Overlooked(114)

"There's always a way. We'll find it, have faith."

"I've been here six months and have sold exactly one painting."

"And that one painting was great, just like all your others," she says gripping my shoulders and squeezing. "It's just about being discovered. It will happen. You're too good for it not to."

"I'm too crap, and that's why it won't happen. If I was any good, it would've happened by now." I fling my brush onto my wooden tray and sigh. Being faced with rejection every day has destroyed any belief I had in my abilities.

"That's not true. If you weren't any good, I wouldn't let you live here rent-free. I'd go find an accountant who arranges all her rent payments upfront." Ava wears a bohemian scarf wrapped around her head, and it bobs as she waggles her head.

"Thanks for reminding me what a freeloader I am."

It hadn't started that way. When I first moved to Santa Barbara I paid Ava rent, funded by an inheritance from my grandmother. But art supplies cost a fortune, and I was running through my inheritance so quickly that Ava decided not to accept any more rent from me, no matter how hard I tried to pay her.

"You aren't a freeloader. You're going to owe me the commission from your tenth and twenty-fifth paintings sold, remember?"

The corners of my mouth turn up and I can't help but laugh. "One painting isn't going to make up for all the rent I'm not paying you."

"Yes, it will. It won't take as long as you think, not if you keep on painting like that." Ava nods her head to the bold colors and delicate swirls on my canvas. We both stare at it for a few minutes. All I can feel is frustration at it. Frustration that no matter how much effort I put into it, no matter how much of my blood, sweat and tears, it's most likely going to end up gathering dust in the attic.

"I don't know how to thank you for all the support you give me. Both financial and emotional. I would've given up weeks ago if it wasn't for you."

She squeezes my shoulders and says, "Skye, listen to me. You are one of the most talented artists I've ever come across. You're a dream come true to me. Every art history professor dreams of discovering a talent like you. It's an honor to have you in my home."

"I'm going to request extra shifts at the restaurant. I know they said they only need me on the busy Thursday, Friday and Saturday evening shifts, but I heard a rumor that one of the guys on the day shift has been slacking and is going to get fired."

"Absolutely not. You cannot work during the day. You need to be here, capturing the natural light."

"But … "

"There is no but. Either you're serious about supporting yourself from your art or you're giving up. There's no in between."

I take my brushes to the utility sink in the next room and begin cleaning them, Ava continues to stare at my work in progress.

She's very kind but I struggle to understand why. My own parents have disowned me for wasting the money my grandmother left me. They insist painting is a hobby and not a real job, and that I need to get myself a real job real fast.

Ava found my blog online and, according to her, knew in an instant I was set for big things. She even paid for my plane ticket from Michigan. At first I'd assumed she was rich because she has a nice house with a view of the ocean in the distance. Then I found out she's given away most of her money to various charities for fighting poverty and realized she only kept the amount of money she felt she needed.

I should've known, given the anti-poverty and ‘share the wealth' themes of my paintings.

Knowing she isn't rolling in money makes me feel even guiltier about not being able to pay her rent. As it is, on top of my paycheck, I'm still dipping into my inheritance and all I'm covering is my art supplies, the upkeep of an old banger I bought to get to and from work and my groceries. Though I take as much food from the restaurant as I can.

"I see it," she says from the next room.

"See what?"

"The meaning. I see what you're doing. It's genius."

Patting dry the brushes in my hands, I walk back into the room she has converted into a studio for me. It's mostly empty, and light floods through the large windows onto the easel standing in the middle of the room. Ava is a few feet away from it, staring at it with her hands on her hips.

"What do you see?" I ask, knowing there's no way she sees the real meaning, which is my lack of a sex life.

"The movement in the water represents the movement of money. It's all gathering over here," she says, pointing to the top corner, "in a sort of whirlpool. I assume that's the one percent?"

"Is it too obvious?" I'm not about to tell her the whirlpool is actually my poor pussy, and the movement in the water is all the action I've never experienced.

Instead of going out and socializing like everyone else in high school and college, I spent every waking second studying and practicing different techniques. Twenty-three and never been kissed. It's pathetic, even if I do know a zillion different ways to lay paint on a canvas.

"Not in the least. Remember, I have the benefit of knowing you and knowing your themes. It's perfect the way it is. You really are amazing, I hope you see that. To most people, this is a beautiful image of the seaside. It would look pretty on any wall."

"You really think so?"

She turns and grabs the tops of my arms, shaking me gently. "Stop doubting yourself. You'll drive yourself crazy!"

"Thank you. For everything. I don't know what I'd do without your support." Especially without my parents in my life. Ava's now the closest thing I have to a mother, even though she's nearly old enough to be my grandmother.

"Stop being silly."

"I have to get ready for the money-making job now."







Late for my Saturday night shift as usual, I rush into Johnny's Roadhouse, making my way as fast as I can to the staff changing area. I say changing area, it's more or less a big closet lined with hooks to hang our stuff on.

I grab my apron out of my bag, and tie it around my waist. The dress code is pretty boring: black pants and a white T-shirt. At least I don't have to wear any buttons or flashing lights.

"You're late," my boss Kevin says, his overgrown eyebrows narrowed and his gnarled finger pointing at me.

"Sorry, Kevin, won't happen again."

"Two customers just sat down at table six. I was going to give it to Melanie, but get on it."

"I'm going."

I grab two menus, plaster a smile across my face and make my way through the rows of tan wood booths in my section of the restaurant until I spot the table that's just arrived.

"Good evening and welcome to Johnny's Roadhouse. I'm Skye, and it's great to see you both here tonight. The specials are on the first page of the menu." I say this so many times each shift that I practically go into a trance now I pretend I'm looking at them, but really my eyes are scanning the license plates on the wall behind them.

When I finally do look at the couple, the woman sticks out. She doesn't seem like she belongs in here. This isn't exactly the kind of place where you wear an evening dress and sparkling earrings that hang to your shoulders, but clearly no one told her that. I want to ask her if she got lost on the way to the mansion party, but don't. Wouldn't want to mess up my tip.

I pass her a menu and turn my attention to the man. For a moment, I'm speechless as I take him in. He doesn't look like he belongs with the woman. He's wearing jeans and a gray T-shirt that's pulled taut over his broad chest, with two full sleeves of tattoos on display. His dark hair is intentionally messy and there's a day's worth of stubble peppering his strong jaw. He's most definitely appropriate for this joint. Or any joint.

He pulls the menu from my hand, and I realize I've been frozen in place instead of handing it over.

"Sorry," I mutter.

"No problem," he says. He looks at me, and when we make eye contact a jolt rushes up my spine.

I let go of the menu and hurry to my station. It's a cramped spot hidden in the back corner of the dining area; a place I can watch my tables without them seeing me. Normally I think of it as my jail cell, but tonight I use it to spy on the hot guy.





Drawn

(Lawson)



My eyes fix on that fine waitress' ass as she walks away from our table. Skye, she said her name was. Appropriate for such a heavenly body.

Despite what my sister Julie had promised, my date had turned out to be yet another gold digger.

I hadn't intended to bring Freya here. But when I picked her up and she was dressed that way, and she had giggled, actually fucking giggled, at every little thing I said, it had become pretty fucking obvious that she was more interested in my money than in me.

Why did I let my sister set me up on a blind date? I knew it would end up like this.

Normally I show them a good time for the evening - in and out of my bed - but Freya annoyed me from the start and I thought I'd have a little fun with her.

When I saw the glowing red Johnny's Roadhouse sign, I slammed on the brakes of my Maserati and pulled into this place. Freya's mouth had hung open in shock when I told her there'd been a change of plans. Yacht party out, low-end restaurant in. If she handles herself well here she might - and that's a very big might - get a second chance.

This place is perfect for Freya. I'll bet it's her first time sitting in a booth. Or the first place she's ever been with license plates on the wall. Why am I wasting my time with her?