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“Tell me you won’t leave me again,” he orders, just as I come. I grab onto him and kiss him, knowing I will taste myself, but not trusting my words. He removes his mouth and slides down my body so he’s directly where I want him. I can feel him at my entrance and I feel like screaming for him. “I have loved three other women in my life… my mother, my sister and my niece. The only one that has ever held my heart and not fucking let go is you. How can you do that within only months of knowing you?”
I don’t answer him because there are no words to make it right.
He spreads my legs and I wrap them around him, securing him to my body. He inserts himself in my already wet pussy and I tense, and then relax when I hear his words.
“It’s me,” he says, like he knows what was about to enter my mind. He starts to move and I feel my body reacting strongly to him, like it knows what it wants and will take it. I dig my nails into his ass as he moves faster and faster. His hand reaches down between our bodies and he plays with my clit. It’s my undoing as I start to scream and scrape at his back. He isn’t done though. He flips me so I’m now on top and he’s on the bottom, then grabbing my hips he starts rocking inside me, showing me the movements and I follow happily. He flicks my clit again and I feel myself tightening as an orgasm builds inside me.
I come and Kai isn’t far behind. I collapse on top of him and his hands brush over my hair. I know I should move, but I’m way too tired, so I go to sleep with the sound of a heartbeat under my ear.
I wake to a cell phone ringing and reach to grab it. When I look at it, I realize it’s not mine. It’s Kai’s and it’s Leanne calling him. I turn to my side and see him open his eyes, he smiles and I hand him the cell. He takes one look and his face changes because it’s more like a wake-up call. I have to get away from him. I step out of bed, fully naked, and grab a pair of shorts and tee to put on. I start to pack my stuff up when his voice stops me.
“You can't go.” I turn to him as he gets out of bed and I notice a new tattoo inked across his shoulders. I know that name, but it’s not something I’ve heard for a long time. Nani.
“You have a girlfriend, Kai. What we did was wrong. I’m not willing to hurt her anymore than I have to. I think you should leave and go back to her,” I say, pointing toward the door.
“And what, pretend I love her? Pretend you don’t love me? Don’t be so fucking stupid, Nani, it would have never worked. I have waited for you for too long,” he says stepping closer. My will power leaves me as I drink in the sight of him, semi-erect and fully naked.
“Do you love her?” I ask.
“She’s a beautiful woman. Maybe it could have gone somewhere, maybe not, but she isn’t you. It’s you I need.”
“I think you should give it a try. I think you should stick to the sane and sensible girl. She will be good for you, Kai, I won’t be.”
“How do you know what’s good for me? Did you think it was good to leave me and not even fucking call me? Did you think that was smart? I have loved you at your weakest, please let me love you at your strongest.”
I don’t say a word to him and finish packing the rest of my bags. I didn’t do it to hurt him last time. I did it to fix me. Yes, I now believe I loved him and I still do love him, but I’m still a broken person, trying to put myself back together piece by piece.
“Think about it, Kai. Kids and marriage, she can give you all of that and you would never have to worry about what might happen when you come home. Who she might be. She’s your safe zone and your safest option, go to your safe zone.” I walk past him with my bag in my hand and he stops me.
“This is not what you want, Kristy.”
“No, but it’s something I have to do,” I say and pull my hand back. It’s his turn to be happy. The way he tried to make me happy. Maybe now, he will get closure. Maybe now, he can love her like I know he can.
I hear his scream as the cab pulls up and I give the driver the directions to Julia’s. I leave and try my hardest not to look back.
“You just got here. Oh, and why do you smell of sex?” she asks, looking me up and down. I blush at her comment and she slaps my ass.
“You hoe! Tell me… tell me… who was it?” she asks jumping up and down. I hang my head and she stops.
“I knew he left to go after you. Did you know he used to call me every week for a year for updates about you? He was persistent and eventually, I ended up giving him it all. I told him at the end of that first year you were doing better, seemed to be improving, and that I could hear the happiness in your voice when you spoke to me. That’s when he stopped because he just wanted you happy. I never told him you were coming. I didn’t know how to. You know he doesn’t love her, right? She loves him, but he can’t love her.”