Raging Heart On_ Friends to Lovers Romance(56)

"You need a shave," she whispers.

"What, you don't like the ruggedly handsome look?" I ask her, trying to lighten up the mood, because there's this thick undercurrent of emotion between us that could choke me.

"I like," she says, and her lips brush against mine. It's different from our other kisses. This one seems more emotional. It's soft. It's slow. Our lips don't demand; they caress, they taste, and the kiss feels natural and honest.

"What was that for?" I can't help but ask when we break apart.

"I missed you. You were gone when I woke up this morning."

"Turns out sleeping on the floor is rough on an old football player," I joke, starting the vehicle up and heading us out toward the northern end of the ranch.

"Your shoulder was hurting?" she asks, and the question hits me with brute force. I've been running. I'm tired of it.

"It's always hurting, honey. It rarely lets up, especially if I use it much."

"You didn't tell me."

"I didn't want you to worry. I go back to the doctor next week. Hopefully they can figure out what's going on and fix it. They're doing that new cryo-therapy too. I'll get it figured out."

"I'll come with you."

"You don't have to, Kay. I can handle this."

"I know I don't have to. I want to. Unless you don't want me there for some reason?"

"Of course I want you there. I wanted you last time, remember?"

"Yeah. I'm sorry I didn't take off work. I was afraid to because I had just started."

"You didn't want to lose your job, honey. I understood," I tell her, and I'm not lying. I did understand, but it did bother me that she didn't put me first. If the roles were reversed, I would have.

"A lot of good that did me. I really am sorry, White. If I had it to do over, I would."

"I know."

"What about… Rachel?"

I rub the tension in the back of my neck. I knew this conversation had to happen. I've been putting it off. It seems I can't do that any longer.

"Kayla, there's nothing between me and Rachel."

"I get it. I mean I've never been the type to indulge in casual sex, but I mean, it's not like we have a normal relationship and, well, if you—"

I stop the UTV while she's talking and before she can finish, I force her to look at me. I press my thumb up against her lips to stop her because if she finishes that sentence, the only thing she will accomplish is pissing me off.

"If you're going to give me the all-clear to sleep with your sister, you might want to shut your fucking mouth now, Kayla," I growl.

"What? No! God, that'd be gross."

"Then what the hell are you saying?"

"Just that if you find what we're doing here isn't something you want to pursue—"

"Kayla," I warn her.

"I'm serious, White. You didn't want a kid and I'm not sure why you agreed to all of this, but—"

"Shut. The. Fuck. Up."

Her eyes go large, but she doesn't say anything further, which is good—damn good.

"I never slept with Rachel. I saw the doctor and the news wasn't great. I was depressed and needed someplace to sink my sorrows in a bottle. I was drunk off my ass and she was at the bar. It was just one of those weird things that happened."

"Like fate."

"Fuck no. More like a reason to not drink and be an asshole. Shit, honey, I'm not even sure how I ended up crashing at her place. The night is a blur, but I can tell you that we absolutely did not sleep together."

"You don't have to say that, White. I mean—"

"Kayla, sweetheart, listen to me. I promise you. We did not sleep together."

"Okay," she whispers, and I'm not sure she believes me. I want to push her into trusting me and believing what I say, but since I don't have any plans to ever deal with Rachel again, I guess it's not important. Besides, I wasn't lying to her. The entire night is a blur. I didn't sleep with her though, and I know that. I wasn't in any shape to, for one. And for another, I've never liked Rachel, which is why I'm mad at myself for being fucked enough for even crashing at her place.

"What do you say we drive down by the old pond and swim?"

"I didn't wear my swimsuit."

"That's what I'm counting on," I tell her with a wink. Time to step up my game, and talking about her fucked-up sister is not the way to do that. Getting her naked? That sounds like a much better plan.





CHAPTER 37


KAYLA





White brings the side-by-side to a stop by the old oak tree that, when I was younger, used to be my favorite place to sit and dream. I usually dreamed about White. He never knew that and I never planned on telling him. Right now though, I have the strongest urge to tell him everything.