“What depth of feelings?” Alice looked at me like I was crazy. “Look, I’m not trying to be a bitch here and tell me if I’m getting something wrong, but all you guys did is fuck. He went down on you at the wedding and then you guys spent a night in his hotel room fucking like dogs right?”
“Yes.” I nodded.
“Were there any late night deep conversations you didn’t tell me about? Did you realize you were soulmates?”
“We spoke a little bit, but nothing major.” I conceded, as my heart dropped. “So you think he was lying to me?”
“I don’t know.” She sighed. “It just seems weird. ‘I had sex with you and you left and that made me sad’ sounds fake. I think most guys would wake up feeling ecstatic if the girl they had just picked up was not there.”
“Yeah, that’s true.” I sighed.
“And I mean, he’s still with Gabby right? Did he say he would end things with her?”
“Nope.” I said curtly. “He said he hoped I understood, but they had a business relationship.”
“Bullshit.” She said and rolled her eyes. “He’s full of shit.”
“Yeah, I guess so.” I closed my eyes. “So that’s why I wanted to leave this morning before everyone woke up.”
“I understand.” She said softly and reached over to hug me. “I’m sorry, Liv.” She rubbed my back and before I knew it, I was crying. The tears poured out of me and I sobbed uncontrollably.
“I’m sorry,” I hiccupped as she rubbed my back.
“Don’t be.” She said softly. “It’s okay.”
“I feel like such a fool. I don’t know why I had my hopes up so high. I don’t know why I thought this would be anything different.” I spoke my thoughts out loud. “I just hoped that when he saw me again and touched me again, he would want me you know? I wanted to have that magical relationship that everyone else has, but me.”
“I don’t have it either.” Alice said and I leaned back to see tears in her eyes.
“Oh Alice, what’s wrong?” I stared at her face. “I’m sorry, I forgot to ask you what happened last night. Why were you so eager to leave early as well?”
“I don’t want to talk about it.” She bit her lower lip and looked down. “I made a mistake and I ruined everything.”
“Oh Alice, what happened?” I said softly, my stomach sinking. What had she done?
“It doesn’t matter.” She shook her head. “I don’t want to talk about it right now. I’ll tell you later, okay?”
“Sure.” I wiped a tear from her cheek. “I’m here for you anytime.”
“I love you.” She said with a sigh. “You’re the best friend I could have wished for.”
“You know I feel the same way about you.” I smiled at her gratefully. “We may have lost the boyfriend lottery, but we own the friend lottery.”
“Yeah, it’s a pity we’re not lesbians.” She giggled through her tears. “Then we’d be able to live happily ever after.”
“Are you hitting on me Alice?” I winked at her and she hit me on the shoulder.
“You never know.” She giggled and wiped her eyes. “We’ll find good guys one day.”
“Yup, let’s not look for them at the club though.” I laughed as I remembered the previous evening. “I don’t think we’re going to meet any winners in the club.”
“Yeah, ha ha.” She stretched. “We can forget the guys at the club.”
“Yay.” I stretched and stood up. “Okay, I think it’s time to go back to bed.”
“Me too.” She yawned again and wiped her eyes. “See you in a few hours.”
“See you this afternoon.” I giggled and walked to my bedroom. I dropped on my bed in a heap and before I knew it I was fast asleep, once again having dreams of my night with Mr. Miracle Tongue.
***
The constant ringing of the doorbell woke me up and I cursed into the pillow as I covered my ears. “Make it stop.” I muttered to myself.
Ding Dong.
“I’m coming.” I screamed as I jumped out of bed and hurried to the front door. It was during times like this that I envied Alice her ability to sleep through anything. “Yes?” I opened the door with an attitude and my heart dropped as I stared at Xander on the other side of the door, a huge grimace on his face.
“Hello Liv.”
“Xander.” I nodded and glared at him. “What are you doing here? You woke me up, you know?”
“It’s Sunday afternoon, Liv.” He pushed past me and into the apartment. “Why are you in bed still?”