“Shit, I’m sorry.”
He pulled out of her body and collapsed next to her. She turned on her side to look at him, and he did the same. Elijah reached out, stroking the hair out of her face. “I can’t believe I wasted so much time,” he said.
She held his hand, kissing his knuckles.
“There will be no more time wasted. I love you, Elijah, and I won’t let you run from me again.” She leaned over, resting on his chest. Amber traced his lips with her finger. This was the first time they’d lingered over sex. She couldn’t recall a time when they’d not been rushed.
“We never did this, did we?” he asked.
Amber shrugged. “It doesn’t matter. The past doesn’t matter.”
“I hurt you though.”
She smiled, kissing his fingers where they skimmed her lips. “I’m sure I’ve hurt you over the years. We’re both to blame for what happened. I’m not about the pain anymore, only the pleasure.”
****
Elijah looked up into his woman’s eyes. She was smiling down at him, and there was no fear or doubt in her eyes. He’d finally fixed the problem between them. Staring up into her eyes, he felt happy.
“What are you smiling about?” she asked.
He’d not even realized he was smiling. “I’ve got a lot to be happy about,” he said.
“Like what?” She rested her head on top of her hands where they were crossed on his chest.
“I got you in my arms and in my bed. We’re all alone in a secluded resort, and your cunt is filled with my cum. I’m a happy guy.”
She laughed, shaking her head. “You’re unbelievable,” she said. “Out of everything you could say to me you picked up on the cum thing.”
“Yeah, I did. What more is there?” he asked, nudging her with his shoulder.
Amber went silent on him for several seconds. “I don’t know. I can’t think of anything.” She shrugged and laughed. “I don’t care. I’m in your arms, and I’m happy. There’s nothing more to say about it.”
He ran his fingers up and down her arms. “Speaking of cum, are you on any birth control?” he asked. He’d always used a condom between them.
“No, I’m not on any. I, erm, I didn’t know what you wanted to do. I mean, I was going to see about getting the morning after pill, but I forgot. My life has been pretty hectic of late.” She tucked some hair behind her ear.
“You’re adorable when you don’t know what to say.”
Her cheeks bloomed red. “I’m sorry. I don’t know what to say to you. We’ve never talked about this.”
“It has been over a month since we were last together. Have you noticed any changes?” he asked.
Elijah was shocked by the excitement he was feeling. He didn’t think he’d be happy at the thought of being a father or having a family.
“What? You mean tender breasts, morning sickness?”
“Yes.”
“No, nothing. I don’t feel different at all. Do you wish I were?” she asked.
He held a strand of hair in his fingers. “I don’t know.”
“We’re a little messed up, don’t you think?” She giggled. “We can’t even decide if we want to have a family. How messed up is that?”
“I want a family with you, Amber. There’s no doubt in my mind about that. Right now is not the time for either of us.”
“Why?” she asked.
Running his hands down her back, Elijah stared into her eyes. “We’ve not had the time most couples have. We’ve had seven years of avoiding everything but a relationship.”
She chuckled. “I can’t believe we’ve done so much with each other. We’ve done loads in the bedroom, and yet, we’ve skipped the whole dating thing.”
“I hope to make up for my lack of attention and dating,” he said.
“You’re making dating plans?”
“You’ve got it. Prepared to be surprised and wooed all the time.” He cupped her cheek in his palm.
“What do you want me to do about birth control?”
“I think it will be best if you see your doctor. If you’re pregnant then we’ll deal with it together. I wouldn’t mind you being pregnant, but we need more time together before we’re committed to a family.”
She nodded in agreement. “We’re not ready for a baby.”
“I’ve got condoms in the drawer in the bathroom. I’ll get them.”
He waited for her to lift up off him before heading toward the bathroom. When he returned he found her laid against the pillows with her fingers between her thighs.