Shifting his weight, he slid first one of his legs and then the other between hers, forcing them apart. Lowering himself onto his elbows, he nudged a leg over each one of his wide shoulders as his hands slid under and around them, opening her fully to his gaze.
"Goddess, you are beautiful, Mackenzie," he whispered, gazing at her glistening, wet folds. She truly was a goddess, his goddess, and he was going to treat her like one. Using his thumbs, he parted her dark curls until he revealed her pleasure nub, then lowering his mouth worshiped at it.
Mac knew Nikhil wanted her to keep her hands over her head, but she just couldn't. She wanted to do more than just feel Nikhil's touch. She wanted to see him touching her. Propping herself up on her elbows, she watched him settle between her legs and couldn't believe how arousing it was.
She'd never believed the stories other women had told about how excited and turned on they could get when their boyfriends touched them. It hadn't been that way for her and Chase. It had always seemed awkward and embarrassing to her. She'd had to consciously force herself to relax whenever he touched her, and normally closed her eyes. She had wondered what was wrong with her. Now she knew nothing was, it wasn't her, it was Chase... he wasn't Nikhil.
The simplest of Nikhil's touches turned her on. When he did it with intent like now, he left her breathless with anticipation. When his eyes started to glow brighter, her heart pounded heavily and her channel clenched with need. Watching him now, touching her so intimately, his eyes glowed brighter than she'd ever seen, and it had her core throbbing with an incredible ache that she knew only he could ease. Her eyes widened when she saw him lower his head, then gasped when he began licking and sucking on her clit.
"Nikhil!" she cried out, her fingers digging into the bed to stop herself from touching him since she'd agreed not to.
Nikhil growled as Mackenzie's taste exploded on his tongue. Goddess, nothing had ever tasted as sweet or as perfect or as his before. At her cry, he lifted his glowing gaze to hers, while his mouth continued to suck on the small bundle of nerves. She'd moved, even though he'd told her not to, and they would discuss that later, but at least, she wasn't touching him. He didn't think he could control himself if she did. His shaft was already painfully swollen in the confines of his pants, and only his warrior's control kept him from releasing. He wanted to make sure she never regretted giving him this gift, that her first experience in joining was memorable because of the amount of pleasure he gave her, and not because he thought only of his own.
Shifting his arms, he wrapped one around her hips keeping them from rising as he continued to lavish her nub with attention while the other moved to explore her slick folds. Slowly he slipped a finger into her channel. He knew she would be small, for everything about her was small compared to him, but Goddess, not this small or tight.
He could feel the walls of her channel clenching tightly around his finger as he slowly began to work it in and out. How amazing would that feel wrapped around his shaft? Carefully, he added a second finger and felt her body’s instinctive resistance to the increase in size, but he continued to press, for as large as his two fingers were, his shaft was so much larger. Goddess, she was tight! Pressing as deeply as he could, he felt a barrier then froze when she gasped in pain.
"Mackenzie...” he lifted his mouth slightly, his gaze piercing hers. What was this? Why was it causing her pain?
"It's okay. It's my hymen. It's supposed to be painful the first time."
Nikhil frowned at that. He knew Kaliszian females had such a thing because he had sisters. He could still remember how his mother had cried and hugged each one the day they went in to be treated, stating that they were no longer just her female offspring but now truly female. It was done so they wouldn't experience pain when they first joined. Why hadn't Mackenzie's been treated? Was it not the way of her people? "Why?" he found himself asking.
"It's just the way it is. In our past, it was expected that a female would still have it when she married, found her Dasho or True Mate," she corrected. "It's not that way so much anymore because...”
"Because?"
"Because times have changed, and most males don't want to be a female's first. They find it an inconvenience, they want someone experienced, and...”
Nikhil growled at the thought that anyone would consider her innocence an inconvenience. It made him question why his parents had allowed his sisters to have theirs removed. While the thought of knowingly causing her pain was repulsive to him, the thought of knowing he was her first and her only, was indescribable.
"It is an honor to be your first, Mackenzie," he told her, then attacked her nub even more furiously knowing he had to bring her to release at least once, had to give her pleasure before breaking her barrier. Then he would give her even more pleasure, and she would be his forever.