Once Mated Twice Shy(14)

“Well, that too.” They both laughed.

“Jordan. I don’t know if I can…” God those eyes, he could look into them forever.

“You still love me Lettie. You proved it earlier, even if you don’t want to admit it, you still want me.” She licked her lips and he watched closely.

“I always wanted you Jordan. I…just…I...I wanted you to be less selfish with me.” He was nodding. “I need…”

“I know what you need darlin’.” He hadn’t called her that since they were teenagers. He knew she couldn’t fight that. He knew what it did to her because she’d told him back when they were so crazy for each other neither of them could see past the other. Her core clenched at the memory. Jordan was crawling toward her. “I’ll give it all up if it will make you happy. All I ever wanted was to make you happy.” Her heart was banging around in her chest making it hard to breathe. His eyes flashed. “I want you Lettie and I want to leave my mark on you, this time I want it to be permanent.” He was getting too close, crowding her.

“Whoa.” Lettie put her hand up to stop him. “I didn’t agree to that.” It was getting hard to control her breathing and soon it would be impossible to tell him ‘no.’

“I said I would give up alpha, what else do you want? Just say and it’s yours.” He was so big, so beautiful, and so aroused. Wow.

“Um.” He took her hand, the one stopping him and kissed it. “I want you to slow down. We aren’t finished negotiating.” Lettie pulled her knees up to her chest.

“I am. Whatever you want, it’s yours. You have my heart. It’s all you need to get whatever you want.” His eyes were amber.

“Kiss me.” He kissed her hand again. “Here.” She pointed to her lips. His mouth pressed warmly to hers. “And here.” She pointed to her nose. “Here.” Her neck. She felt teeth and shifted away. “Just kiss.” She pointed to her belly button when she pulled her shirt up. He dipped his tongue into it and she trembled. Jordan’s kisses trailed lower and he spread her legs. His kisses grew more intimate the closer he went to her core. “Shit.” She hissed and he chuckled. Jordan’s tongue caressed her clitoris and her toes curled. Her legs shook. He spread them further while bending them up, nearly folding her in half. “Oh.” His tongue dipped into the well of her vagina then licked up to her clitoris again. His mouth closed over the small nub, he sucked it then, and Lettie nearly screamed with the orgasm that crashed through her.

“You always did love that.” Jordan murmured. “What you didn’t know was that I love it too. I love the sounds that you make, the way your body responds and bucks. I love the way orgasms sneak up on you and make you scream. You’ve always responded so well to me, to the things I do to you Lettie.” His tongue dipped inside of her again and she trembled. “I’m going to keep doing this to you until you can’t take another lick, suck, or nibble.” He murmured against the sensitive skin. She moaned and tried to move away because what he was doing felt too damn good. When had Jordan learned to be so attentive? Sure, they’d always been good together, good at getting the other off, but he was always more into it for self satisfaction really. Not that he minded pleasing her but it was with the understanding that she would please him as well. The Jordan between her legs didn’t seem concerned with his own pleasure, but the day wasn’t over yet either.

“No biting.” She narrowed her eyes.

“There will be absolutely no biting sweetheart.” His deep voice sent a tremor through her. Jordan sucked her labia into his mouth. Lettie’s back bowed of its own accord and she felt more than heard his chuckle. “Is sucking okay?” Her ‘uh-huh’ was high and breathy, he chuckled again. Jordan’s tongue was inside of her stroking nerves and lighting her up from the inside. Her fingers knotted in the sheets beneath her. Lettie watched him down the length of her body, watched his mouth move over her most intimate parts. God he was still so sexy after all of this time, still the most gorgeous man she’d ever seen. His hair wasn’t as long as it once was but it was still thick and dark. He had a few grays at the temple but they were barely noticeable unless you looked hard. He was kissing his way up her middle, mouthing, sucking, and licking her skin. “Still with me?” His voice rumbled over her nerves. His lips were against her ear now. She nodded. “It seemed like your mind was wandering. I want you to remember every moment of this. I want you to feel every moment of this. Her heart was pounding again. He knew every trick there was to making her climax and he played her like an instrument. He knew when he did that murmur against her ear thing that it was guarantee for getting her there quickly. He used to do that while she was trying to cook or clean. They’d end up having sex where ever they were. It didn’t matter that she was scrubbing tiles in the shower. He’d take her in the middle of the bathroom floor. Then one day it stopped. Tears pooled in her eyes. It stopped and he would pick at her instead. “Hey, what’s wrong?” Jordan was watching her face now and she turned her head. “Don’t hide from me Lettie.” He turned her face back to him with gentle fingers. This was never going to work. Who was she kidding? There was too much resentment. There were still too many bad memories and bad feelings between them. “What did I do wrong? Did I hurt you?”