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I can feel a sigh escape from Ark. His chest falls with it and so do his eyes. He’s thinking, Should I do this? He’s asking himself what the consequences will be.

JD and I have discussed it all day. And we both knew Ark would not automatically be on board. Even sitting here, my pussy positioned over the tip of his cock, he’s not ready to say yes.

“I want you, Ark,” I tell him softly. “I want you and I don’t want you to change for me. I want what you’re offering.”

His eyes dart up and seek me out. That is what he wants to hear. Needs to hear. That his desires are legitimate. That maybe love can grow out of the sex, if we all get what we need. JD wants to make me submit. I want to feel the pain of pleasure. Ark wants to control.

It works. It will work, I know it.

“Please, Ark,” I beg. “Take me the way you want me.”

He looks up at JD now, this time taking a deep inhale. “I don’t know, dude.”

JD places his warm hands on my chilled shoulders and squeezes. “What’s to object to? I like it my way. You like it your way. She likes it both ways. We got sex, and lust, and maybe even love. What’s confusing about it?”

Ark squints his eyes with disapproval at JD’s words. “You’re my best friend. You’re my business partner. You’re my roommate. And now you want to be my lover?”

JD shrugs. “So?”

Ark pushes me off him, sending me into JD’s arms, and then he pulls up his pants and walks towards his bedroom.

“Hey, asshole!” JD jogs after him, catching him by the shirt. Ark pushes him off, and they stand there, chest to chest, like men do when they feel the need to flex their testosterone.

“Don’t touch me. You think you can just start shit like this and say fuck the consequences? You think you can just play with everyone’s emotions? How far has that gotten you in the past, JD?”

“Fuck you,” JD says, giving Ark a push to the chest that sends him back a step. “Don’t throw the past up in my face. That’s just your chickenshit way of avoiding the real issue here.”

“Which is what?” Ark growls, giving JD a push back.

“You just don’t want to be invested. You don’t want to get your feelings hurt. You don’t want to have to compete with me. Hell, that’s probably the reason you never fuck on camera—”

“I got my dick sucked off on camera this week, didn’t I? I was the one who got our quota in on time this this week, wasn’t I?”

“Congratulations. You used some ex-whore girlfriend to meet the contact. So what? I don’t know who that bitch is. After four years, I still don’t know who that bitch is. Why is that?”

“What’s this got to do with now? Today? Blue? Me? You?”

JD takes a step forward, but his shoulders drop a little and his head turns a little, giving him the appearance of backing down as he gets closer. “You hide, Ark. You’re hiding. Whatever it was that made you leave Florida and come to Colorado, it’s still chasing you. And you’re hiding. You’re hiding behind a camera. Behind a computer. You’re hiding behind me, Ark. And you want Blue, just as much as I want Blue. And yet you’re gonna use me to push her away. You don’t like the kinky stuff, Ark? Is that what you want her to believe?”

“That’s not what I told her,” Ark snaps.

All this is news to me, so I get to my feet. Ark has secrets. And I’m very interested in knowing about them.

“I told her I’m not into abuse. She likes the pain. You like inflicting it. I’m not on board with that and I won’t look the other way.”

I place my hand on Ark’s bicep. He’s hot with anger, or desire, or maybe even frustration. Because he’s conflicted. I need to know what’s conflicting him.

“You want to control her, just like you want to control me.”

Ark clenches his jaw and rage fills his eyes.

“You want to tell her how to dress and how to fuck. You want to give her rules and limits and parameters.”

“To keep her safe. You want to slap her around and make her cry.”

“To keep her happy,” JD retorts back.

They stare at each other, JD naked, Ark clothed. Both men are still very hard. This is definitely turning them on. So I reach down and grab them both by the cocks. They look at me, surprised. Like they forgot I was here. “Don’t you want to know what I want?”

They just stare.

I look at JD first. “I don’t know why I need it, JD. I don’t know why the rough stuff turns me on. All I know is that I can’t help myself when it starts. That stuff… it’s exciting.” I look at Ark next. “Not always in a good way. I know it’s something I’ve been conditioned to because of…” I choose my words carefully. “Because of the arrangement I just came out of. But I can’t help that, Ark.”