It’s been a wonderful day. Timber showed up this morning right after breakfast and told me to go get dressed, but refused to tell me what he had planned. An hour later, we pulled into the parking lot at the Kansas City zoo. When I saw the zoo sign, I got so excited that I nearly fell off the bike.
I couldn’t believe he would take me to a zoo. Bikers don’t go to the zoo, do they? A few weeks ago, I told him I’d never been to one. He said everybody should go to the zoo at least once, for no other reason than to see the tigers. I didn’t think much more about our conversation, but obviously, he did.
By the end of the day, I realized he was right. The tigers are bad ass.
As soon as we step inside of the house, the smell of vomit hits my nose. I immediately pull away from him and run towards Chipper and Mindy’s room. She’s laying in the bed, eyes closed but not asleep. “Did you have fun, sweetie?”
I walk to her side and go down to my knees. “You’ve been sick again?”
“I’m sick every day,” she says in a weak voice. #p#分页标题#e#
I reach for her hand and bring it to my face. “You should have called. I would’ve come home.”
She finally opens her eyes and turns her head towards me. “You haven’t been anywhere but school in weeks. When you’re at home, you’re either taking care of me or watching Pebbles. With Pebbles spending the day with her mom, I wanted you to have some fun. I wasn’t going to ruin your day.”
“You could never ruin anything.”
She lets out a shaky laugh. “You won’t say that when you see the mess I made in the bathroom.” A look of shame crosses her face before she whispers out. “I’m sorry, but I just didn’t have the strength to clean it up.”
“I don’t mind. I’ll get it for you.”
She pulls her hand back and rubs it across my cheek before letting it drop back on the bed. “I just hate that you have to do all this for me. I’m the mom. I supposed to be taking care of you.”
“I don’t mind it at all. I’d do anything for you. Don’t you realize how much I love you?”
“I know you do, Jenna. I love you too, sweetie.” With those words, she closes her eyes. Minutes later, she falls asleep. I sit with her, until I know she’s completely asleep, before I make my way to her bathroom and start cleaning.
By the time I’m done cleaning, I’m sweaty and smell like vomit, but I don’t mind. I would do anything for Mindy. I quietly make my way out of her bedroom, and am surprised to see Timber leaning up against the wall. “I thought you went home,” I whisper.
“I couldn’t leave you alone,” he says, pushing off the wall and wrapping his arms around me.
As soon as I feel his touch, I break into tears. He bends down and hooks his arms under my knees, then picks me up and carries me to the couch. Once he’s settled in beside me, I bury my face into his neck and cry myself to sleep.
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I’m staring out the window, wondering why I haven’t called Jenna for the last month. For some reason, I keep avoiding picking up the phone. Our last conversation pissed me the fuck off. She’s spending way too much time with Timber. I can tell they’re getting close, and I don’t like it one fucking bit. Jealousy is an emotion I’m not accustomed to, and it’s one I don’t like at all.
Last time I called her, she was telling me about him taking her swimming at the strip pits in Amoret. The thought of him seeing her in a bathing suit made me fucking furious, yet the sound of her excitement when she was telling me about their time together made me sad. I was glad she was finally getting to have a little fun, but I hated that it was with someone other than me.
Being away from Jenna has been a good thing. I haven’t been thinking been about her every minute of every fucking day. She still crosses my mind more than she should, but I’ve been too busy to dwell on what that means. I’m just hoping my time here breaks whatever hold she has on me.
“Whatcha thinking about, babe?” Sarah says as she walks to me and wraps her arms around my waist.
“Nothing important.” I lower my mouth to hers, trying to wash away my thoughts of Jenna. Sarah’s a good woman; one of the best I’ve ever met. I didn’t think I’d ever find someone like her, especially here. Even as great as she is, she still can’t take away my fantasies of Jenna. I hate what Rig did to her, but here I am thinking along the same line. There’s no fucking way I would ever rape or beat her, but I have to wonder if wanting a seventeen year old in my bed is any better.