"I'm not. He isn't even my boyfriend."
"What is he then?" Hawk's eyebrows lowered, ready to furrow if he found the wrong answer.
I shook my head. How the fuck should I know? This whole night, Gray had been something more than our regular relationship ever even hinted at. "Believe me when I say, I don't know right now."
Hawk relaxed a fraction. "Fine, I can see that, but then who's the person we're getting revenge on?"
I'd done my best to deny that's what this was to them. They were both too damn perceptive.
I waited for the words to get stuck in my throat, but they didn't. Marc's betrayal still burned a hole in my gut, but he himself didn't have that same hold over me anymore. "My ex-fiancé."
"Why is he your ex?"
"He was a cheating pendejo who would never do anything kinky with me, but was definitely doing dirty things with my ex-best friend." I spat the words like the garbage they were.
"Ah." Hawk's face softened, but his grip did not. "Then he deserves everything we're going to do... to you." A glint sparked in his eyes. "And I think your Gray deserves to get a taste of some jealousy to boot."
"He's not even here to watch." He'd done his job, protected me, made sure this encounter was safe. Now all he had to do was wait me out.
Ian finally joined us, pressing his body to my back. His naked body. "He will be. No chance he'll let us have you all to ourselves."
Hawk stroked my chin and neck with the back of his knuckles. "Not having total control is killing the dude about as much as watching us play with you."
"Poor guy is probably jacking off in the bathroom, so he can keep pretending he isn't dying to get inside of you." Ian's words filled my mind with that exact image.
Coño.
"You two are full of it." Even as I said the words, I knew they weren't. Gray and I had been in denial all night. Longer than that even. Funny that two strangers understood us better than we did each other...or ourselves.
"You're the one who is going to be full of it." Ian joked, letting me off the hook.
"Oh ho. I am, huh?" I wiggled my rear end against him, hoping to hit home. I did, if his moan was any indication.
Hawk pressed a kiss to my lips and nipped at me. "Are you ready for this, doll?"
"Yeah. Let's get some revenge and see just how jealous we can make anyone who might see." Like the pictures for Marc or the video...or Gray in real life.
"We'll make ‘em plenty jealous if I have anything to say about it." Ian pushed his arms between my body and Hawk's and lifted my sweater over my head.
Before I was free from my top, Hawk unbuttoned and unzipped my skirt and pulled it down to the floor. I stood before them in my matching bra and panties.
I couldn't see Ian but felt his eyes on me like a heat lamp. Hawk, on the other hand, looked me over from head to toe. There was so much obvious male appreciation in his eyes that if I ever felt self-conscious about my soft and squidgy places, that all disappeared with the wicked smile growing on his face.
Hawk ran his fingers under the strap of my bra. "I love the lingerie, but it has to go."
"Be my guest." I was going to enjoy being undressed by these men.
Hawk nodded at Ian and in an instant my panties were on the floor. Before I could say SuperCallousedFragileMysticHexedByHalitosis, my bra followed it.
It dangled off Hawk's hand. "How do you feel about being tied up?"
I blinked, twice, and swallowed back the excitement that idea held so he wouldn't think I was a total noob. "Sounds fun."
"You are a goddess." Hawk grabbed the cushions off the couch and threw them to the floor. "Lay down on those, head nearest the couch so I have something to tie you to."
I laid down and Ian joined me. He stroked my arms and brought them up over my head, holding both wrists in his hands. "Remember, you're never completely helpless. You're only giving up the control you want to. If we do anything you don't want, all you have to do is say stop. Okay?"
I nodded, my brain already fuzzing out with an overload of arousal.
Hawk knelt beside me. "Say it, doll. We can't do this if you don't communicate."
"I understand. I'll tell you to stop if I need to."
"That's good enough for now. But anytime I ask, you remember to verbalize." Hawk grabbed my bra off the floor, folded the cups together, and unhooked the straps. He knelt behind my head and wrapped them around my wrists, looped around the couch leg and then back, into some sort of slip knot.
I tugged at the straps and they stretched a little, but not enough that I could get away. They weren't so tight that I would lose circulation.
"Next time I'll bring my own rope. I've been practicing a little Shibari. I'd love to see your flushed brown skin wrapped in pretty red rope."
An hour ago, I hadn't even considered a next time. Now, maybe.
I didn't get any time to think on it more. Ian's hands began roaming my body. His lips followed. He nibbled at my neck and whispered in my ear, "Your body is so lush. I can't wait to sink into you."
I was panting already. Now that I'd finally settled my mind and knew what I was after, my body was ready to go. "Yes."
"But we can't forget Hawk."
I turned my head to find Hawk stripping out of his clothes. He was wider than Ian, muscles on muscles. Light skin to Ian's dark, broody depth to Ian's carefree pretense.
I needed both men like the sun and the moon. But I could not live off the rays and glimmer alone. Even as they touched me and worshipped my body, there was heat, but without warmth.
For now, it was enough. Only for now.
Hawk grabbed a strip of condoms from his pants and tossed them onto the floor next to me. He moved some of the cushions aside and slid his body in half underneath me, pressing a leg between my knees. "Open yourself, doll."
He guided my leg, hooking his elbow under my knee so I was open and bare for Ian's perusal.
"You've got a beautiful pussy. First I'm going to taste it and then I'm going to fuck it."
The frank words seeped into my mind, igniting fires. I closed my eyes, overwhelmed by the scene. Two men were pressed against me and I could do nothing short of telling them to stop while they had their way with me.
I was almost everything I'd ever wanted.
"No, don't close your eyes. Look at me." Hawk demanded my attention. It wasn't a request and I was more turned on by that fact. I twisted my head and stared at Hawk. "I want to see those pretty eyes glazed over with lust as Ian makes you come."
Ian met Hawk's challenge with a long lick over my clit and then set up a steady pace of licks and sucks, hitting all the right places. I squirmed, and my eyes fluttered, wanting to revel in the pleasure of it.
"No. Look at me or face a punishment," Hawk rumbled.
I moaned and tugged at my bindings. Ian didn't let up for a second, driving me higher and already close to coming. "Please."
"Please what?"
"I don't know. I need..." I felt bound by more than the ties around my wrists.
Hawk held my gaze while his hands played with my nipple. "You need to let go. You're not in charge of your pleasure, we are. You don't have to do anything but let us take you to places you've never been before."
I wanted to let go, loved the idea of not needing to worry about every reaction, every response. I'd never felt good enough in bed and always worried if what I was doing was right. "I don't know how."
"Because you're thinking too much. Just feel. Feel Ian's tongue sliding over your flesh." Hawk moved my leg so it rested on his knee, then reached around and caressed the bottom side of my breast. "Feel how my touch pushes you higher."
He pinched my nipple, shooting ecstasy straight to my clit.
My eyes closed of their own accord. It all felt so good, so freeing.
Except for the slap to my ass that followed.
"What? Ooch."
"I told you if you didn't keep your eyes on me you'd get a punishment." There was entirely too much glee in his eyes.
The smack to my bottom didn't really hurt. In fact, it added another layer of excitement. The combination of the sting on my backside and the tantalizing tongue in front had me that much closer to coming. I hummed my approval. Would he do it again if I closed my eyes?
Smack.
Yep.
"Don't make me tell you again or you won't like the next punishment near as much as you're enjoying the spanking."
I doubted that. I shouldn't have.
I smiled and closed my eyes, squeezing them tight and waited for Hawk's hand to warm my ass.