Jenna
Timber brought me to Merwin to show me some of the abandoned coal mines. The moonlight makes the small amount of coal still in the ground shine like diamonds. I walk around picking off the loose pieces of coal while Timber watches. He hasn’t taken his eyes off of me since we got here. I know he wants to talk, and wants me to tell him what happened, but I’m not ready to tell him yet. I’m not sure I’ll ever be ready to tell anyone.
I still can’t believe what happened at the clubhouse. I thought Kidd would need me to be there for him. I sure in the fuck wasn’t expecting whatever the hell that just was. All the things he said to me earlier were lies. We didn’t make love; we fucked. Timmons was right. That’s all I’m good for.
Today was all just a game to Kidd. He didn’t want me for anything other than sex. He’s just like every other guy out there. All he wanted was a piece on the side, and I gave it to him. Well, fuck him. That was the last piece he’ll ever get from me.
I can’t believe I truly thought he wanted me to be his old lady. I swear he could come crawling back to me, and I would never wear his brand. I won’t be his old lady. I won’t be anyone’s old lady. He wants to treat me like a whore. I’ll show him. I’ll be one.
Finally done with my pity party, I walk over to Timber and lay down. We lay there for what seems like hours, side by side, staring at the stars. I place one of the coal pieces up to the sky, showing Timber how it sparkles. “It’s beautiful here.”
“Beautiful,” he agrees in his gravelly voice.
I look over to him and see that he’s staring at me. “You’re not even looking,” I say, motioning towards my rock.
“Why would I look at a chunk of coal, when I have someone as pretty as you lying beside me?”
His words send a blush to my face. I’ve been called pretty, mostly by Chipper and Mindy, but they sure as hell never said it the way he did. I can’t stop myself from looking at him, really looking. His light brown hair lays in waves to his shoulders, and he has a mustache the frames his mouth, ending right at his jaw line. I never thought guys with mustaches were hot, but Timber is definitely hot. I can’t believe I’ve never noticed how handsome he is before. I guess I was so caught up in Kidd that I never really paid attention.
I’ve always liked Timber. He’s a great guy. He knows a little of what I went through at the other club. We’ve never really talked about it, but I can tell by the way he looks at me sometimes. It’s a mixture of sadness and anger. I know without a doubt that he would kill Timmons if I ever told him what he did.
While Kidd was away, I met a lot of the guys at the club. I liked most of them, but Timber and I became true friends. When Kidd wasn’t there for me at Mindy’s funeral, Timber sat by my side. He was there for me the whole time, never letting go of my hand. Why couldn’t I just feel the same for Timber what I feel for Kidd? He’s a great guy. He could be perfect for me.
“Wanna tell me what’s wrong, pretty girl?” Timber asks, bringing my mind back to our conversation.
“Kidd was an asshole.”
“I figured that. What’d he do?”
For some reason, the whole story comes flowing out of me. “I’ve had a crush on him since I first came here. I kept telling myself it would go away, but it never did. Then… Well, you know what happened at Mindy’s funeral.”
He nods, anger flashing through his eyes. “I know what the mother fucker did. He should’ve set that bitch in her place.”
“You shouldn’t talk about a dead person like that.”
“Dead or not, that bitch was a bitch.”
I ignore his words and continue my story. “My birthday was today. I was at the house all alone when he stopped by. He started telling me all this stuff about how I was his old lady. Then, we... Well, we had sex.”
I feel Timber’s body grows taut next to mine. “Kidd claimed you?”
“I thought he did, but then he went off after Sarah. When I saw him at the clubhouse, he said it was my fault that she died,” I whisper out, afraid that he may agree with Kidd.
“What the fuck?” he shouts. “The bitch was driving too fast. Rum saw her. He said she had to be going eighty.”#p#分页标题#e#
“But Kidd says that if we hadn’t been together, it would’ve never happened.”