Pregnant by Morning(45)

Matt communicated in subtle, baffling ways she’d never experienced—probably because she never stayed long enough to allow it. What was he trying to tell her with food? That he might have deeper and more lasting feelings for her then she’d thought?

Wishful thinking at its worst.

Her eyes burned with the sudden prick of tears.

The omelet turned to mush in her mouth, and she shoved the plate away. “I didn’t get much sleep last night. Think I’ll go back to bed.”

“Are you coming down with something?” He skirted the island and cupped her chin with both palms to peer into her eyes, concern practically dripping from his touch.

“I’m fine. Just tired.”

Narrowed blue eyes locked onto hers. The deflection didn’t fool him, but he chose not to call her on it.

Upstairs, she threw herself onto the bed, but it smelled like Matt and that wasn’t conducive to sleep, unless she wanted to have red-hot dreams about the way that man’s mouth felt on her body. She’d rather be experiencing the real thing, but with something far stronger than desire in his gaze.

She wanted Amber’s place in his heart. It was a really inadvisable thing to long for. But that didn’t make the longing magically disappear.

Matt had cooked for her. He’d been taking care of her in a way he never had with Amber.

Maybe he just needed more time to get over her. Maybe being here, in the house he’d bought his wife, prevented Matt from fully healing. Was Evangeline falling down on her job by dragging out their Venice bubble?

She rolled over and buried her face in the pillow, exhausted but unable to shut off the hamsters turning the wheel in her brain. She’d never been so tired in her life, probably because she’d rendered herself completely inactive. This was the longest she’d stayed in one place.

Monte Carlo beckoned. The words—the music—flowed again after a long, painful hiatus. If she stayed, all that lovely inspiration might dry up again. The wind had always guided her well enough before.

But if she moved on, Matt might lose all the progress he’d made. Worse, they’d never find out what might be possible between them. He couldn’t go home yet; that much he’d made clear in more than one conversation.

What if they moved on together?

A daring question. But what if it worked?

If she said the idea of being loved by Matt didn’t thrill her, she’d be lying. A solid, committed man like Matt would never fail her, and in turn, she’d never fail him. They had an unparalleled measure of trust in each other, an understanding. That was the way love was supposed to work. She wanted that, for once in her life.

But what if she asked and he said no? He’d been drifting in search of a way to get his old life back. Just because he wasn’t ready to go home this minute didn’t mean that goal had changed. Could she really risk Matt’s rejection?

After mulling it over for a long time, sleep finally claimed her.

* * *

Matthew’s slight restless feeling graduated into a full-blown itch to do something productive. He settled for getting out of the house.

He took his laptop to the rooftop patio and sat in the sun. The Venetian spring was unbelievable, still cool in the mornings, but a warm breeze wafted from the Adriatic Sea, laden with the pungent scent of marine life.

He wished Evangeline had come up to enjoy it with him, but she was taking an afternoon nap for the third time in a week.

Something was up, and he suspected she slept to avoid him. Because she was leaving. He could feel her winding down, becoming less talkative.

Honestly, he was avoiding “the talk,” too. It didn’t feel finished, this thing between them, but only because he didn’t want it to be. For once, the idea of no commitment seemed like a blessing. There would be no broken heart in his future when she took off.

The organ in question gave a quick, painful tug at the thought of Evangeline leaving, and he shut his eyes until it started beating normally again. No more of that, now.

Since he had an afternoon to himself, Matthew poked around in his stock accounts, balanced his checkbook and generally killed time with stuff that had no promise of holding his interest.

He logged onto WFP, curious to see if anything new was going on. Lucas had posted a few sales, but nothing major and certainly not at the same clip as his brother had performed last quarter. First quarter historically saw the best sales as companies began the year with clean budgets.

The numbers should be better.

Strategies, marketing, building specs—all of it scrolled into his head and he latched on greedily, gratified both the knowledge and the drive was still there.

They could easily gain visibility by—

Stay out of it.

Lucas was handling it, as he had been. What good could Matthew possibly do from halfway around the world?