“I love you Jordan.” She finally said. “I’m not ready to get bitten again, not yet. Be patient with me, okay?” He nodded understanding. It wasn’t that she that she didn’t want to wear his mark or that she didn’t want him to claim her. It was the rape. This had to be the strongest woman on the planet. If he were in her place, he wouldn’t want to be touched again. Ever. He wondered how much of the attack she remembered. She remembered the bites. If she needed him to wait then he would wait, forever if need be, as long as she stayed. He didn’t care what anyone said, he had his Lettie back. Nothing else mattered.
Chapter Six
Lettie woke up screaming from the nightmare. She’d just relived the attack of the six rogues. Jordan tried to soothe her but she fought him. “Sweetheart, calm down, it’s okay, I’ve got you.” He cooed.
“This is your fault! All of this is your fault, the attack, the illness, the nightmare. It’s all you Jordan!” Lettie scrambled across the bed away from him and across the room. She began searching frantically for her clothes. “Where are my clothes Jordan?” Lettie threw tee shirts and jeans about the room.
“Come back to bed Lettie.” Jordan put his arm around her. Lettie screamed again and jumped away. He tried to shush her but she wasn’t having it. “Please talk to me. Tell me what happened. You promised that we would work this out and we can’t do that if you won’t share with me.” Jordan’s strong arms were around her now and she couldn’t get loose. The tears started followed by violent sobs. “Oh baby, you’ve remembered it, haven’t you? You’ve remembered all of it. I’m so sorry.” He lifted her and carried her to the bed. Jordan curled his body behind her and held her tight. If he didn’t she would bolt. “Tell me.” He murmured against her ear. Lettie shuddered.
“I heard a noise and I went to guard the store. I thought it was burglars and since I live over a human owned business, I assumed they would be human. I went down the diaper aisle and there were three of them.” She sniffled. “They followed me and I didn’t know where I was going but I just wanted to get away. I knew they were stronger, they were all males. When I got to the back, there were three more. They made me shift and then they…” Lettie started to sob again. “I tried to bite the leader and that was when they all started biting me. The leader tore a chunk out of my breast.” Jordan’s eyes were moist but he stayed strong for her. “The leader raped me first, he’s was their alpha and he stuck his filthy cock into me, my mouth, my ass, my…” The sob tore from her throat. Jordan tightened his arms around her and she fought him. Lettie was having trouble holding her form. All she knew was that her wolf needed to get away, to run until she couldn’t remember. “If you hadn’t left me, if you hadn’t rejected me, if you didn’t need to be the alpha, none of it would’ve happened Jordan!” Lettie sprung across the room. He’d let her get up feeling her anxiety.
“Lettie.” Jordan tried to calm her with his soft soothing voice.
“No!” She snarled. “Then you did the same thing when I was asleep. You’re no better than they were!” She screeched at him.
“That’s not so Lettie, you wanted that.” He was getting closer to her and when he got close enough he would hold her until she was reasonable again.
“I guess I wanted to be raped and torn apart too. I must have since I live alone over a grocery store. Any man could take advantage, isn’t that right Jordan?” She hissed. “It’s what you said.” Lettie shifted and bolted for the door. Jordan shifted and followed but Lettie was like a streak once she was outside. The gravel flew up behind her and he knew that it was best to let her get it out of her system.
Hours later, she returned. Jordan sat on the porch waiting for her. She came up the steps still in her wolf form and went inside. Jordan followed her until she shut the bedroom door in his face. He heard the lock click. Jordan leaned his head on the door listening. She was crying again. This was going to rip his heart from his chest. Her bleak desperation was more than he could handle. He needed to soothe her, to hold her and to make her understand. Jordan went to the kitchen and made her lunch. He prepared steak and grilled vegetables then placed them on a tray. He knocked softly on the bedroom door but she wouldn’t answer. “I have food for you. It’s out here by the door Lettie, please eat, I don’t want you to get sick again. I’m going to my office if you need me.” Jordan called through the door then walked away. He needed to get ready for the pack meeting later. He would have to find a way to sort this out. He did not intend to give up alpha yet, he’d had the position for ten days. Ten days would have to be the shortest term any wolf in history had ever served. She had to understand that it was for her. It was all for her.