. I do, but I’m scared. You hurt me so bad, and not just with the words you said. It was how you just walked out on me after. That was the first time I had ever willingly given myself to anyone. I may have had my body’s virginity stolen from me, but I gave you the virginity of my heart. I know that doesn’t make sense, but that’s how it felt.”
“It does make sense. That’s why I told you thank you that night. I was thanking you for giving me that part of you. You may not have had that little piece of skin, but you were a virgin all the same.” I place my hand on her cheek. “I’m sorry I walked out on you without telling you how I felt. Just so you know, I felt same way then as I do now. I love you, Jenna. I love you with everything I am.”#p#分页标题#e#
She reaches up and kisses me. When she pulls back, she smiles up at me. “If you love me, and I love you, then why in the hell aren’t you making love to me?”
I smile and pull my shirt over my head. Then my hands go under her shirt and start to pull it off. I reach down and wrap my arms under her ass. Lifting her up, I walk us over to the bed and lay her down. I take my time removing her clothes, getting off on every inch of skin I expose before I take my own clothes off and crawl over her.
I spend time making love to her with my tongue before venturing down her body. I make sure to kiss every inch of her, starting with those gorgeous tits I love so much. I make my way to that sweet pussy of hers, and as soon I get a taste, my balls start to tighten.
When I feel her first release against my tongue, I crawl back up her body. Looking into her eyes, I say, “Baby, no more condoms. I want nothing between you and me anymore.”
She nods yes, and I slide into her. She feels like fuckin’ heaven. I watch her face as she takes me, her love for me shining bright. This is the same face I stared into when I had her on her eighteenth birthday; the same face I fell in love with six years ago. I lean into her, my face tucked into her neck, thrusting hard towards our release. “I love you, baby girl. Love you more than anything in the whole fucking world.”
A few minutes later, we lay quietly beside each other. I have her held tight to my side, and she’s holding onto my hand like there’s no tomorrow. Finally, she breaks the silence. “This isn’t a game, is it?”
“What do you mean?”
“You and me. You’re for real, aren’t you? It isn’t just some game. This time you mean it. I’m really your old lady.”
I lean my forehead against the top of her head. “No, baby girl. This isn’t a game. You’re my old lady, and you will be until the day I die.”
She doesn’t respond, just rolls over and throws her leg on mine. She then burrows her face into my neck. Within minutes, her body goes lax and her breathing evens out. I relax and try to join her in sleep, but my mind keeps wandering back to her words from earlier. I still can’t believe that Brew’s her dad. I remember him asking about her. Shit, he was asking about his own daughter. The bastard denied even knowing her. Well, he won’t be able to deny it much longer. When he gets here, he’s gonna pay for the shit he put her through. Brew’s sorry ass is going to die, and the motherfucker is going to die in pain.