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Not Just the Boss's Plaything(44)

By:Caitlin Crews


She stabbed a finger in the general direction of the red-roofed,    whitewashed city that clung to the rugged coastline off the side of the    yacht, and the walls and fortress that encircled it so protectively.   The  blue waters of the Adriatic-because she knew where she was, she   didn't  need him to confirm it so much as explain it-were as gorgeous   and  inviting as ever. She wanted to throw him overboard and watch those   same  waters consume him, inch by aggravating inch. Only the fact that   he was  so much bigger than she-and all of it sleek and smooth muscle   she did  not trust herself near enough to touch-prevented her trying.   And only  barely prevented her, at that.

He didn't glance toward the shore. Why should he? He had undoubtedly    known where they were going the moment he'd mentioned Zurich back in    London. He'd certainly known when they'd landed in a mysterious airfield    somewhere in Europe and he'd hurried her onto the helicopter before   she  could get her bearings. This was only a surprise for her.

"Did I say Switzerland?" he asked, that voice of his deceptively soft    and all the more lethal for it, while his gaze remained hard. "You must    have misheard me."

"Exactly what is your plan?' she threw at him, temper and fear and    something else she couldn't quite identify sloshing around inside her,    making her feel like a bomb about to detonate. "Am I your prisoner  now?"

"How theatrical you are," he said, and she had the impression that he    was choosing his words carefully. That much harsher words lurked behind    that quiet tone that she knew meant he was furious. "How did you  manage   to hide that so long and so well?"

"You must have mistaken me for someone else," Dru hurled at him. "I'm not going to mindlessly obey your commands-"

"Are you certain?" That black gold gaze of his turned darker, harder as    he cut her off. It made her feel oddly hollow, and much too hot. She    assured herself it was anger, nothing more. "If memory serves,  obedience   is one of your strengths."

"Obedience was my job," she said with some remnant of her former iciness. "But I quit."

He looked at her for a long, simmering moment.

"Your resignation has not been accepted, Miss Bennett," he snapped out,    fierce and commanding. As if she should not dare mention the matter    again. And then he turned his back on her and strode off across the    gleaming, sun-kissed deck as if it was settled.

Dru stood where he'd left her, feeling a little bit silly and more than a    little off balance in her smart office clothes and delicate heels  that   were completely inappropriate for a boat. She stepped out of her    stilettos and scooped them up in her hand, trying to breathe in the    crisp sea air. Trying to curl her now-bare toes against the cool deck as    if that might ground her.

Trying to breathe.

She moved over to the polished rail and leaned her elbows against it,    frowning at the rolling waves, the gorgeously craggy coastline beckoning    in the distance, rich dark greens and weathered reds basking in the    sun. She felt it all twist and shift inside her then, all of the    struggle and agony, the sacrifice and frustrated yearning. The grief.    The hope. The brutal truth some part of her wished she'd never learned.    It all seemed to swell within her as if it might crack her open and  rip   her apart-as if, having finally opened the door to all the things   she'd  repressed all this time, the lies she'd told herself, she   couldn't lock  it back up. She couldn't pretend any longer.                       
       
           



       

Misery rose inside her, thick and black and suffocating. And fast. And    for a moment, she could do nothing but let it claim her. There was so    much she couldn't change, couldn't help. She couldn't go back in time    and keep her father from dying when she and Dominic had still been    toddlers. She couldn't keep her mother from her string of lovers, each    more vicious and abusive than the last. She couldn't keep sweet,    sensitive Dominic from choosing oblivion, and then courting it, his life    and his drugs getting harder every year, until it was no more than a    waiting game for his inevitable and tragic end.

The long, hard breath she took felt ragged. Too close to painful.

And she was free of those obligations now, it was true, but she was also    irrevocably and impossibly alone. She hardly remembered her father  and   her mother hadn't acknowledged her existence in years. She'd built  her   life around handling Dominic's disease, and with him gone, there  was   nothing but...emptiness. She would fill it, she promised herself.  She   would build a life based finally on what she wanted, not as some  kind of   response to people and things that were forever out of her  control.  Not  a life in opposition to her mother's choices. Not a life  contingent  on  Dominic's problems. A life that was only hers, whatever  that looked   like.

All she had to do was escape Cayo Vila first.

Another fresh wave of pain crashed through her then, just as hard to    fight off. Sharper, somehow. Wrenching and dark. Cayo. Three years ago    she'd thought she'd seen something in him, some glimmer of humanity, an    indication that he was so much more than the man he pretended to be  in   public. And she'd taken that night, some intimate conversation and a    single, ill-conceived, far too passionate kiss, and built herself a    whole imaginary world of possibility. Oh, the ways she'd wanted him,  the   ways she'd believed in him-and all the while he'd thought so very    little of her that he'd blocked her chances for another position in  the   Vila Group and, in so doing, any kind of independent career.  Without a   word to her. Without any conversation at all.

With three careless sentences.

Miss Bennett is an assistant, he'd emailed Human Resources not long    after that night she'd so foolishly believed had changed everything    between them. She'd applied for the job in marketing, thinking it was    high time she spread her wings in the company, took charge of her own    career rather than merely supported his. She is certainly no vice    president. Look elsewhere.

He hadn't hidden the fact he'd done it, either. Why should he have? It    was right there in Dru's file, had she ever bothered to look. She    hadn't, until today, while doing a bit of housecleaning about the    office. She'd been so sure everything was different after Cadiz, if    unspoken, unaddressed. She hadn't minded that she hadn't got that job;    she'd thought she and Cayo had an understanding-she'd believed they  were   a team-

So help her, she thought now, forcing back the angry, humiliated tears    she was determined not to cry, she would never again be so foolish.

She'd known exactly who he was when he'd hired her, and she knew exactly    who he was now. She'd spend the rest of her life working out how  she'd   managed to lose sight of that for so long, how she'd betrayed  herself  so  completely for a fantasy life in her head, built around a  single  kiss  that still made her flush hot to recall, but she wouldn't  forget  herself  again. It was cold comfort, perhaps, but it was all she  had.

She found him in one of the yacht's many salons, a sleek celebration of    marble and glass down an ostentatious spiral stair that was as    gloriously luxe as everything else on this floating castle he'd won in a    late-night card game from a Russian oligarch.

"It was easy to take," he'd said with a small shrug when she'd asked why    he'd wanted another yacht to add to his collection. "So I took it."

He sat now in the sunken seating area with one of his interchangeable    and well-nigh-anonymous companions melting all over him, all plumped-up    breasts and sheaves of wheat-blond hair cascading here and there. He   had  discarded his jacket somewhere and now looked deliciously rumpled,    white shirt open at the collar and his olive skin seeming to gleam.  The   girl pouted and whined something in what sounded like Czech when  she  saw  Dru walk in, as if it was Dru's presence that was keeping  Cayo's   attention on the flat-screen television on the inner wall  rather than on   the assets she had on display. As if, were Dru not  there, he might   actually pay her some mind.